venus
October 22nd, 2008, 06:56 PM
Hi Forum,
I see that in this forum there are so many people looking for answers about love... This is my first post here and I really hope you can help me to view clearly what are is the path I need to take with my "problem".
I've been learning how to read the I Ching for a couple of months now, and in spite I don't have experience, I have been amazed for the responses I receive.
I've been forming a friendship with a lovely man, who has been very good to me in many many aspects from my life. I started experiencing situations I never experienced before and, although I feel extremely confused, I also feel that I am following the right path with him. Even when I feel totally at home with him, I still don't understand his world. I feel like standing at the edge of a cliff, with a beautiful, deep and immense ocean in front, where I would like to jump, but just the thought of hitting myself on the rocks scares me to death... I feel I am inevitable falling in love, and I feel his care, because this is how he is... a lovable person who loves people. I never met anyone who is so capable of giving so much love and care, yet he acts like this way with many people, not only with me... This is the reason I am falling in love and also the reason why I am scared to death (literally).
The point is that when I feel I am handling properly (maintaining the middle way, being in the present, meditating and feeling the peace in my heart). Then something happens -like last weekend, where we were supposed to get together but we couldn't sudden problems, and at the moment when we hang up, I started to cry and cry like a child because I wanted to see him so hard... but I only felt that when he said he wasn't coming. So, it seems that I cannot do much for "controlling my feelings".
I'm sorry for this long post... I wanted to give you some details of what happens inside me in case it helps you to help me understand.
I asked the I Ching: please help me to understand the situation between R. and I. I received 49 unchanging. Well,... this answer just confirmed what I explained before, so, indeed there is something new that, at least for me, envelopes what 49 represents. So this is how it is then.
I asked: what is the best way to deal with my feelings for him? I received 18.1 moving to 26. For what I was reading, it is telling me that the way to deal with my feelings has to let old patterns go. This is very appropriate as the way that my friend and I relate is surely not conventional. It is reinforcing hex. 49 I believe. But, does it tell me how?
So, I asked, what are the chances of developing a romantic relationship with him (even if it is unconventional) and I received 52.2.4 moving to 50, and this seems to tell me to stop, to calm, to keep still, to meditate. I could understand if the I Ching answered my question or asked me to not ask about this until this revolutionary state calms down.
My last two question were an attempt to know about my presence in his life... I asked who I am in his life: 1.2.4.6 moving to 63. And last question: does he know what is happening to me about him? 35.1.4 moving to 27. I hope you can give me your thoughts on these last two.
Again, sorry for long post as debut on this forum. I am a bit crazy today with my heart bumping so hard, ... trying to calm down and apply hex. 52. I hope you can help me to find some peace in my heart.
Thank you.
I see that in this forum there are so many people looking for answers about love... This is my first post here and I really hope you can help me to view clearly what are is the path I need to take with my "problem".
I've been learning how to read the I Ching for a couple of months now, and in spite I don't have experience, I have been amazed for the responses I receive.
I've been forming a friendship with a lovely man, who has been very good to me in many many aspects from my life. I started experiencing situations I never experienced before and, although I feel extremely confused, I also feel that I am following the right path with him. Even when I feel totally at home with him, I still don't understand his world. I feel like standing at the edge of a cliff, with a beautiful, deep and immense ocean in front, where I would like to jump, but just the thought of hitting myself on the rocks scares me to death... I feel I am inevitable falling in love, and I feel his care, because this is how he is... a lovable person who loves people. I never met anyone who is so capable of giving so much love and care, yet he acts like this way with many people, not only with me... This is the reason I am falling in love and also the reason why I am scared to death (literally).
The point is that when I feel I am handling properly (maintaining the middle way, being in the present, meditating and feeling the peace in my heart). Then something happens -like last weekend, where we were supposed to get together but we couldn't sudden problems, and at the moment when we hang up, I started to cry and cry like a child because I wanted to see him so hard... but I only felt that when he said he wasn't coming. So, it seems that I cannot do much for "controlling my feelings".
I'm sorry for this long post... I wanted to give you some details of what happens inside me in case it helps you to help me understand.
I asked the I Ching: please help me to understand the situation between R. and I. I received 49 unchanging. Well,... this answer just confirmed what I explained before, so, indeed there is something new that, at least for me, envelopes what 49 represents. So this is how it is then.
I asked: what is the best way to deal with my feelings for him? I received 18.1 moving to 26. For what I was reading, it is telling me that the way to deal with my feelings has to let old patterns go. This is very appropriate as the way that my friend and I relate is surely not conventional. It is reinforcing hex. 49 I believe. But, does it tell me how?
So, I asked, what are the chances of developing a romantic relationship with him (even if it is unconventional) and I received 52.2.4 moving to 50, and this seems to tell me to stop, to calm, to keep still, to meditate. I could understand if the I Ching answered my question or asked me to not ask about this until this revolutionary state calms down.
My last two question were an attempt to know about my presence in his life... I asked who I am in his life: 1.2.4.6 moving to 63. And last question: does he know what is happening to me about him? 35.1.4 moving to 27. I hope you can give me your thoughts on these last two.
Again, sorry for long post as debut on this forum. I am a bit crazy today with my heart bumping so hard, ... trying to calm down and apply hex. 52. I hope you can help me to find some peace in my heart.
Thank you.