Daily meditation mixed up with work stress reading

[Dandrews]

Oh wow, I have not been on this forum for years, since the last time, many things have changed. I got married, change a couple jobs, moved to a different country. All good, I try o keep the hard times out of my reality, I recommend it to everyone.

Anyway, the last time I was on the forum was when I got fed up with everything that was going on around me and said I was going to take a break, well the break was about 4 years, here is my big come back! Haha...

I actually asked two questions today, the first one is:
What should my next move be concerning my career?
And I realized that I need a broader answer so I asked:
What do I need to know now?

Lately I have been feeling extremely overwhelmed at my job, I am stressed, I drag my feet when going in, it even starts the night before, I start thinking of excuses not to go in... Well, you get the picture...
Last week it even showed on my body and I had to rush into ER because my neck and back muscles decided that they weren't going to work anymore! See, it is all work related, nothing in my existence wants to work right now! Gosh, I am hilarious...

I have had the idea of working for myself, a couple of ideas here and there but nothing that gave me an a-ha feeling, or maybe I am just scared of my ideas.

For "What should my next move be concerning my career?" question I got the following:
28 with moving lines 4 and 5 into 46.

Great Exceeding to to Pushing Upward, come on now I Ching, don't tease me.
In great exceeding, the key questions from Hilary were: What is overloaded?, What have you outgrown?, What must you do?
Which are the exact questions that I have, I overloaded myself, I outgrew my career path and as to the last part, I don't quite know my dear.

And after all the confusion, it tells me it is fruitful to have a direction and it will create success, which makes my heart sing. I love it, but what is the direction?
My question to everyone who bared with me until now and read this thread is,
Can you open up The ridgepole warps part a little please?

And I understand that a transition is way overdue and my body, spirit and nerves do not support what I am so desperately trying to hold onto: working at a job that doesn't make me happy anymore but not knowing how to get out of that cycle. I have a feeling that my lovely I Ching is telling me that if I don't gather up the courage to make the move soon, it will all collapse on me. It is telling me that I am stressed (oh well, we all knew that), but there is a purpose awaiting me, I should start the movement to the success that awaits. Okay, well, thanks for the encouragement, but which way?

The image being: A noble one (oh thanks darling) stands alone without fear, withdraws from the time without sadness.
Are you telling me to be brave and just quit my job? or are you telling me to be brave and make your move without fearing what your spouse's reaction will be to this decision?
I would love your insights on Line4 "the shame" if you are still reading.
So this changes into hexagram 46 and guess what? So does my second question!

My "What do I need to know now?" question changes from 50, the Vessel to 46 Pushing upward.

This gives me the idea that I Ching just told me the same thing with different phrasing. It is encouraging me, telling me that it is waiting for me out there and just telling me to go get it. As much as this makes me happy and gives me the green light, I am a little stuck on how to. So does anyone have a good example question for me to ask on that?

The thing that made me laugh is at Hexagram 46, the oracle says "Do not worry, set forth to the south, good fortune"
I have been wanting to visit my friend who lives in LA for a long time now. I have this feeling in me that tickles me and somehow tells me that I will find answers if I just go there. So I took that part very literally.

Anyway, thanks for bearing with me and my ADD, and all your insights are welcome!
Love!
D.

 

[iams girl]

Happy returns D.,

"What should my next move be concerning my career?" question I got the following: 28 with moving lines 4 and 5 into 46.

28.4 Striving for the good of all rather than oneself alone (the "shame" you were asking about maybe related to someone just into things for themselves).
28.5 Fruitlessness. My experience with this line was about a job I applied for. Ultimately, I was informed someone else was selected without my even having had an interview. It sounded good, but nothing happened.

I'd read this as somehow reconnecting with your work as being important and meaningful to others whether in your current job or a new job with the caution that otherwise you truly will burn out. Also, in hex 28, W/B, "nothing is to be achieved by forcible measures," so I don't see this as quitting your job cold turkey. Maybe, however, it does mean to start by talking about it with your spouse. Just opening up a dialogue may be a great relief rather than your carrying the burden of it all on your own shoulders. And, hex 46, heading to L.A. for a visit does sound perfect for putting things in better perspective!

"What do I need to know now?" question changes from 50, the Vessel to 46 Pushing upward.

50.4 Things go very wrong.
50.6 Things go very right.

I love the W/B hex 50 imagery about the fate of fire depending on its wood underneath it and “there is in man likewise a fate that lends power to his life.” Again, it seems to point to making adjustments in your life with the lines maybe showing what the consequences could be depending on how well you find a balance. Hex 50 was a yearly reading of mine once and after asking several questions about various aspects in order to put my fate “on a firm footing,” I was led to make several changes which helped me become much more grounded. Hex 46, again, good working energy.

 

[Dandrews]

Thanks iams girl!
I wanted to follow up on this one.
So I talked to my husband and we came to the conclusion that i am just not happy at the moment with everything in my life, not just my job.
Being the sweetheart he is, he made some research and found out a bunch of classes i can take and how to improve my social life, which actually helped, i have been feeling happier ever since i talked to him.
I started applying for new jobs and waiting to hear back.
Over all though, i am happier and I am making better decisions and have better judgement on the jobs I apply to rather than jumping onto everything.

 

[iams girl]

You've made some awesome changes! It's nice to hear how well things are going for you now, thank you.

 

[Dandrews]

Ok, so I realized I never gave you an update on this.
I did go to LA to visit my friend in May of 2017, it was a lot of fun. after I came back home, in june i resigned, i quit my job, it was sort of a fast decision, just in one day, I discussed it with my husband and he was very supportive and bam, i quit.
We went to Europe for 2 weeks, as soon as we came back, I found a job, in fact the job came to me. I work in education which is something I have never thought about, it is great, I love every second of it and I am actually planning on going back to school to get my teaching license.
After all the rain, there was a big rainbow and I didn't even plan on it, I didn't push it to happen, I just finally let go and it all came together for me.
It was very hard, I cried a lot but at the end it all worked out!

 

[Dandrews]

Ok, so I realized I never gave you an update on this.
I did go to LA to visit my friend in May of 2017, it was a lot of fun. after I came back home, in june i resigned, i quit my job, it was sort of a fast decision, just in one day, I discussed it with my husband and he was very supportive and bam, i quit.
We went to Europe for 2 weeks, as soon as we came back, I found a job, in fact the job came to me. I work in education which is something I have never thought about, it is great, I love every second of it and I am actually planning on going back to school to get my teaching license.
After all the rain, there was a big rainbow and I didn't even plan on it, I didn't push it to happen, I just finally let go and it all came together for me.
It was very hard, I cried a lot but at the end it all worked out!