64.2 > 35 and 10.1.3.5 > 50 about a friendship

[luciliuz]

few months ago I was here talking about a man I was seeing,
we started having sex, he didn't want to commit, after a while we talked about it and stopped,
it wasn't 'that thing' between us, but we liked each other and we became good friends.
I've been very happy about it, because it has been a precious developement, with a good level of intimacy.

We've been hanging out in the last few months, without any flirting between us, but with a growing sense of better knowing each other, until few nights ago, when suddenly he has been looking for me in the old way.. it has been clearly only one night, it was a moment, nice, and I knew it could be dangerous for our actual relation but we have a good connection and that made me feel confortable enough to take the risk.

Now I'm afraid I've lost something.. our friendship started when he understood I wasn't involved with him,
and now we're back in an embarassed situation that I hope with time will pass but I feel weird.
I feel him again scared and stepping back. And it's not the atmosphere where we could talk about it, not yet.

So I asked which attitude should I keep about it, and the answer was 64.2 > 35
that seems to say go slowly and everything will be ok.

then, because today I walked up feeling upset, with myself, and I shouldn't,
I asked what to overcome my anxiety, and I got 10.1.3.5 > 50
and this reading scares me like if saying that I'm doing something dangerous when I feel I'm trying to be calm and follow the flow.

I'm not inlove with this man, and I'm probably overreacting, I will leave for few weeks for work and this probably makes me feel more anxious about this episode..
but I do love him in some way and I wouldn't lose the way we were,
thanks for helping,
Lucia

 

[Tim K]

Hello Lucia,

I think both answers advise you to go slow, and there is a feeling that this relationship will not last.
64.2 speaks about transition, crossing the river in the near future.
Enjoy it for a while but then just go on your own(10.1). h50 can mean transform your feelings, contain yourself.

 

[luciliuz]

Thanks Astheroid,
you're right, I always need to be slower than I am,
that's something that belongs to me,I'm a fire sign
And yes, I'm in a moment of transition and changes,
good energy and new people, and this man is part of this moment.

After few days I feel better, the feeling I have is he cares for me,
despite what happened doesn't necessary mean something 'more'.
And this is important, i hope saying the relationship will not last you didn't mean this connection we have
as friends.. life will tell,
meanwhile thanks again,
Lucia

 

[Wildgeese]

Hi Lucia, thanks for this post. It is a close mirror to a moment I find myself in with a friend with whom I was sexual, initially.