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kdedeaux4
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After allowing some time and space to pass, I could not help myself but to check in with the IC regarding my confounding situation with D. I currently believe it is finally over and yet I understand that in many ways it will never be fully over...
Having mixed feelings about this, but it is what it is....and what will be will be... I've been exercising lots of prayer and positive thinking over the past weeks, as well as much visualization (thank you Meng!!!) of cutting cords and firmly walking away.
Yet, I can't shake the strong gut feeling that this is merely the quiet lull before yet another ultimate storm
and am struggling to feel any peace from the"peace" I've enforced with my protective measures and boundaries.
Wanting some reassurance and to "check in", I asked IC:
Please show me a picture of how D is doing (I still worry a great deal about him and his situation):
Response: 13 changing to 27. I didn't document the changing lines, but there were 3 of them. I believe it was 3, 4, and 5? Or was it 4, 5, and 6?
This seemed a pretty good place for him to be, although I think there are struggles in there. It seemed mostly good...
Feeling a bit reassured (umm, safer?), I then asked what is D feeling about all of this with us now...(i.e. after I've enforced this time and space?)
Response: 13, line 5 changing to 30.
Hmmmmm... this response seems positive in a way, but also painful as well. 30 always feels full of hope and promise to me, but line 5 definitely seems to indicate some sadness and strife still hanging out there...
I feel somewhat better and also a bit unsettled about these responses (Oh WHY did I break down and ask about this even...kicking myself a little here). Prayer is a wonderful help with this, but I still have the nagging feeling of desperately wanting to know what to brace myself for. Preparation in this situation is vital and most likely the only defense strategy I have left to utilize....so ask, I do
As always, I'm eager and grateful to hear your wonderful and fully objective thoughts into these!!:bows:
~Namaste~
Having mixed feelings about this, but it is what it is....and what will be will be... I've been exercising lots of prayer and positive thinking over the past weeks, as well as much visualization (thank you Meng!!!) of cutting cords and firmly walking away.
Yet, I can't shake the strong gut feeling that this is merely the quiet lull before yet another ultimate storm
and am struggling to feel any peace from the"peace" I've enforced with my protective measures and boundaries. Wanting some reassurance and to "check in", I asked IC:
Please show me a picture of how D is doing (I still worry a great deal about him and his situation):
Response: 13 changing to 27. I didn't document the changing lines, but there were 3 of them. I believe it was 3, 4, and 5? Or was it 4, 5, and 6?
This seemed a pretty good place for him to be, although I think there are struggles in there. It seemed mostly good...
Feeling a bit reassured (umm, safer?), I then asked what is D feeling about all of this with us now...(i.e. after I've enforced this time and space?)
Response: 13, line 5 changing to 30.
Hmmmmm... this response seems positive in a way, but also painful as well. 30 always feels full of hope and promise to me, but line 5 definitely seems to indicate some sadness and strife still hanging out there...
I feel somewhat better and also a bit unsettled about these responses (Oh WHY did I break down and ask about this even
...kicking myself a little here). Prayer is a wonderful help with this, but I still have the nagging feeling of desperately wanting to know what to brace myself for. Preparation in this situation is vital and most likely the only defense strategy I have left to utilize....so ask, I doAs always, I'm eager and grateful to hear your wonderful and fully objective thoughts into these!!:bows:
~Namaste~