57 lines 2,3,4

[saturn]

I thought long and hard about the situation and asked "how do I do this, what directions should I take?" I got 57 with lines 2,3 and 4.

I don't know what I want or what I am doing. I am recently separated and while I enjoy the peace that the separation has given me, I also feel lonely and as if I shouldn't give up so easily. The person whom I have separated from is perfect (in my eyes) in many ways except for a few things that I simply cannot put up with. One being their total lack of trust for me. Their constant questioning and doubting of my every move infiltrated my own mind leaving me unaware at times if it was their doubt or my own self-doubt that invaded my thoughts. A few months ago I asked them to leave. It felt great, as if a big weight was lifted off my shoulder. As I mentioned, I enjoy the independence and peace that I feel. But I can't deny that I miss them. There is still passion, no longer much respect however. It hurts me when they are mean to me, it makes me sad and I cry. I feel unsatisfied, lonely and empty.

Why couldn't they just have trusted me? What is it about me that is so untrustworthy? Or was it their own issues that made them treat me that way? And will I ever trust myself again? After all that time "walking on eggshells", trying to do things right for them, trying to have their approval, who am I? What do I really want? I feel so lost.

I feel that hexagram 57 is saying that I have some sort of seal, or "way" of being, of existing and that it is just there and there isn't much I can do about it. This makes me feel hopeless. Am I destined to feel this way? To be confused and make poor choices? This "seal" seems to have dictated much of my life.

Line 2: Should I accept the person the way they are and settle for the perfectness I see in them, forgetting the things about them that make me feel completely sad and empty, never good enough, never true?

Line 3: I am thinking about it too much. I need to just stop and let things do what they will do. ???

Line 4: Accept this person for who they are. Accept the situation and be grateful. Grow from this experience. This is good. I am learning. I deserve the best.

I don't know what to think or do. My feelings and thoughts are all mixed up and I am having a hard time distinguishing between the two. I ask the community to please give me insight and remarks on this reading. I really appreciate it.

 

[willowfox]

I thought long and hard about the situation and asked "how do I do this, what directions should I take?" I got 57 with lines 2,3 and 4.

Really you need to see the person for what he was, forget the good bits and see the huge bad bits then hopefully you will then see that the man was in reality a dastardly chap all along. Therefore all your reminiscing is actually counterproductive and will hold you back, you need to get over this person, to get him out of your head, and then start going out more, meeting new people. Can't you see that he is still influencing you even though he has left.

Hex 12 tells you that you are giving in too easily, this is not the way to go. You don't need him, you don't need anyone to be happy within yourself, stand on your own two feet, deal with your feelings and exorcise his ghost from your thoughts. You can overcome this and move on, you just got to show some determination, and lastly, no more making compromises.

 

[saturn]

Thank you. Can you explain your interpretation of the lines? I have a feeling you are right, I think I know you're right. But I still want to know more about the lines.

 

[willowfox]

Line 57.2 says that he is still influencing you from afar, not by direct contact but it is your own mind that is carrying on his legacy, therefore it is the job of a fortune teller to help you bring this issue out into the light where you can finally see the truth about him, that he was just using you.

Line 57.3 is about you reminiscing, constantly rewatching the old movie of your relationship and its messing with your head, you liked him but he was bad for you, but now you miss him. Some people find comfort in the Devil they know, even though he is one of the bad guys. So, don't make a fool of yourself move on. Get this guy out of your mind.

Line 57.4 Forget him and go out and meet new people.

 

[danadanadana]

57.2.3.4 > 12
57.2: Through his constant criticism, like, as pictured in hex 57, a gentle breeze or a trickle of water, your ex has undermined your self image. A damaged part of yourself easily relates to persistent negative comments. You have begun to heal yourself by "looking under the bed", as it says in line 2, with the help of oracles your are seeking more insight about your unconscious motivations in accepting the negative influence of constant criticism. Why, you ask yourself, did I listen? Maybe the criticism was correct, etc. A part of you relates to the cruelty because you have an element of self-hatred that you are unaware of and that makes you willing to listen to someone voice that self-hating part of yourself. Because the cruelty is not spoken in rage, and is always calm and controlled you interpret it as proper and correct, but it is just as damaging to you as if it was a violent attack.

57.3: You have allowed someone to replace your connection to your own core intuition with negative judgements. No one knows you like you know yourself. You sometimes waver in your commitment to your own inner voice, and it is possible for you to let the harsh judgemental voice run your life, this is very dangerous to your well being. Be very careful in how you deal with this attempt to undermine your health and vitality. Someone else's path is not right for you.

57.4: Now that you are alone and free of negative influence (in the form of calmly spoken but deeply wounding words), you have a chance to gently look at the effect of the past experience and also to begin to heal the way you love yourself. This is like forming a scab and then being patient while the wound heals underneath the scab - do not pick at the wound, be patient and let the healing do its work. Work with therapists and other trusted people to strengthen your loving self-image. Slow, gentle healing is automatic, and it is your birthright to be healed and feel loved and worthy. Once you get in touch with your healthy, self-confident identity then you will have no doubt about your life path.

57 > 12: The peace you say you have found (now that you are free of the negative influences, worries and anxieties of the dangerous relationship) can eventually transform into its opposite Hexagram which is #12, Stagnation. There is a boredom with the peace, a feeling that being at peace is starting to become stuck instead of restful. This is the crux time when your new found peace can start to degenerate into worry and anxiety again. This is your natural emotional cycle at play. Recognize that your spirit will lead you on to new and healthier adventures when the time is ripe. For now, be still, guard against letting your ex back in, and let the healing happen and then new people will enter your life who are better for you.

Best wishes!

 

[saturn]

Thank you for your insight. It really helped a lot. I still have issues with trusting my little voice, self-doubt and fear. I realize the big thing here is fear.