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"Why haven't I received the things I want in life?"
and got 21.1.4>23
Am I being punished (21)? Or is the Yi suggesting I need to bite through the obstacles here... 23 there... Maybe I am being undermined?... If I had to guess, sounds like the Yi is getting to the truth to me. 21, biting through to the truth, and 23, stripping away all the dead extraneous things hiding the truth to reveal what really is. Line 1 seems to be saying not to force things, and line 4 talks about some unexpected good fortune...
And this is what I mean... Always, I will get some line like this in response to these kinds of questions... But, has been years of getting these kinds of answers, hearing this in all kinds of readings, this ambiguous good fortune, and I don't see much great fortune coming my way. There have been steps up and down from garbage to higher quality garbage, or vice vera, but no real advancement is ever really made... And have tried to be patient, but at this rate I will be dead before I get the things I'd like in life.... Seems like I just get a lot of obstacles... I'd like to see some results.
And then, I meet people who are kind of crappy people, and some of them have even been kind of crappy to me, but have way more than I do... It has just fallen in their laps... They have it great... And looking at my life, you would think I was being punished. Why have these crappy people been given such good fortune? Even more importantly, why is it there in my face? It's kind of like the universe is saying, "Oh yeah, I'm just gonna give this to them, but if you work really really hard, you might have something like that.... One day.... Eventually. So, just keep doing what you are doing. But, I'm just going to give it to the crappy people. They don't have to work for it or even be nice." .... Starting to feel like a sucker here. It's a question, I think, we have all asked ourselves at some point...
"Why are there crappy people that have so much more in life than me?" and got 58.5>54...
What does that mean? They don't actually have it so great. It is a disintegrating influence, and doesn't go so well for them in the end? Could be
What do I need to do to get the things I want in life?" and I got 32.3>40.
Be more consistent? Thought I had been pretty consistent... Certainly more consistent than most people I know who are way better off than me. Any ideas what I'm doing wrong?
Anyone have some input on any of these readings? Really having trouble maintaining my optimism here, and since I'm not really a middle of the road kind of person, it is probably in the worlds best interests I stay soft and squishy, and not become a bitter and mean cynic... Could be dangerous:bows:.
Thanks,
:bowsWF:bows:
I just have to second *everything* Trojan just wrote! I have been in your same boat though ferret, and had *many VERY dark* days and nights. As a wise woman said, "Dont look sideways." And I think the real reason not to look sideways is that if you do, you just waste the precious time you have in life stalling. If you're looking sideways at what others have or do, you are not focused on your self, on moving forward in your own life and your own plan and your own progress.
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As my dear grandmother also often said, "this too will pass." We all have the dark nights -- some people have more than others, darker than others, harder and worse than others. But it will get better. If you're a good person, it will come back to you. I promise.
"Why haven't I received the things I want in life?"
and got 21.1.4>23
Am I being punished (21)? Or is the Yi suggesting I need to bite through the obstacles here... 23 there... Maybe I am being undermined?... If I had to guess, sounds like the Yi is getting to the truth to me. 21, biting through to the truth, and 23, stripping away all the dead extraneous things hiding the truth to reveal what really is.
"Why are there crappy people that have so much more in life than me?" and got 58.5>54...
They don't actually have it so great.
"What do I need to do to get the things I want in life?" and I got 32.3>40.
.....it is probably in the worlds best interests I stay soft and squishy, and not become a bitter and mean cynic... Could be dangerous:bows:.
Thanks,
:bowsWF:bows:
Sometimes it is a lot healthier to see things as what they are and what they do, than as "results of something else". It is true that many people get distorted because of something which is not their fault. But you should keep your own life healthy. If you are too forgiving towards hurtful things, you might harm yourself and probably even them.
I think hex.12 also has the message of saying no to what is wrong.
Thanks Trojan and Elizabeth:bows:. I see the line of thinking you guys are getting at, and I appreciate that. It's that thinking that has allowed me to deal with everything for so long, but is not working for me any more. I hate to lay it all out there like this, but I really don't know what to make of it any more.
The reason it is so hard to really embrace it is I don't have a lot of these things that aren't material either. Starting to feel like a big joke to keep being so grateful for the things I have. I'd just feel like an idiot to be focusing on how great anything is in my life right now. The other people I am talking about don't necessarily have material wealth. Some do, along with a lot of other great things. Others just have an easier life than me. And good relationships. Friends and family. And, gosh, they sure do seem happy. Very happy in fact. How do I know they haven't suffered? I don't think they've never had any challenges or upsets, but I'd be real surprised if they had suffered. They are very self centered and rude. They don't seem to have much empathy. Usually people who have suffered are more empathetic. Less self centered. And a little warmer. Less rude and confrontational.
I'm divorced, don't have much family, my father and sister have both passed on, and relationships are rocky with the little family I do have, don't have friends, it's very hard to make friends in the Pacific Northwest, and with such a hectic life has been a real challenge to meet people, or get together with any, my health is crappy, crappy, crappy, spent the bulk of my 20's in discomfort/pain, and am barely staving off diabetes at 32, I'm allergic to like 12 foods, and I need foot surgery, had to give Oliver to a friend because I couldn't afford him as he got older, good looks are fading (Thank God For Juvederm etc), job is alright, but really doesn't reflect what I am capable of by any means, and haven't really had a vacation in like 10 years. Every person I have ever dated has ended up becoming abusive at some point in some way. Well, at least I have health insurance now, and can look forward to a short life addressing premature health problems. Until recently, I was having trouble coming up with money for food sometimes... You get the idea...
So, at some point, silver linings like food and not being in pain all the time start to seem a little lame when the jerk next door has it all...
Did I mention my living situation kind of sucks too. House mates aren't that friendly, one is downright rude, and I have to commute like 3 hours a day to get to work. Looks like I will be moving for the seventh time in 5 years. I would really just like to get a little settled and at least have some time to myself.
How do I know they have it better than me? I don't know. But I don't think it takes much to top this.
Friends.... been quite a lot of disappointment there too. They never seem to be around when the going gets tough.
And, for some reason, the universe keeps presenting me with men who are total creeps. I don't even know if I could date anymore anyway I'm so suspicious of people now. The last one seemed great. A card reader told me he was one of my soul mates, and he does come up that way in readings. Everything was really great for a short time with us. We had great compatability, looks wise he was totally my type, seemed like he really cared, too. The universe could not have planned a better joke. Present me with someone who seems just right for me, but it's all just lies. Apparently, the plan from the beginning was just to keep me around a few months, but then ended up lasting like 9. I would love to find someone who has a good heart, who doesn't need massive amounts of psychiatric medication, or intensive therapy, and is interested in more than sex and treating me like crap. But these seem to be the only men that ever ask me out. Why don't any descent men ever ask me out? I don't think I have ever been asked out by one person who wasn't seriously messed up in some way.
I don't know... I think at some point, when things are consistently that crappy, one has to question why... I mean, with so much more available... I'm sure you see my point. I'm would just feel a bit foolish to be satisfied with this.
Thanks again... Everything you say makes sense, but I just don't feel it in my heart anymore:bows:.
Thanks everyone, perhaps I am being a bit dramatic. Maybe I'm just feelinpg bothered so much by this because I tried to be friendly with some of these people, and wasn't well received. Was expecting a warmer response from them. Can't avoid seeing them either. Didn't seem like crappy people. The only thing worse than crappy people is crappy people in disguise LOL. Oh yes, and crappy people you can't get away from. And this is why I think I am so upset by this. I have a surplus of crappy people in my life, and feels very lonely sometimes around them. Wish the people I saw every day were as great as all you are...
It's very touching that you all took the time to share your thoughts with me, and give me some perspective on this. Oh Trojan, are you middle aged... I had a feeling...Zsw The way tou talk sometimes about yourself I would think you were a centenarian though(that's a word right?). I do feel a bit better about my lot in life. Have given me a lot to think about:bows:
Your post fascinated me, because it is so very close to the point I have reached, philosophically, spiritually, socially: My spirit was given ample nourishment by its guides for growth, but it led to intellectual growth only, while in life, all was a dead end.stay true to the good, be polite and ignore the bad (dont let it affect you) Itsyourlife
from this old thread, if you are interested http://www.onlineclarity.co.uk/friends/showthread.php?t=14195
Easier said than done, right? It's a struggle every day, and lately a battle I'm losing. I'm really starting to lose faith in the whole you get what you give idea, and becoming skepitcal of the whole idea behind positive energy coming full circle. Seems like it works in the spiritual world, but not the real world. I get a lot of support from my spirit guides, but nothing ever really pans out in my life. If anything, being a nice person has proven to be a disadvantage. Most people have tried to take advantage of this, see my good nature as an opportunity to let out their negativity, and few have reciprocated warm feelings. And when I do meet people I like, seems like life circumstances always make it difficult for me to even see them. One of my good friends just moved to the other side of the country, work schedules don't mesh, etc etc... But the absolute worst people seem to just fall into place perfectly... Is this the universe's way of saying that is what I deserve. And when I ask the Yi about these kinds of things, I get answers that just sound to me kind of like the answers you get from someone who is evading getting to the point. Maybe I'm reading them wrong.
"Why haven't I received the things I want in life?"
and got 21.1.4>23
Am I being punished (21)? Or is the Yi suggesting I need to bite through the obstacles here... 23 there... Maybe I am being undermined?... If I had to guess, sounds like the Yi is getting to the truth to me. 21, biting through to the truth, and 23, stripping away all the dead extraneous things hiding the truth to reveal what really is. Line 1 seems to be saying not to force things, and line 4 talks about some unexpected good fortune...
And this is what I mean... Always, I will get some line like this in response to these kinds of questions... But, has been years of getting these kinds of answers, hearing this in all kinds of readings, this ambiguous good fortune, and I don't see much great fortune coming my way. There have been steps up and down from garbage to higher quality garbage, or vice vera, but no real advancement is ever really made... And have tried to be patient, but at this rate I will be dead before I get the things I'd like in life.... Seems like I just get a lot of obstacles... I'd like to see some results.
And then, I meet people who are kind of crappy people, and some of them have even been kind of crappy to me, but have way more than I do... It has just fallen in their laps... They have it great... And looking at my life, you would think I was being punished. Why have these crappy people been given such good fortune? Even more importantly, why is it there in my face? It's kind of like the universe is saying, "Oh yeah, I'm just gonna give this to them, but if you work really really hard, you might have something like that.... One day.... Eventually. So, just keep doing what you are doing. But, I'm just going to give it to the crappy people. They don't have to work for it or even be nice." .... Starting to feel like a sucker here. It's a question, I think, we have all asked ourselves at some point...
"Why are there crappy people that have so much more in life than me?" and got 58.5>54...
What does that mean? They don't actually have it so great. It is a disintegrating influence, and doesn't go so well for them in the end? Could be.
"What do I need to do to get the things I want in life?" and I got 32.3>40.
Be more consistent? Thought I had been pretty consistent... Certainly more consistent than most people I know who are way better off than me. Any ideas what I'm doing wrong?
Anyone have some input on any of these readings? Really having trouble maintaining my optimism here, and since I'm not really a middle of the road kind of person, it is probably in the worlds best interests I stay soft and squishy, and not become a bitter and mean cynic... Could be dangerous:bows:.
Thanks,
:bowsWF:bows:
Your interpretations seem on the mark, and I believe 58.5 is warning you of not allowing others' negativity or lack of response to negate your evolutionary joy, and also telling you that you have the discernment to step around "crappy people". Just my quick initial thoughts.:bows:the superior man, when he stands alone, Is unconcerned, And if he has to renounce the world, He is undaunted.
I think the 21.1 may be about sort beign restrained in a minor way for your own good. remember we don't see the whole picture...and by and and large have no idea of how others expereince their lives. You don't know how happy or not the crappy people are, or what they have suffered. Sounds like you are looking for some very tangible good fortune....but the real good fortune often isn't tangible at all. Anyway yes the 23 looks like you have been going through a stripping process..a phase of loss which would mean coming to hard decisions 21.4, struggle etc. Things don't always develop without difficulty..perhaps if everything had been easy you would not have developed the way you needed to. Also I think 21.1 is good for keeping you out of trouble and danger, I think theres an element of protection in it. Sometimes it can be safer for us, in ways we cannot see, to live in a more lowly way. There is, paradoxically, often more freedom in it
As a wise woman said, "Dont look sideways." And I think the real reason not to look sideways is that if you do, you just waste the precious time you have in life stalling. If you're looking sideways at what others have or do, you are not focused on your self, on moving forward in your own life and your own plan and your own progress..
As my dear grandmother also often said, "this too will pass." We all have the dark nights -- some people have more than others, darker than others, harder and worse than others. But it will get better. If you're a good person, it will come back to you. I promise
Oh well... Could be worse, as Precision Grace has pointed out with that God awful depressing picture... Thanks PG... Thanks a lot... JK. Is that bread... Or a cracker... I don't like crackers... Well I do but I can't eat them. Probably loaded with bowel inflaming gluten... Would have to be really hungry to eat some old glutenous cracker off the ground. Double negative there, glutenous and on the ground... That certainly does put things in perspective. Even when you think someone has it way worse than you, they may have something you don't... like the ability to digest gluten.
LOL. Seriously though, it could always be worse, and I really can't complain that my immediate needs aren't being met, and it always good to be reminded of the blessings one does have, and to count them every day. So, in all sincerity, thank you Precision Grace for reminding me of that.
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Thanks for all your responses... It is certainly hard to carry on with the whole life stinks thing with such uplifting responses from everyone... And certainly there have been a lot of responses, and I'm grateful for every one. I'm going to have to just write back my thoughts a little at a time though.
Thanks, Trojan, for sharing your insights:bows:... they are always so extremely intuitive and enlightening... Yes, I think you are right. Someone up above is trying to keep me out of trouble. This whole wait, now is not the right time thing has been coming up a lot for me lately, especially with relationships etc. That has been my gut feeling on this situation, at least when my more intuitive, patient, and spiritually evolved side is in control LOL. And, true, the only thing worse than dealing with crappy people is being one of them, so maybe it is good I have had to deal with these various misfortunes. It has made me a better person. But, I am starting to feel like, "Well, isn't that good enough? Am I aiming for sainthood here? I don't think I can get that much better, at least not any time soon... Maybe a nice vacation from the spiritual betterment thing.... somewhere good, not like a figurative vacation. How about Prague... or Paris? I'd even settle for the Pocono's. Or the Berkshire's... Either or. "
Thanks for all your responses... It is certainly hard to carry on with the whole life stinks thing with such uplifting responses from everyone... And certainly there have been a lot of responses, and I'm grateful for every one. I'm going to have to just write back my thoughts a little at a time though.
Thanks, Trojan, for sharing your insights:bows:... they are always so extremely intuitive and enlightening... Yes, I think you are right. Someone up above is trying to keep me out of trouble. This whole wait, now is not the right time thing has been coming up a lot for me lately, especially with relationships etc. That has been my gut feeling on this situation, at least when my more intuitive, patient, and spiritually evolved side is in control LOL. And, true, the only thing worse than dealing with crappy people is being one of them, so maybe it is good I have had to deal with these various misfortunes. It has made me a better person. But, I am starting to feel like, "Well, isn't that good enough? Am I aiming for sainthood here? I don't think I can get that much better, at least not any time soon... Maybe a nice vacation from the spiritual betterment thing.... somewhere good, not like a figurative vacation. How about Prague... or Paris? I'd even settle for the Pocono's. Or the Berkshire's... Either or. "
"Why haven't I received the things I want in life?"
and got 21.1.4>23
"Why are there crappy people that have so much more in life than me?" and got 58.5>54...
"What do I need to do to get the things I want in life?" and I got 32.3>40.
... Any ideas what I'm doing wrong?
The title of this thread reminded me of this poem
In the Desert
By Stephen Crane 1871–1900 Stephen Crane
In the desert
I saw a creature, naked, bestial,
Who, squatting upon the ground,
Held his heart in his hands,
And ate of it.
I said, “Is it good, friend?”
“It is bitter—bitter,” he answered;
“But I like it
“Because it is bitter,
“And because it is my heart.”
Source: Twentieth-Century American Poetry (2004)
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