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what is best for ME? 9.5>26 Be friends...
K
Not sure if its the only way to read this line. From here , seems to describe a way of relating where interdependence is acknowledged -without implying a lack of independence- and how the two parties can benefit from it. Past experiences (26) , good or not that good, are come into and influence. I recall seeing somewhere the image of 26 as a close fιst. There is some power in there and needs some taming to use it appropriately.
Have you consider telling him your fears ? not saying to do it , don't know if he will respect it but if you share it , do you think he will help you to put together the limits ?
When it comes on how to reduce that co-dependency, imo, it can't happen in a vacuum and it needs a "trial & error" approach, probably in a environment that is secure and allows you to say some no's and support you in that effort. Where you don't have to be strong or "cooool", where you can share your difficulties.
Good luck with the full moon
I've had bad anxiety attacks because of this kind of stuff. You are having post traumatic stress over things that happened. Going back to this guy will make the eventual break up much much worse and your panic attacks will become dangerous. It it were me I would completely end all contact now.
I appreciate your comment on needing to get over codependence by trial and error. I do feel like that's what I've been doing - pushing towards and pulling from people in an awkward dance. For some reason I haven't considered that this is exactly the way to go. I guess you don't just jump from codependence to perfect interdependence... [insert lightbulb going on]
I can't help you much with the hex's I just don't feel confident enough with the Yi to help someone else just yet but I did want to say that this idea, imho, is the best for you. I don't believe running from anything is a good idea ( well no, that's not true. Defiantly run from someone welding a knife at you. )I don't like to run away from bad feelings. I want to sit with them and get to know them, so I can understand what's up and down. And sometimes, on a more general level, meetingthe enemy takes the power they have over you away.
Sorry to hear of your experience, I know now how debilitationg it can be at its worst. Well, for now I am keeping away, but other than that - I don't like to run away from bad feelings. I want to sit with them and get to know them, so I can understand what's up and down. And sometimes, on a more general level, meetingthe enemy takes the power they have over you away.
... knowing what a joker I like to be in social settings, these one-on-one moments make me uneasy on some deeper level, like I don't trust myself or the other person to have my best interests in mind. I need to get to the bottom of this, there is something more here I need to deal with. I love your affirmations, I will use them - they are dead on!
kimbenes7, that's exactly it, no? there is strength in vulnerability, but my god is it hard to admit to someone. but the beauty is that once you admit it to someone, you can see their true colors - do they really care or not?
K
Sounds like we are on a similar path. I would submit that it is likely that, like me, your inability to trust other people to have your best interest comes from childhood experiences where your needs weren't met. As young children, we have no choice if these need aren't met, we are absolutely dependent on other people and are forced to suffer and bc we are children, we learn ineffective ways of trying so hard to have our needs met, and all we ever had to do as adults was make our needs known. This is the most important thing I have learned in the last few months, being assertive about my needs. We take care of our own needs and ask other people to take care of our needs first, then give to others from the overflow. For example, asking someone how they feel about you is less needy than telling them how you feel about them expecting a positive answer or expecting someone to feel positive about you bc you are nice to them.
Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
Phone/ Voicemail:
+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
+1 (561) 459-4758 (US).