A gift of friendship - anyone to read?

[amy luisa]

Please don't loose me in the cracks again. I hope no trolls come here to give me that horrible response "Sammy" like last time.

this means alot to me.

all the readers here to give me their opinion if you can and have the time is MUCH appreciated.

thank you for looking out and watching "our backs" as we say back home.:bows::bows::bows:

 

[mariah kaze]

Please don't loose me in the cracks again. I hope no trolls come here to give me that horrible response "Sammy" like last time.

this means alot to me.

all the readers here to give me their opinion if you can and have the time is MUCH appreciated.

thank you for looking out and watching "our backs" as we say back home.:bows::bows::bows:

Sorry, I don't know what you need an opinion on - but at least I'm not a troll

 

[willowfox]

Trolls, ogres, elves and pixies everyone is accounted for.

 

[amy luisa]

thank you

I did not know Sammy was not legit. I appreciate everyone's help. sometimes "trolls" as we call them here, seep in. that is what i meant.

the language/interpretation gets confused sometimes.

its all good.

Hilary helped me.

I was afraid i would be Lost In the Cracks:bows:

 

[amy luisa]

I don't know if you ever gave me your opinion...did you? have you read my query? i don't know if you did....but that is nice...i don;t think anyone here is psychic - and they all have a strong love for the ICHING as well. thank you....wish you were around before for my question....hey, don't hold back though all is appreciated....lol

 

[willowfox]

You know he will like the gift and the attention also.

 

[amy luisa]

willow hi!

I don;t know - i changed my mind about going. I am scared. willow, i am here in the united states now, its late around 9:10pm and i was reading my back readings - in May, i asked about timing....i think i asked when would i Hear from my estranged friend. i think someone said October. should i ask again?

i am not going...i would rather stay here in arizona and get myself together and feel good about myself, rather than go to LA and take a gamble that we can see each other since i am afraid that he does not even know i will be there.

i just want us to be able to sort things out and be friends again. don't know if the ICHING can help with this. i still have trouble phrasing questions.

i want the balance of this year to be good and happy. My getting this great important position in the bank is a blessing and I would of LOVED to talk to him about this.

Now, i need the ICHING! i usually use the one here on the site. I focus on the question, ask the question and read what is on the drop down list. looking at the broken lines and reading about it...sometimes its hard for me to make it out -

yes, the peaches are sweet. i know he will like it, but i told him in June, in our last email that we will not contact each other nor will we speak again. I MADE THAT CHOICE...All he did was tell me that it was all too intense for him....what a dummy i am....CAN THIS BE RECTIFIED????? SHOULD I ASK THE ICHING THAT? he is going to think i am crzy for sure when he gets these peaches....but he will smile, i know, but WILL HE CONTACT ME?

Please advise willow.....you understand this situation...
:bows::bows::bows:

 

[willowfox]

If you are afraid, unsure within yourself and not willing to take a gamble, then stay where you are and enjoy the sunshine. Humans are such a difficult species to deal with, as they can be so unpredictable at times, so for peace of mind, stay home.

He may indeed contact, but keep your reply short and sweet, light and airy, no commitments, no entanglements.

If you are bursting to talk about your new job, then tell me or tell your family.

 

[amy luisa]

You are such a joy willow!!!

JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU THAT I AM SITTING HERE READING ALL THE POSTS YOU SENT ME ABOUT E AND I AM LAUGHING MY A#S OFF. ITS SO FUNNY. IT IS TRUTH AND I DON;T KNOW IF YOU CAN BELEIVE THIS, BUT SINCE JUNE, I HAVE BEEN BETTER. REALLY.....I HAVE BEEN SO MUCH BETTER...I LOOK GOOD, NO CRYING BUT I HAVE BEEN DOING ALOT OF WRITING AND HANGING OUT WITH MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS AND OF COURSE MY BELOVED DOG WINNIE.

E IS OK - I MEAN, HE IS COOL, ITS JUST THAT WE ARE IN A REALLY STRANGE PLACE NOW....LIKE WE ARE IN "TRANSITION". HE AND I ARE ESTRANGED. I HAVE DATED AND THEN, I LEAVE THEM. LOL..IF THEY ARE NOT UP TO PAR WTH ME, I LET THEM GO. AFTER ALL THE GRIEF I WENT THROUGH WITH E - I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR THE PAIN OR GRIEF ANYMORE WITH ANY MAN.

LOLOL...THOSE RESPONSES YOU SENT ME WERE SO FUNNY. I LOOK AT THEM NOW AND SAY...OH YEAHHH....I AM HOPING THAT THIS BALANCE OF THIS YEAR BRINGS ME A GREAT LOVE (you said August looks lively - Still waiting - LOL)

ITS ALL GOOD NOW WILLOW...The peaches...ahh the peaches....he is definately going to think i am nuts now, but he knows, from our last emails to each other, that i am not doing this anymore...just want to be able to talk to my "homey" once in a while. lolol
thanks Willow...for your friendship, and your patience in helping me to understand the ICHING and your wit.
love amy luisa

hey, my job took me 1 month to campaign for....i start on 9/13th. thank GOD! gotta get out of this house and stop eating all those oreos and watching Oprah!

Yes, Yes, i will keep it short and sweet...hahah i will tell him that i am in the middle of re-lining my kitchen cabinets and sort of have to get off the phone because i will loose my concentration....???? hey, so how is that for a start....too bold???? can't wait to try it out....YOU SEE, THAT IS THE REAL ME or at least THAT IS HOW I SHOULD OF BEEN IN THE FIRST PLACE MONTHS AGO...HUH?????

 

[willowfox]

too bold????

You got to be bold to get to where you want to go in life, so you need some boldness in your pocket.

I was just thinking who you may attract when they see you working in the bank?

 

[amy luisa]

hahahhaha

Willow, i am not interested in ANYONE HERE in this town. LOLOL
All i want to do is work, cash my checks, and go home and eat oreos.

I don't think there is any romance for me here. :bows::bows:

I think its either in the east coast or west coast.
certainly not in the southwest. My venus path is NOT HERE.

I am a Native New Yorker though, we are all bold, you should see us on the train fighting for a seat....LOLOL

we ladies look like models from Vogue, but we talk like sailors on a weekend rail!!! if we have to.....BOLD!!! lolol

LOLOL

 

[mariah kaze]

I don't know if you ever gave me your opinion...did you? have you read my query? i don't know if you did....but that is nice...i don;t think anyone here is psychic - and they all have a strong love for the ICHING as well. thank you....wish you were around before for my question....hey, don't hold back though all is appreciated....lol

I found your original post re: 24 > 23 and the gift for your friend. Lines 1 and 6 changing. Returning - a turning point - coming back - return leads to self-knowledge. In Hex 23, 6th line there is a large fruit still uneaten so I don't necessarily agree that the relationship is over so much as I think you have spent a lot of time trying to figure HIM out and your focus has been incorrect.

Return means turning back to one's own inner light and stripping away talks about useless emotions - combined I think the advice is to turn away from useless things (emotions, wants, needs, fantasies) but it's talking to *you* not about HIM. Turn away from trying to figure him out and what he's going to do about you. Don't waste your life pinning your hopes on his coming back, because by the time he does, you may not need or want him anymore. Strip away the "need" for this relationship and for him and concentrate on your own development so that if/when he does return, there will be something left of the real you to offer him.

I've had this Hex in the midst of a battle to define my needs in a current relationship and he has come back to me after I thought he wouldn't. Thought I didn't even want him to because the road is not easy, ideal or perfect in any way except that we do honestly love each other. But first, I had to change the reasons I want him in my life and those changes were good for us. My expectations were (and still may be) too high. I don't "need" him. It's my choice to be with him or not to be. That's my inner power that draws him again and again. 24>23 says get to the bottom of why you want to be with *this* man and make your perspective broad enough to want what's best for both of you. Stripping away means defining then extinguishing selfish desires. Relationships only work if there's something in it for both of you.

I hope for the best and expect the worst from my man so who am I to be telling you anything? Just somebody who cares to see you grow - one day at a time - by staying in NOW. :bows:

 

[amy luisa]

I love you very much...i love all on here who help me

THAT was so sweet and kind and decent of you. Thank you...No, you are cool to send me that message.

Its ironic, though, my family and friends have been telling me for months now..."Be careful what you wish for...." hahhhaha....yes, but since all this Karmic drama has unfolded, it is clear to me just what/who i want and just what/who I need in my life. I am so lucky to have found this site and those of you who have helped me. And, ironically, also for my "homey" who has helped me grow alot during this awful time of my Ascension/mid-life/nervous breakdown/crisis all-at-once/menapause breakthrough.

hahahhah

The peaches were so funny though....cannot believe this...the peaches were sent to him without really know why Peaches....hahah , it dawned on me...i was buying peaches when we said hello years ago...he would laugh now....i know he knows me "We Get Each Other" which is why this friendship has to come back DIFFERENT....We understand what happened and i know that i have been thinking about this for so long because it has BEEN A PIVITOL PART of my life - so far....50 years old...a turning point...and look at all that has happend....death, birth, reunions, separations...in physical and emotional forms...so that is why i have been so interested in the dynamics of this union and why? after so long? it happened.

even the peaches were a symbolic meaning....forget how the "bloat" thinks of me, i am thinking of those rotten peaches sitting on his desk (LOLOL) so i cast a question this morning on the ICHING asking how he would react to the gift of the peaches (no gift message attached by the way, as i did not have it signed with my name...he'll know anyway)

I received:
Hex 8 - Bonding transformed to Hex 1 - Creative Energy.

well, i already did my "Action" for a truce....the rest is up to him.
I'm going fishin............

love to you my dear lady....maybe one nice large peach is still not eaten yet....we shall see....lolol:bows::bows: