Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
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I am having the strangest repeat occurrence. About a month ago, I was woken abruptly around 3 am to firm and loud knocking, as though on my window or door. No one was there. I felt the sense that it was a warning of some kind that after a brief reprieve from D, that he was coming to me and I should prepare myself. Sure enough, two days later he showed up standing over my bed in the middle of the night.
Yesterday, I couldn't chase him from popping in my mind over and over and I had to really work at pushing those thoughts away. I asked the IC why I was suddenly thinking about him and what to expect next in that situation. I received 31 unchanging.
So last night, I was woken by three sharp, firm, loud knocks at 3:15 AM. I checked the front door: no one. Checked the windows: no one. I am afraid this is another warning, but at the least, it's a very scary experience in general to be woken by something so clear and loud, to again find nothing is doing it?!!?
I asked IC to help me understand the knocking and I received 23.1.3.4 changing to 30. This makes sense to me as it seems to be all about removing and separating. That is what this situation is about now.
I'm hoping for more insight into this reading from the people here?
Thank you:bows:
Thank you so much to you both. I do realize this is a difficult situation to comprehend and I guess I'm struck by your point Trojan, that after threre solid years of this, I have become somewhat "accepting", mostly from frustration that my attempts at forcing this to stop have done nothing. It does happen less frequently than it was happening only a year ago, so I'm grateful for that. But in some strange way, the utter randomness of it now is almost more unsettling than when it was somewhat more predictable...if that makes any sense?
Funny, it never occurred to me that HE might be doing this knocking. I never would have seen that from my own interpretations. I guess it's my desperation wanting to believe that I at least have some hidden spiritual protection on my side...? I can't imagine why he wouldn't just come in, in the same way he always does (however that is)? Unless it IS to just harrass me and keep me frightened and on edge? That is rather twisted to me even more than him just coming in, but given the situation, I guess I can no longer try to tell myself that this situation is any less than sick and twisted. I have asked many questions relating to this situation with him (not the knocking) and the answers usually seem to point to me needing to get away. I do understand that and have been trying for so long.... I've stopped questioning most anything regarding him or the purpose for this whole thing...
It is odd what one can get accustomed to over time with constant wearing down of our nerves and senses. I don't know how to make it stop and I'm exhausted mentally and physically from trying... I am currently working toward moving to the other side of the country(west coast), but it's going to take a few months until I can accomplish that. I do live alone with my two young children. I think I willl check to see if one of my friends might be willing to stay with me for a few days, given the timing of the last knocking incident.
Thank you both for responding with such patience and compassion. It helps so much to hear what is normal and also, as always, to get so much more insight into my readings than I seem to be able when I interpret myself.:bows:
Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
Phone/ Voicemail:
+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
+1 (561) 459-4758 (US).