4 questions

[meganj]

The past few weeks I have noticed significant changes appear in my life giving me the opportunity to start making plans for my own future and move on from the relationship I ended a few months ago.
It was a hard thing, but I think i'm finally starting to realize that it's just over.
I tried the friend thing with him, that didn't work out, he got mad and ended contact a little over 3 weeks ago.. he then contacted me via a "dating site" saying that I looked good and how he hardly recognized me and he was sorry.
I deleted him and blocked him. I was upset after that not only because he ignored my text msg the week earlier confessing the feelings and sadness I still felt but because I knew he was dating again. To save myself the heartache I deleted and blocked him from the site. A few days after that I started to finally really let go and just accept things, and it was then that I noticed changes.. I got a great job, am looking for a second job and am saving for a new place in the city, I also found out that I got accepted for school. I feel good about myself and what's happening, really good.
I feel pleasantly balanced, I love my job!
Anyways I heard from him again about 5 days ago,
He says hi with a smiley face, and then goes on to say how he's sorry that he stepped away from contact with me and how it might've come across as rude but if I still want to "try the friend thing" then he's willing to also, and that if not then he understands and will leave me alone..
Well I deleted his text msg two days later and haven't texted him back.
I am not only scared to try to be friends but don't think that's possible anymore, I sure don't want to see him with another woman because I still have feelings for him, obviously.

Why does Gary wish to be friends?? (espcially now)
64.3.5>44

What's the right thing to do here?
7.1.2.3>36

What are his intentions?
50.3.6>40

Is it too late for friendship or whatever with him?
59.1.4>10


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[dancing white ferret]

Hi MeganJ... Gary again! Boooo. Sorry, jk... I would focus on the question you centered around yourself.

What's the right thing to do here?
7.1.2.3>36

This suggests to me that a friendship is not really what is called for right now. 7 is all about launching an attack and conserving your resources. 36 is about emotional injury and a need to protect one's light. I would read this as an indication that you are still hurt, and can't spare the energy on this relationship right now. Also, that there is still a need to protect yourself emotionally from Gary.

In 7, line 1, one is just beginning to put their plan into action. So, I would read line 1 as simply stating it's time to take the initiative and get organized.

Lines 2 and 3 talk about leadership.

I read line 2 as an indication that I need to get centered around my goals. Also, depending on the context, that I need to call on help from my spirit guides. What is your own personal army? What resources are available that you aren't using effectively? How can you become more centered? How can I become a better leader? Questions I ask myself with this line.

I've come across various interpretations for line 3. No matter how I look at this line though, I see it as a need to let something go. It talks about the army carrying corpses, but also someone standing in for the real leader... Could this be suggesting that Gary would just be a stand in of some sort? Something is dead in line 3 and this needs to be accepted and released... Has Gary changed a lot since you met him? Is this maybe saying you need to accept that the Gary you met is gone... Whatever this line is alluding to, it might even be playing a lead role and mucking up the works of the whole operation, aka your life. What is that to you? Dead weight? Hmmmm...Coughgarycough... Excuse me.

LOL, I'm just kidding. I don't know him, and he may be an alright guy, in his own way, but this reading certainly doesn't paint a picture of the beginning of a great friendship to me. Who knows what can happen in time, but right now it doesn't seem like a go to me. Reads like 36, hold your cards close to your chest, don't be yourself with this person and pour out all your feelings to them... or any of them for that matter. 7, put your energy into your goals, and don't waste any on this relationship. If this were my reading, I'd be polite and keep it at that. Maybe even feign disinterest. Just pretend I have moved on and just have no time for dilly dallying with old boyfriends.