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Am I Pregnant? 52.2.4>50

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One of those "no-no" yes/no questions that's hard not to ask when one is hopeful...

I asked "Am I Pregnant?"
Received 52, with 2nd and 4th lines changing to 50.

I would love to think that 50 could be affirmative, and could perhaps be a nice metaphor for pregnancy.

However, the lines make me think that I am getting ahead of myself - letting the monkey mind run wild... that what I need to do is "keep still", sit in meditation, let things progress on their own accord... let the pot keep simmering.

I'd love to hear what others may think.

With much Gratitude. 🙏
 
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Am I Pregnant? 52.2.4 > 50
Because of the lines I'd say no. Resulting 50 shows you'll get pregnant, perhaps soon.
Also there's a problem in this situation. Are things ok between you and your partner? Is your health fine? 52.2 says the heart is not 'happy', and there's a need to keep still (52.4). Hidden line 18.4 speaks of tolerating something nasty.
 

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Thank you, Diamanda, for your response.
This gives me something to chew on...

Things between my partner and myself are really quite wonderful. I have read through all my translations to see how 18.4 relates and I can't really imagine it speaking of him - I can find no correlation there.

However, I wonder if other factors may be at play:

The last year has been a particularly difficult one for me (along with so many others in this wild world, no doubt.). In the midst of Covid I had to close a business I had poured my soul into for the last 3 years, leaving me unemployed for the first time in my life. I also lost two very significant pets simultaneously, sickness in my family, so on and so forth. I've been aimless and trying to figure out what I'm doing with myself, and in the quiet space of not having enough to do (not having enough to distract myself with, perhaps), I have also come to face some really hard feelings that were buried deep deep down regarding major wrong-doings and hurtful actions perpetrated by my father long ago, and which still play out in my life today, decades later. I hold secrets for him, which if brought into light would likely destroy his marriage and potentially compromise my relationship with my stepmother and half sister. I harbor MAJOR resentment over it. 18.4: "setting right what's been spoiled by father" is almost laughably literal, and perhaps I'm barking up the wrong tree reading that into your response. I do worry sometimes that these resentments are literal poison in my body and mind. In the midst of all this quiet and slow TIME I have these days, I have come to realize that therapy is something I really do need to venture into. I generally enjoy a fairly sunny disposition, but in these times I have found myself quite depressed, ruminating on these painful topics. Perhaps my reading is telling me that the bright future I wish to build with my partner somehow hinges on my laying to rest these resentments once and for all. Perhaps wishing for pregnancy is wishing for another way to busy myself in order to not have to look at these things any more...

After studying your response and that hidden line, I had to ask a couple of follow-up questions to see where that may lead me.

How does the poison from dad impact my ability to move forward in life? 57.3>59
"You may be going over the details of this situation over and over but are failing to understand the deeper dynamics. The solution is tied to your willingness to look objectively at new possibilities you hadn't considered. At the same time, indecisiveness can be born from spending too much time thinking and not enough time doing something to change it. Dispersion is a message to release and go with the flow."

Truthfully, I have known that I should see a therapist about all of this for many years. I did one time go to see one and she was utterly inept at her job and I ended up feeling like I was her therapist instead of the other way around. I told her my whole story and by the next session she had forgotten what I told her and asked me to tell it again. Useless, and discouraging, and I let that turn me off to the prospect altogether...

How do I release the resentment and hurt to move forward? 26.5>9
"A gelded pig will not injure others or damage its own tusks by fighting. It is disarmed, not by removing the tusks, but by removing the impulse to fight. In the same way, you can take the potential for injury out of a situation by removing its emotional charge. What is left is gentler and simpler; it can be modestly practical and still beautiful, and grows into its potential in the course of time."

Perhaps the "solution" would lie more in meditation/therapy/working things out within myself instead of head-on confronting my father, who, when I step back and witness objectively, is a very sad person who was abused and who "means well", despite himself. Perhaps forgiveness and acceptance are more appropriate than trying to be vindicated. As Wilhelm puts it: "wild force should not be combated directly; instead, its roots should be eradicated."



Funny, in a not-so-funny way, that this is what comes up for me when I ask about pregnancy. Perhaps the universe is waiting for me to heal these wounds before I bring a new life into the world, so as to not perpetuate any of these energies inadvertently. It is true that my "heart is not happy", that these things I have run away from for so long and buried beneath productivity and performance have been brought to light in the slow-motion nature of the covid-times...

I thank you again, for getting me on this tangent, and for ultimately underscoring the necessity for me to finally reach out and find therapy in order to move forward.

If any other thoughts come to you regarding the follow-up questions, your words of wisdom are of course so thoroughly appreciated.

Blessings.
Erin
 
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I don't believe that a pregnancy cast is talking to you about your father instead of pregnancy, but, well, anything can be used as a Rorschach test I guess. What I mean is, imagine asking a person: "am I pregnant?" - the answer just cannot be "think about your father".

How does the poison from dad impact my ability to move forward in life? 57.3 > 59
From this cast it doesn't sound like it's impacting you. You have analysed this a lot already, you have all the info you need to dissolve the problem.

How do I release the resentment and hurt to move forward? 26.5 > 9
Tame the bully. Castrate the beligerent pig so that he can't create any more problems.
 

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If 18.4 was your answer then you would have cast 18.4.



After studying your response and that hidden line, I had to ask a couple of follow-up questions to see where that may lead me.

One cannot find some hexagram of context and make it the answer so please be aware your answer is the answer you cast. It is not 18.4 and so asking more questions based on an answer you didn't receive is going to lead you right up the garden path.



One of those "no-no" yes/no questions that's hard not to ask when one is hopeful...

I asked "Am I Pregnant?"
Received 52, with 2nd and 4th lines changing to 50.

I would love to think that 50 could be affirmative, and could perhaps be a nice metaphor for pregnancy.

However, the lines make me think that I am getting ahead of myself - letting the monkey mind run wild... that what I need to do is "keep still", sit in meditation, let things progress on their own accord... let the pot keep simmering.

I'd love to hear what others may think


52 asks you not to look beyond the current situation so it's asking you not to think ahead, just be only where you are now. So above all Yi is suggesting you actually try not to engage with your own curiosity, that you just stay with things as they are right now. This answer is the very opposite of digging up family issues and looking for therapy. I mean you may want to do that but that is most certainly not what this answer is about.


You're right 50 could look like an incubation occurring within the stillness. It kind of does look like keeping still after intercourse to give things room to settle. I don't know if it's an old wives tale but the advice used to be lie still with your legs bent up for a while after sex if you wanted to improve chances of conception. However you can't stay like that days on end so it can't literally mean that...actually I don't think it is an old wives tale I guess it's logic. To get graphic the sperm can kind of 'settle in' more if you are lying down or something like that.


However, the lines make me think that I am getting ahead of myself - letting the monkey mind run wild... that what I need to do is "keep still", sit in meditation, let things progress on their own accord... let the pot keep simmering.


Yes definitely this answer tells you to stay in the moment. The Image from Wilhelm

'Mountains standing close together:
The image of KEEPING STILL.
Thus SeeBeauty
Does not permit her thoughts
To go beyond her situation.'


52.2 is quite a painful line emotionally. It's as if one is already in motion and cannot stop and so so this could well refer to disappointment that will be greater if you start hoping. It's possible it doesn't refer to disappointment about that it might refer to a wish to save a situation through a child or even to save another person. I often get when I'm invested in helping and I can't quite stop. This is why the heart isn't glad, because you can't just stop the heart's wishes and so in a sense must experience emotional pain. It's like when your head is quite clear something isn't going to work emotionally but your heart takes far longer to understand.


However you asked a very simple yes/no and of course there is no yes/no response in Yi as such although many answers do amount to that.


I would say your body hasn't yet decided if it is pregnant or not, the ovum hasn't decided and so you should stay quiet perhaps if you want to sustain the conception. I'm no Dr but conception can actually take place days after sex. Don't go jogging perhaps. I don't know if that applies but I'm pretty sure conception can take a while.


I don't feel happy that you took 18.4 as a springboard for questions about your dad. I think that was misleading. I don't know what the 'hidden line' is but whatever it is it's really not the answer. There's all sort of hexagrams of context one can look at and they can help give a flavour of what's happening but one never makes them the answer over and above the actual hexagram cast.


As far as I'm concerned 18.4 has nothing to do with your answer. You aren't meant to be scurrying about trying to make things right in 52, nor self analysing. One just stops.
 
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