me and my boss - some more questions

[blue iris]

Due to the difficulties in the relation with my boss, I needed to explore some further.

I asked how will the situation with my boss evolve?
I got 50 unchanging.

I think this is okay, no? And indeed, we have a lovely communion, he is very nice and me too, we connect okay on this level of the office.

I asked what is his attitude towards me, I got
9.3->61

Line 3 is about quarrels and yes, indeed, there were quarrels between us. But more specifically, this line says that a person who thought had an easy victory, is now proved wrong. One version sas that one tried to dominate a mild person. Are these his thoughts? It is true that the problem between us is that he indeed thought that I will be more "simple":), but now he says to me that I am "too intelligent and have too much integrity" (this is a bad thing, I guess if you work for a boss:)). Can someone explain some more about this line, please?

Is hexagram 61 relevant here? It is about sincerity...

I asked how he feels about me and I got 52.6
He is at peace now because all the conflicts seized. The thing is, that I can be very subservient if needed and now I discovered that he indeed wants that...I don't mind actually, because it is just a job. I think all the bosses are the same, anyway, I guess.

I also asked how I should behave and I got 9 unchanging.
Well, this is clear, tame my power, take care of small tings, be nice and try to influence him with my kindness and with a soft touch.

Does anyone sees anything else here? I just feel resigned now...whatever happens, happens, I still hope that maybe he will change his mind about me.

Help me out, please.

[trojan]

I answered about this on the other thread but again I can't really get my head around why you have all this emotional manouvering with your boss ? Are you there to work or there to get inside his mind and figure him out and make him like you ? Sounds exhausting. I think the reason i find your position confusing is that the undercurent not directly stated is that you have romantic interest in him, hence he has some power over you and you think he'll fire you, hence he has even more power over you, you think. So there you are dangling on his string, believing he holds your future in his hands. Thinking that you can hold it all together by making him think of you one way or another. Regardless of the the Yi I want to say take back your own power here. I sympathise cos sometimes I've felt certain bosses held absolute power over my future but in hindsight i've seen its a delusion, noone does, except maybe our parents early in life. At work surely all you can do is do your job efficiently and be yourself, you can't spend all day agonising about how to act to affect your bosses feelings. And i think your other answers, (ie 54) showed this guy probably doesn't even much notice how you act cos hes got other things going on.

I just don't think you're going to get anywhere with this line of questioning. So I'll leave it to others to answer :D

[blue iris]

Hi, trojan,
thanks for your answer - but trust me, I have strong reasons why I am agonizing about this job and yes, I do want to influence my bosses feelings. I just cannot afford to loose this job because I work under certain conditions which only he can provide. My romantic feelings or his...it is not important, I can deal with that. I just need my job, that's all.

But I can understand that by reading here, what I write, a very condensed version, you have an impression that I am agonizing overr nothing and you might be thinking why I am letting him hold my future in his hands. There are many factors actually, which hold my future in hands, and unfortunately I am quite in a helpless position in my life right now. I wish I weren't but I am - and this job is the only security I've got. This is not just about going somewhere else, finding another job - I need to find an employer who will give me the same conditions of payment as this guy is giving me, and this is almost impossible to find. It is extremely difficult to find another job, but to find such conditions of payment...the chances are next to zero. And I cannot go to some potential employer and ask even before they hire me to give me some special treatment - which I need in order to get payed (long story).

Anyway, my boss is not around, so there is no chance of talking to him and all I can do is to be sweet and nice to him when he comes around for some short moments:)

I was asking about this third line because I hope that maybe he is aware of the true nature of the conflict and this can maybe soften him a bit.

Yes, I am worried, these are very serious issues, that's why I need to think about this, go through this, even if your think that it is futile, but I cannot sleep at night and I have panick attacks. It is about my basic safety, mere survival...and I need all the insight I can get.

Thank you anway:)