22.4>30

[goddessliss]

So after all these years of relocating and going around in circles I've come back to the same space which essentially means I feel like I've got nowhere and come back to being idle.
However, along the way there as been a huge amount of inner growth and understanding.

There is a difference this time as I anticipate better things to come and I've a different mindset on my present circumstances but that doesn't take away the fact that most of my days are spent on my own and idle.

This year I've achieved a lot in many ways. At the moment I've just completed my course in Small Business Management Cert IV, all done online, so many hours of self teaching and assessments and ready to start my business in a new location.
Secondly I've resolved many issues with my family least of all my Christian son and his wife, which has been on ongoing issue for over 10 years really, so far so good on that front.
I feel I've done the best I can with my other sons and whilst my youngest has been kind enough to allow me to rent with him it's essentially his space and I've nothing of my own and it's costing me more in rent in storage for my personal possessions.
As much as I love him and we get on well I get nothing back from him in terms of a relationship - we probably get on well because it's all about him and I ask very, very little of his time on any level.
For a long while I felt guilty because he suffered so much with the breakdown of our family but it's been 6 years now time to move on.

What can I effectively do whilst I 'wait' to relocate

Hex 22.4>30

It seems to be a fitting reply because, although essentially idle, I am practising the Buddha way of bringing myself back to the present moment and not concerning myself with my next step....although I do have feelers out for rentals and part time work in the place I wish to relocate.

- LIss

 

[ginnie]

Accompanying this line there is a sense of suspicion or a lack of trust, and the line is saying that in fact there is no obstacle. I do understand the frustration that comes from idleness. I wonder what that white steed is all about and how grace or elegance fit in.

 

[goddessliss]

Thanks Ginnie - the only lack of trust for me is possibly thoughts of 'will it really work out this time, will it really be the place I settle after all this time'. I've moved that many times since my marriage breakdown that's just a little hard to really 100% believe this will work.
Agreed there is no obstacle per se except that very few people wish to rent to someone who is unfortunately unemployed despite me having great references and I can't start setting up my business until I live there. - Liss

 

[goddessliss]

I just did a Tarot reading on how to progress my relocation and it came up with Ground my self and move on from my fears.
So I sat quietly and asked 'What is my fear' and quite a few 'came in' so then
I asked 'What will be the reality'
Answer - What I make of it!
Oh I wonder if that's how the "white steed and how grace or elegance fit in".

 

[sooo]

Hi Liss. Your reading accords with my own thoughts, feelings and experience with basically the same kind of situation. I think it's saying to bide your time, cling to your worth and what you do have like a cow to green pastures, and patiently keep your eyes and ears open to what feels safe and secure. If it means being alone, accept that sometimes loneliness is just part of that, but you can make nice friends if you're open to it. Just be patient, and resist acting out of a sense of desperation. The horse with wings represents strength in transcendence and whiteness symbolizes simplicity. I'll also add on my own, forget about what you think others may think of you; it isn't helpful and it makes no difference. Does fire care what keeps her light on? Cows are content with grass or hay to eat and shade to lie down in. Simplicity and safety are reward enough, and sometimes that's exactly what a person needs to develop themselves. Living in the present doesn't mean the present will never change. Lastly, be thankful for what you do have.

 

[goddessliss]

Thanks sooo simplicity and security sound good to me. I'm thankful for what I have right now and am experiencing some lovely moments on different personal levels - the question was more based around whether there are things I can do like applying for jobs or making business connections in the area I'm relocating to. - Liss

 

[Greenkid]

Dear Liss
I am in complete agreement in what soo says. I think also you should take the lovely remarks you sent to me for yourself. I, and my son are reading "The Tibetan Art of Positive Thinking" I can reccommend filling some of your 'idle' moments with that. What about organising your business as though you already had it? Fake it until you make it !!! with love miegga

 

[goddessliss]

Fantastic idea miegga I will read that book if I can get it at the library - if not, there will be something similar to borrow. xx

 

[Greenkid]

The book costs £8.99 but I found one on the internet (new) for 99p. plus postage of about £2 + xx

 

[goddessliss]

Fear I'm not good enough to be successful (childhood ingrained belief) really is the issue or something like that anyway so I'm reading Beyond Fear -Dorothy Rowe

 

[goddessliss]

I know exactly what I want to do so that's not the problem, it's about somehow manifesting the circumstances to make it happen. - Liss

 

[Tohpol]

I guess that's the whole point: there is no need "to manifest" or "make it happen" because it will happen by virtue of the inner changes first, which will then be reflected externally. Anticipation will just block the natural process. And letting go is the hardest thing to do when there is an apparent lack of signposts. Perhaps this is why you've been given the time to allow it to happen naturally. I'm reminded of H.45.5 where integration is taking place but it feels hollow. Paraphrasing: the challenge is to fill this time up with your true presence.

I wish you luck having frequently been in similar situations.

 

[goddessliss]

Paraphrasing: the challenge is to fill this time up with your true presence.

I wish you luck having frequently been in similar situations.

Oh Topal - thank you now that helps me so much - sometimes I just don't know what to make of what's going on as I feel I've been in this 'space' so many times. Thanks for sharing knowledge you've gained through your own experiences. - Liss

 

[Greenkid]

Dear Liss "I fear I'm not good enough to be successful".............. what nonsense.
You sound to me to be a very caring good person. do you really think that your kindness to me and I expect to many others will go unrewarded? Have you not heard "As you think, so shall it be" ? I think you really need the book I recommended. Another book too called The Secret by Rhonda Byrne. I went to a charity shop and there on a shelf, nowhere near the books, was "The secret" so I knew it was meant for me.
For your interest I was the first girl (the third child) in a family of 8, I was expected to do the lions share of the chores, was frequently beaten, went to school with holes in my socks and shoes and was ostracised by school mates because I was 'dirty'.. .Now, I own my home and car and owe no-one a penny. I also had a horrible abusive marriage. So, Liss......Stand up and be counted, as you told me "You are a beautiful woman".........I shall be keeping my eye on you !!!! Affirm ........ "I love and Approve of Myself" Keep that going through your brain all the time.xx

 

[goddessliss]

The more I read the book Beyond Fear, I realise it's not about what I thought was my fear, but after all that's happened and all the moves I've had over the last couple of years or more, the fear is more that things won't work out AGAIN!
I know I'm good at what I do re my business as I see the results all the time with friends, family members and those I read for so no, I'm not worried about that just the fear I'll have to up and move again.
- Liss

 

[Greenkid]

Fear

Dear Liss
If you are constantly in fear that all will happen the same AGAIN....It is guaranteed to do exactly that !!!
You must visualise success.........it maybe A BIT difficult at first but it will get easier. You can start small i.e. Visualise something small that is not usual e.g a green or multi coloured pen or pencil. Feel it in your hand, write with it, put it down, pick it up. expect it to arrive. In a very short time either you will find one simlilar, some-one will give it to you or you will buy one. Do it properly and it will most definitely arrive.
I told another son to do this - he laughed me to scorn - he is still in debt, I am not.
Even if you think me crazy, try it, make a joke of it. but try it - what have you got to lose?
"To change your life you must change your thought."

P.S. "The Secret" by the way is sent to me by email about once a week. You can see it on Facebook and can probably sign up for it to come to you (free) There are also success stories from people who have amazing changes made to their lives.
Please try it - even if just to shut me up !!:bows: