A question I held off asking for a long time

[yxeli]

On my birthday last year, in december, i was alone for most of the day.

I had arranged to meet a friend of mine later in the evening, and for dinner, I decided to treat myself to my favourite restaurant. Its a lovely little polish place in an underground shopping centre, very homemade, always quiet, and very old fashioned. Doilies and fake flowers in vases on the tables and pictures of pope john paul and other religious bits and pieces hanging around.

While i was there, i felt something. It was ominous. It felt like a warning. But it also felt comforting. I felt like someone was there with me, who was sad, someone was trying to comfort me. But I didnt know why the presence was sad. It was sad for me though, I knew it. I don't know if using the I Ching heightens a connection to something higher, But in the weeks leading up to my birthday i was frantically worrying about the relationship i often mention here, I had no idea what a shock i was going to get later on in the night.

When i went to my friends house, we had a few drinks and chatted and it was ok. She then told me that the boy i was in love with had been with another girl, repeatedly. She said she hadnt told me because she didn't want to upset me.


I couldnt speak. I sat for two hours silently weeping. I couldnt move.

It was my 30th birthday, and the worst birthday I have ever had.

I knew that whatever that had been in the restaurant earlier, was trying to warn me, comfort me, about what was to follow.

I dont know why I havent asked Yi about it before. Maybe i felt that this was something not to ask. something 'beyond' what i could understand. But last night i did.

I asked 'what/who was that presence i felt on my birthday in the polish restaurant?'

I received 14, 2.3.6 - 51.


Lines 3 and 6 talk specifically about heaven. The 'large wagon for loading' I'm not too sure about, But i interpret this as a direct 'thunderbolt' from heaven. A direct connection?


I'd love to hear what other make of the reading.


Thanks all,

Yx

 

[ginnie]

I feel very sad myself, to hear of your sorrow ...

When 14.3 changes, it changes into 38. I have found 38 comes up in many strange "outsider" experiences -- experiences beyond the ordinary. I hope that provides enough of an explanation, because in this area I don't know if we can elaborate much more than that.

 

[hopex]

Precision Grace puts it better...

ps Yxeli - I think the treaure is you

 

[precision grace]

I think You were the large Wagon line 2 and have in that moment of time received line 3 the shocking revelation 51 from the Collective Subconscious line 6

 

[foxx777]

On my birthday last year, in december, i was alone for most of the day.

I had arranged to meet a friend of mine later in the evening, and for dinner, I decided to treat myself to my favourite restaurant. Its a lovely little polish place in an underground shopping centre, very homemade, always quiet, and very old fashioned. Doilies and fake flowers in vases on the tables and pictures of pope john paul and other religious bits and pieces hanging around.

While i was there, i felt something. It was ominous. It felt like a warning. But it also felt comforting. I felt like someone was there with me, who was sad, someone was trying to comfort me. But I didnt know why the presence was sad. It was sad for me though, I knew it. I don't know if using the I Ching heightens a connection to something higher, But in the weeks leading up to my birthday i was frantically worrying about the relationship i often mention here, I had no idea what a shock i was going to get later on in the night.

When i went to my friends house, we had a few drinks and chatted and it was ok. She then told me that the boy i was in love with had been with another girl, repeatedly. She said she hadnt told me because she didn't want to upset me.


I couldnt speak. I sat for two hours silently weeping. I couldnt move.

It was my 30th birthday, and the worst birthday I have ever had.

I knew that whatever that had been in the restaurant earlier, was trying to warn me, comfort me, about what was to follow.

I dont know why I havent asked Yi about it before. Maybe i felt that this was something not to ask. something 'beyond' what i could understand. But last night i did.

I asked 'what/who was that presence i felt on my birthday in the polish restaurant?'

I received 14, 2.3.6 - 51.


Lines 3 and 6 talk specifically about heaven. The 'large wagon for loading' I'm not too sure about, But i interpret this as a direct 'thunderbolt' from heaven. A direct connection?


I'd love to hear what other make of the reading.


Thanks all,

Yx

Wow, that is an awesome experience.

I would say, judging both from your description, and the hexagram and lines, that this presence was what William James called the Higher Self, and what British author Anthony Peake calls "the Daemon" or your secret, second, eternal self. That is amazing.

In a sense, this could be viewed (despite the pain) as a very good birthday (gosh, you are young ) because a connection with this higher self is very blessed. Line 6 is read by Berkers as "from heaven's blessing comes this good fortune".

Brava to you.

 

[yxeli]

When 14.3 changes, it changes into 38. I have found 38 comes up in many strange "outsider" experiences -- experiences beyond the ordinary. I hope that provides enough of an explanation, because in this area I don't know if we can elaborate much more than that.

Thanks ginnie. Thats interesting to not about 38, I'll keep it in mind in future!

I think You were the large Wagon line 2 and have in that moment of time received line 3 the shocking revelation 51 from the Collective Subconscious line 6

That makes a lot of sense, large wagon = me= the vessel to receive the other 2 lines! Thanks!

Wow, that is an awesome experience.

I would say, judging both from your description, and the hexagram and lines, that this presence was what William James called the Higher Self, and what British author Anthony Peake calls "the Daemon" or your secret, second, eternal self. That is amazing.

In a sense, this could be viewed (despite the pain) as a very good birthday (gosh, you are young ) because a connection with this higher self is very blessed. Line 6 is read by Berkers as "from heaven's blessing comes this good fortune".

Brava to you.
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wow, i didnt know the two authors mentioned, did a quick google and i'm goin to have a good read about this 'higher self'! and thanks foxx for a lovely reply, really did make my confidence shoot up a bit!

I wasnt at all lonely or particularly in a negative mood at dinner that day. I quite like ot be on my own in restaurants, it was no biggy. That day was just another day of feeling kinda put out by the relationship, but not overtly so, so when i was happily munching down on my hunters stew the feeling was quite alien. This sad, comforting presence. I suppose thats how i differntiated it as being 'not me', because i wasn't in a darker mood than the weeks prior to it.

Thanks all. What a lovely feeling to know that at that moment, something in me, or 'out there', prepared me for what was to follow.

Yx