candid
March 24th, 2002, 12:12 PM
I?ve revealed in another thread, that I?ve been dealing with a prolonged period of insomnia. Rather than attempting to infuse this into one of the many other interesting topics, I?ve decided to present this separately.
Yes, I?ve been working with Yi to penetrate into the reasons behind this malady. The most focused and deliberate reading on the question yielded 21 with 6 at the top. There were other change lines as well, but that one shocked me out of my tree. I tenaciously sought to ?bite through? the obstacle of my obstinacy, that which was blocking the natural flow of sleep. I pondered possible anger, I might be harboring, and insecurities, fears, untruths, anything which might reveal the truth of the matter to me. I?ve pondered posting the question here, but wanted to allow enough time to penetrate, as best I could, into the meaning first.
I?ve mentioned elsewhere, my good fortune of having a long time friend who I grew up with and who plunged into the I Ching alongside me, many years ago. I asked him what he thought of my dilemma. If you think I?m direct in my approach, you?ve never spoken to my friend. ?Put the Ching away for two weeks. Your subconscious is overactive. Your system has locked up, the same as a Windows program will. You need to clear out of the program and reboot.? This was all he said.
My initial reaction was to defend my reasons for the current absorption into such things which lay beneath the surface of my conscious mind. But then I remembered #21 with that nasty change at the top. I realized at that moment, he?s right. I?ve allowed myself to go back to what I?ve evolved from. Rather than living life as a natural occurrence, I?ve again become obsessed into penetrating through to every meaning and proper actions required by the understanding of such meanings. While this is not immoral, its not profitable, at this time, where my overall well being is concerned.
All this explains why #60 has been floating and flowing through my mind, recently. Limitations are indeed the answer to my sleeping challenge. I?ve allowed my desire to do right and to be perfect, to become an obsession, to the exclusion of natural phenomenon such as sleeping. I?ve been here before and have learned this lesson before. While the Yi has not directed me to #4, I place myself squarely into that category, and from there, I willfully move toward #24. I?ll again return to trusting my instincts and relying less on confirmations and admonitions from an oracle.
This in no way casts a negative light upon the I Ching, overall. It only says that I?ve penetrated deeply enough into realms unseen and its time to return to living life in a more natural rhythm. That, in time, will allow the blockage to dissolve and I will again enjoy the natural phenomenon called, sleep.
Blessings to all.
Yes, I?ve been working with Yi to penetrate into the reasons behind this malady. The most focused and deliberate reading on the question yielded 21 with 6 at the top. There were other change lines as well, but that one shocked me out of my tree. I tenaciously sought to ?bite through? the obstacle of my obstinacy, that which was blocking the natural flow of sleep. I pondered possible anger, I might be harboring, and insecurities, fears, untruths, anything which might reveal the truth of the matter to me. I?ve pondered posting the question here, but wanted to allow enough time to penetrate, as best I could, into the meaning first.
I?ve mentioned elsewhere, my good fortune of having a long time friend who I grew up with and who plunged into the I Ching alongside me, many years ago. I asked him what he thought of my dilemma. If you think I?m direct in my approach, you?ve never spoken to my friend. ?Put the Ching away for two weeks. Your subconscious is overactive. Your system has locked up, the same as a Windows program will. You need to clear out of the program and reboot.? This was all he said.
My initial reaction was to defend my reasons for the current absorption into such things which lay beneath the surface of my conscious mind. But then I remembered #21 with that nasty change at the top. I realized at that moment, he?s right. I?ve allowed myself to go back to what I?ve evolved from. Rather than living life as a natural occurrence, I?ve again become obsessed into penetrating through to every meaning and proper actions required by the understanding of such meanings. While this is not immoral, its not profitable, at this time, where my overall well being is concerned.
All this explains why #60 has been floating and flowing through my mind, recently. Limitations are indeed the answer to my sleeping challenge. I?ve allowed my desire to do right and to be perfect, to become an obsession, to the exclusion of natural phenomenon such as sleeping. I?ve been here before and have learned this lesson before. While the Yi has not directed me to #4, I place myself squarely into that category, and from there, I willfully move toward #24. I?ll again return to trusting my instincts and relying less on confirmations and admonitions from an oracle.
This in no way casts a negative light upon the I Ching, overall. It only says that I?ve penetrated deeply enough into realms unseen and its time to return to living life in a more natural rhythm. That, in time, will allow the blockage to dissolve and I will again enjoy the natural phenomenon called, sleep.
Blessings to all.