I need some objective insight into hexagram 43 no changing lines. I have had a few rough years culminating in this year being a real bear; I had a disgruntled fellow employee steal items and money that I was responsible for along with sabotaging my computer and various other operations and I was hit by a car. All along I have been doing my intentions for a happy, healthy, wealthy, safe and fulfilling life, obviously to no avail. When I ask the iching if my intentions will work it gives me seemingly encouraging answers but nothing manifests. Then when I ask again I get a negative answer. After getting a negative answer from a rune casting, obstruction, loss, etc., I just thought "This is it for me. Things will never get better, I will just go on having negative things happen to me, I will just get older and worse off without any help, there is no point in even thinking that my life will improve." It was like a dash of cold water. After a while, I asked the Iching "Really, what can I do to have a good life!" I got hexagram 43 no changing lines.
I didn't understand if it meant I should eliminate the false hopes or thinking nothing is going to work, so the next day I tried something I had read about; thinking of a question you want answered with your eyes closed and when you open your eyes the first thing you focus on is the answer. I was on the bus and when I opened my eyes I saw the reflection in the window of a woman talking on the phone. I didn't see any answer in that until I noticed she was standing, even though there were many empty seats, even one right beside her. Ok, so I should stand even though it isn't comfortable or even unneccessary, but should I stand for something or against something?
I didn't want to ask that question because I would be confused as to if it was for or against, so I asked "Why do I need to stand up?" and I got 47.2.5 changing to 16. Oppression I understand, I have gotten that one a lot, but what is it that is oppressing me?
I have had a lot of little negative things happening to me in addition to the big ones that add up to make me feel like I am just under a dark cloud, but I keep doing my positive intentions. However, it seems that every time I do my intentions, more negative things happen. I've meditated on loving myself and filling myself with light to offset any hidden self sabotage, but apparently that isn't working.
Just some insight, is the iching saying I should stand for or against something, what is oppressing me and what is it telling me to do for a positive outcome.