ANY thing I *can* do here?

[kdedeaux4]

Forgive my numerous posts this morning..I'm having a very contemplative time lately...and really appreciate the thoughts/insight I get in this terrific community

Without getting too terribly detailed into the situation...I asked the IC about writing a letter to someone and received hex 1.1. --> 44
That seems a pretty loud and clear "NO" not a good idea at all.... So, I then asked the IC, "is there ANY thing at all I *can* (or should) do regarding this situation?
Response 49.2.4.5 --> 11
This sounds overall positive about major changes leading to the "peace" I desperately long for. I can see that the message could be that the only thing I can ever do about any "situation" really, is change myself and keep making the most positive changes to my character as I am able.
The strange thing is that I really like this reading and yet it leaves me feeling empty and powerless today, as though I have to accept that nothing can be done really, except the only thing that can ever be done....change myself! I'm frustrated with the whole:"don't like your situation? Do something about it...change yourself, change your perspective, change YOU." I'm a firm believer in this as a life-style and way to address life challenges in general and at the same time, I feel that the work I've done on myself over the past several years really hasn't led to anything being any different at all.. Therefore, all my hard work and attempts at doing this either aren't "enough" or aren't working....

I don't know.........hoping for some thoughts beyond my own point of feeling powerless, somewhat useless, and very frustrated....which I'm sure are affecting the way I'm interpreting this message

Thank you all so much

 

[willowfox]

Line 1.1 doesn't say no, it advises you to wait a while longer as the timing is not right yet, there are still things to be done.

While 49 > 11 suggests a genuine change of attitude is required before setting pen to paper.

 

[kdedeaux4]

Thank you!!! That makes so much sense and puts this into a different interpretation altogether!! I really saw 1.1 as "DO NOT ACT", so the thought of waiting makes much more sense!
And I'm sure you're right-on about change of attitude before writing....that, too, makes more sense to me and feels somehow more hopeful than my narrow thoughts of "keep changing yourself...keep changing yourself...keep changing yourself, etc, etc, etc..."

I'm really grateful for your much better and less dreary, ho-hum, interpretation of these two!! :bows:

 

[gene]

kdedeaux4

I would recommend that you recognize a serious change in conditions before you take any actions.

Gene

 

[kdedeaux4]

Thank you Gene!

Gene,
I think you're absolutely right. It's frustrating because I feel I've changed my perspective and position in this situation drastically already, but clearly not enough. This letter isn't something I would write or send until May or June at the earliest anyway...and who knows how much can/will change between now and then...but it's something that's very important and highly emotional for me, so I'm already contemplating whether writing and sending the letter at any time would make any positive impact at all. It's actually my drastic change in heart that even caused me to consider writing this letter! Not sure how many or which further changes I can accomplish in this matter while still caring about it at all, but I feel you're probably right in that I still have a ways to go before I should attempt to express it.
Thank you so much for responding and helping
Namaste'

 

[willowfox]

This letter isn't something I would write or send until May or June at the earliest anyway...

This fits very well with line 1.1 about waiting as Hex 1 indicates a time around the middle of May.

 

[kdedeaux4]

Changes?

I asked the IC what changes do I still need to make in regards to this situation and received 16.5. -->45. What an interesting line!!

I've found several threads on this hex and line here. It doesn't sound very positive , but I don't understand what relevance in regards to my question of what changes still need to happen?

 

[willowfox]

To believe that reconciliation is indeed a fact and therefore can indeed be achieved.

 

[kdedeaux4]

To believe that reconciliation is indeed a fact and therefore can indeed be achieved.

Willowfox, I am confused... The interps I read were about chronic illness, without dying..or something along that line of thought.... also I seem to recall reading something here about "martyrdom" as well....suffering for the sake of suffering, perhaps? I can see these possibilities in this situation...particularly as a chronic illness that feels like it should kill me, but doesn't..and my ineffective attempts at escaping could possibly be a subconscious(?) wish to suffer and/or continue punishing myself in a romanticized notion of martyrdom.....
I am confused by your response here though...albeit intrigued, as it touches on another "issue" I battled for a long, long time, which I no longer allow myself to ask IC about, which, of course, causes me to wonder...
Would you mind please explaining further, if possible?
Thank you...it's truly great to see you on here again and hear from you, as you have always seemed so able to key in deeper to my questions, thoughts, and situations than even I am aware when I consult or post