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6 at 3: The shock: reviving, reviving. The shock moves without mistake.
Shocks inspire to greater deeds than normal thinking can imagine. Use them, don’t let them fade away, don’t let anyone talk you back to normal size. Great and often dreadful happenings give power and depth to life.
(Changes to hex.55)
Initial 9: The shock comes: fright fright. After that laughter and talk: shriek shriek. Auspicious.
Thoughtlessness is one of the biggest causes of trouble. Not stupidity, not inexperience, not taking too much risk. Just think of all the things you would have done different if you had thought before acting. So be grateful for shocks, they hit you out of thoughtlessness. Many have been saved from disaster by a shock, or even from death. And once your mind is awake again, look back and realize the waste of a life with a sleeping mind.
(Changes to hex.16)
Well, yes, I don't feel like going there and arguing my point. It's exhausting, and leads to more arguments, more criticisms, and a whole load of blame, for years and years afterwards. My mother will say things like 'Well, you ruined this Christmas.' Or: "I won't forget what you did / said / didn't do"Bottom line: Plain white shoes. To proceed is without fault.
Moving simple and without pretensions, pure in your intentions and not needing anyone or leaning on anything not your own. That is the way to lead your life without being impaired or restricted.
(hex.10 its 6 Contention with advice when not to contend)
I think this is about trusting decisions and continuing the course, even though you may feel apprehensionLine 5: Decisive treading. Determination: danger.
When one's treading is strong and clear and decisive, one summons danger, but one also creates lasting values. The soft and half way is safer, but has only a short life with few accomplishments.
Do not always show your convictions right away though. Explore the situation, the ambiance, the feelings of the others. Find in every situation anew the best course of action
(hex.10 its 38 Squinting about being similar and yet different)
Top line: Observe the steps. Forefather sacrifice. His return: eminent auspiciousness.
Do not just fill in your duties or perform your rituals, but look always for the signs of their meaning. They are the omens which reveal the sense of life. If one can integrate these signs, sometimes small and hardly visible but always rich, in his soul, his life will be meaningful and rewarding.
(hex.10 its 58 Interaction about discernment in communication)
Aw shucks! So sorry to hear this, EmMacha.
It appears you didn’t ask a specific question so I assume this reading is sort of a photograph of the situation.
62. Attention to Detail.
Had you let your mom know before Christmas you were not planning on being there? That seems to me to.be important detail in story. If you had let her know and she made no attempt to make alternative arrangements (“If it’s a matter of money, let me pay for the gas.” Or “We’ll miss you. Let’s make plans to get together in the new year.”) then I see 51.1 as describing you as being totally shocked by her unwarranted attack and 51.3 as indicating that you should use this experience to wake yourself up and recognize you are dealing with someone who nuckin’ futs (and thus to deal with the situation from a different perspective than devoted daughter and recognize yourself as more like survivor). However if you waited to call her on Christmas morning and said, “We’ve just decided we’re not coming after all” then 51.1 could be saying it was a shock to Mom and maybe cut her some slack for not immediately asking about your well being. Even so, 51.3 suggests this incident could be used to make improvements.
He said "they are expecting me, a shut in autist, to go and pretend I'm normal, and play Happy Families, when I dont have money, and I can't get a job. I've gone to college without their help or support, I funded it myself! F*** them, they don't care about me"
Your son is wise.
and
Your mother sounds like a toxic manipulative abusive narcissist.
She abuses her husband and anyone that allows her to. Does she drink too?
I’ve been thinking about 51 pointing to keeping calm through an earthquake. This could be seen as advice for keeping centered when you eventually do see her again. Perhaps it would be useful to practice a bit of meditation now so that you’ll be able to easily slip into that calm space when the next storm hits.
I’ve been thinking about 51 pointing to keeping calm through an earthquake. This could be seen as advice for keeping centered when you eventually do see her again. Perhaps it would be useful to practice a bit of meditation now so that you’ll be able to easily slip into that calm space when the next storm hits.
Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
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+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
+1 (561) 459-4758 (US).