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Could someone explain me what happened? 51.1 everything was going alright

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I havent connected to this forum in a while... I wanted to give you an update. I finally met with her in person, we had a nice date I even had visualized week before it happened, it was impressive things happened the same way I visualized it, but that time I had given her a laptop because I promised to God(and I really wanted to do it regardless of the promise I had only promised if I was given a job I got I would certainly gift it to her but she mistreated me a whole month while she dated someone and wanted me to give it to her without a ful payment, since she wanted to buy it originally but that wasnt her real intention her intention was getting it for free). the day before the day she was wanting to take me just as a friend, but the next day she wanted me to make her fall in love. we hugged each other before saying goodbye on the metro. I hadnt felt such a strong love feeling before when i told her I loved her so much she said she said she wanted me it was so honest the way she said she even said I was cute, next week after that we had another date but only because she wanted me to give her money for buying a phone thing I dont know if she truly didon that date I was going to propose to her. I really wanted to tell her I was sure what i felt for her and I want to share my live with her... but the whole date she was a bit distant sure it was she wanted the money but somehow she was interested in the engagement ring she didnt want me to put the ring on her finger... and didnt allow me to propoeto her but I talked ot her downstairs and I asked her if she knew what the ring meant and she said commitment she understood it... she used it. but not sure when we were in the metro again she mentioned she was too young to marry someone and she had to study I said that we could have a relationship and marry in the future I only wanted ot show her my love. and that I am being 100% honest with what I had always told ot her, but two days after we dated she uploaded a picture to her facebook, she said I looked for her in facebook since she wouldnt have a phone... she reached me 3 days after we had the date, so she didnt contact me after a day she had the phone or at least had something to upload a picture to her facebook...after the date she said she didnt want to contnue dating me but her reason was because I wasnt considering her needs.I know what she refers she talks abou studying and probably working but I never talked about it or anything seems like she has some problems with this I dont get it

relevant for today:
yesterday she agreed with me to teach her to code so I was so eager/enthusiastic to teach her I only sent her 5messages spaced in 1hour and deleted one because i assumed she would get nagry at it... she blocked me just for that
I asked iching why did she get angry with me? maybe due to over-reacting
51.1 > 16(describes more of circumstance that I should prudent and calm) and gain experience I asked what should I do today? 21.1.6 basically saying that I should learn from this experience, i will be slowed down at the moment(being blocked)
I asked what should do abou her now?
46UC I know this i going to be a slow process...incremental steps it wont be a short term solution?
I asked what does it refer to 46UC?
18.3>4.3(in fact the answer is backwards but the right is 18.3) ok tells me I acted too hastily I know.. and I acted too hastily due ot emailing her right after she blocked me explaining the circumstance... this isn more of a description

i asked what should I do to fix the problem described in 18.3
48.4.5.6 > 50


unrelated and not very important to the above the first date she kissed me 5 times and we caress each other and even called me "baby" the 2nd time before going downstairs she wanted me to kiss her this time not only with lips and she started to fake a moan this time she was cold and not like the first time, she wanted the money ... for a reference o you iching always referred ot her as 44UC and 4.3

for a side note she dislikes my nervousness plus she isnt very patient and she has mood swings
 
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I think only 48.4.5.6 was the advice.but still I think i overeacted by sending her another email... i asked iching how she received it 44.1.4 yeah i would be judged by her even by saying certain things in the email, sadly I dont know which of them 2 of them the iching refer to...

i asked then what should I do about her 40.2.5.6

40.2 go straight to what I believe is the issue, there could be a deceptive behavior on her part. I saw her facebook profile picture was removed so was her whatsapp profile picture, she often does this to other people, not sure the reason why, maybe to avoid they find her on facebook or she wants to show her discontent against someone by removing the profile picture creating a psychological pressure, I believe I got in middle of it and ended up facing her rage against this other person, and well this is the part of the deception it might be talking, or very well could mean that she is blocking me to make me miss her, I was told by her if I was blocked if I would keep sending her some email, I believe that she asked in a sadistic way if she enjoyed I suffered trying to recover her contact...

40.5
If i remove the wrong I ideas that I was the reason I was blocked perhaps I could achieve a better outlook of the situation perhaps refer to slow down and not keep sending messages to her perhaps and perhaps that maybe by trying to not using defensive arguments(she wouldnt get angry, since she disliked sometimes when people makes the victim beccause she feels fustrated, this is more related to her psychological problems than anything, becaue if someone tries to act as a victim you shouldnt be affected emotionally unless this person experienced getting victimisized often, for reference she is HIGHLY self-indugent so she dislikes her behavior mirrored into someone else for some reason)

40.6 whatever the issue I have the means to solve the issue, I only should show up to her at the right time and be prepared
 
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