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PaleSelene

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Happy holidays to all of you!
I'v been thinking whether to post this or not because I feel kind of blushy here thinking of my age and the situation implications and complications. This is nonsense but here it goes.
several months ago I had a crush on somebody and the worst second thing is that he's married. (feeling like a monster and going against my principles I let this wonderful feeling go on) I definitely feel it was both sides but... I feel deep in my heart that he has something never before found in anyone, but always wished.
Well, after giving a second -and more than that- thoughts I asked the Yi "What does X feel for me. soon I realized how stupid my question was, when Yi fired me back with 8.2.3 So I asked how far can I go with him? and got 39.2.4 ( then I saw a post by Frank here about the same and took his question borrowed because it fitted my needs. Sorry for that Frank, hope you don't mind lol) and asked the Yi: Ok,I like X, what can I do best to let our bond grow towards a solid, strong, commited and long lasting bond? and then I got 31 plain. No changing lines. Despite the impropriety of such a situation, what can I expect from it? Thanks in advance.

By the way he doesn't know anything about my feelings at all, besides he lives overseas. Far enough.
 
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I feel kind of blushy at my age and its implications and complications in love.
I have a crush on a married man. I definitely feel it was both sides but... I feel he has something I never before found in anyone, but always wished.
How far can I go with him? Got 39.2.4>28
What can I do to let this grow into a long lasting bond? Got 31.
Despite the impropriety of the situation, what can I expect from it?

Dear PaleSelene
I see nothing improper or to be blushing about; what has love to do with age? Besides, your feelings are not less sincere because X is married; and less successful marriages do tend to end for many reasons ... My guess is that much of your answer concerns the sincerity of your feelings, but then, all what follows are just my guesses ...

39 arises from having tried (38) to differentiate while being sensitive to similarities (love and marriage). So the judgment (39) suggests you stay on level ground and to get good advice to be successful; because (being sincere) opportunities are there.
2 is rightly placed and relates favorably to 5, who is fettered (which seems to indicate x). Nonetheless, line 2 suggests that you try to fulfill your ideal (never found in anyone, but always wished).
4 is also in the right position and has a gift to unite things, through preparation and waiting for the right ‘time’.
28 emphasises the above and suggests that (given your sincerity) you stand alone without fear.

31 suggests that, for the sake of loving x, it may help not to flood him with your expectations, sincere as they may be.

I'd send a Happy 2010 postcard.
What more to say?
PS Lately I am rereading Chaucer, making notes:

Unknown, unkissed; “unsought-for” means: “Forgo it”.
Many a one who loved and did not show it
Has bought love dear, a twenty-winter drought
Of knowing him, that never kissed his mouth.


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PaleSelene

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Dear Lloyd how sweet your words are, they made good to me. Thank you very much for that. I have to think very well about going further on this. I will think very carefully what to do and do whatever keeps my heart in peace.
I thank you also for the poem of Chaucer and the links.
I wish you good, health and prosperity in all the ways. Happy 2010!
 

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Troilus and Criseyde

Glad you appreciate your 'Pandar':

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Think deep and long, but I'd send
that postcard before Dec 31 ....​

Happy 2010
 
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