Exploring my own feelings

[siren]

Hello again... thank you so much for answers on my previous post. I'm completely finding a lot of truth that wasn't seeing before.

I've been making some questions to understand my own feelings now. So I asked... "what should I do about this situation" and received 61.1.2 to 20. I was reading a recent post from Maremaria that was quite enlightening on these lines. My conclusion was to look inside me and be honest, be true to myself and observe the situation. So the "doing" was quite reflective. Perfect for my current state of mind.

So, I asked "what are my real feelings towards him". I received 33.5 to 56, it talks about a friendly retirement and its auspiciousness. I was perplex at first, but I then I remember that in fact, this week I felt clearly not to look for getting together and also, I have to travel next week for about a week. which relieves me because I have two weeks a least to find out what's up with me.

Then I asked, "why do I feel this way about the situation" and received 38.1.2 to 35. For what I can see, it is telling me that I am giving space to the horse to come back - which I have been feeling I had to give time to the situation to develop by itself... like not making too much noise for some time. I need some more help on this if possible. I don't know how to apply line 2 based on my question.

Last question was "how should I deal with my feelings towards him?". And received 46.3.4.5.6 (uh... so many lines) moving to 6. Well, I feel that the Yi says not to worry, go step by step, let them grow, feel them, make them real.

if you have a moment, will you take a look and add anything you see?

I just realized that there are here so many people helping out others in this forum, as well as sharing knowledge and spending time so passionately. My bows to all of you.

 

[bamboo]

Just at a glance,I suspect the 46 to 6 is saying...you need to let this evolve and the aspect of it being ' outside of your control' -46.6 -causes a conflict for you. who knows where it will go, you are moving into the 'unseen' and that's a good place to be. but it can be frightening! maybe you are a strong woman who is not used to giving over the reigns to matters of the heart. But it sounds like this is a great time to do that. Surrender, Dorothy. Seems this is a good man.

enjoy your trip. and relax.

 

[siren]

Thank you, Bamboo. I am completely frightened. I know this is a good time to make a step forward though. The uncertainty is killing me, it's like if I wanted to have everything already done, completed, clarified but... I don't want to miss the party! But still, I wake up and got this fiery sensation in my heart coming with an "Aggghhhh!". All the readings I've done for this situation are quite nice and it is like I want to continue looking for "the problem" so I can rest knowing that, of course, my fears are true, and stay forever lamenting my bad luck. Silly, huh?

I asked just - why I am so afraid? and the reading is 58.1.3 to 28. I understand on this reading that, i feel the joy coming in but I stop it and start loosing myself in the future, I project too much instead of being in the present... This is what you just told me as well.