chan
May 5th, 2004, 03:52 AM
Hi.
I dont have a real job.
Don't think i have, ever. It started out when I was young, quitting jobs becuase of incredible shyness. Plus I didnt know how to talk to people. Plus I did things rather strangely. Must say so myself. However I am very reliable and dependable honest person. And I can and do work. Alternate between being leisure and workoholic. In my life I've gone through about a thousand jobs.). So everyone thinks I have many hats. OK for that.
I have been able to get by, one way or other. But I fear I may be too idealistic.
Now there is a person who wishes to give me a bundle of money. And woah, they are giving me some cash.
I wondered if I should go to school with it, to learn a career. But I honestly can't think of a career. Right now all I want to do is start a marginal cabaret venue. Plus I want to continue to develop a meditation practice, which require time and leisure.
But maybe I am too idealistic.
So I asked the Yi.
"Yi, do I need to plan for a financial future?"
(meaning, do I need to go to university, get degree, so i can let children to be happy or something? not in school, but special program. or teach adulats how to make art, soemthing like that. get paid, regular job, benefits.okok i admit i dont want to do this. I never successful out at anything in a normal way in my life, why now. )
Yi said 39.6 to 53.
What do u think????
I wondered if the Yi was giving me a huge blessing. "No, you don't have to go by the rules:" This is actually what I wish, but I dont wish to misguide myself.
Please help me with your perspective.
ukiko
I dont have a real job.
Don't think i have, ever. It started out when I was young, quitting jobs becuase of incredible shyness. Plus I didnt know how to talk to people. Plus I did things rather strangely. Must say so myself. However I am very reliable and dependable honest person. And I can and do work. Alternate between being leisure and workoholic. In my life I've gone through about a thousand jobs.). So everyone thinks I have many hats. OK for that.
I have been able to get by, one way or other. But I fear I may be too idealistic.
Now there is a person who wishes to give me a bundle of money. And woah, they are giving me some cash.
I wondered if I should go to school with it, to learn a career. But I honestly can't think of a career. Right now all I want to do is start a marginal cabaret venue. Plus I want to continue to develop a meditation practice, which require time and leisure.
But maybe I am too idealistic.
So I asked the Yi.
"Yi, do I need to plan for a financial future?"
(meaning, do I need to go to university, get degree, so i can let children to be happy or something? not in school, but special program. or teach adulats how to make art, soemthing like that. get paid, regular job, benefits.okok i admit i dont want to do this. I never successful out at anything in a normal way in my life, why now. )
Yi said 39.6 to 53.
What do u think????
I wondered if the Yi was giving me a huge blessing. "No, you don't have to go by the rules:" This is actually what I wish, but I dont wish to misguide myself.
Please help me with your perspective.
ukiko