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guidance in proceeding with complaint 18>43

amelie

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hello :)

I work within a very large bureaucracy. About three months ago, I initiated a formal greivance against my management, stating that I was not receiving adequate compensation for my level of work responsibility. This was and continues to be an ennervating process, because I like being part of a team, and this action can be perceived, by its very nature, as distancing and "look at me" in tone.

Yet there are new staff coming into the office every day who work with less autonomy on tasks of less significance that are rated as high if not higher than I am, so I felt there was no other choice.

Ironically, the director of my office had previously been a good friend of mine; we started at my workplace at the same time in a peer relationship. However, she has not been responsive to written appeals that I have made, and just seems to avoid talking with me entirely.

Having attempted to twice get management to agree to a compromise through the established phases, it is now scheduled to move into arbitration (it is in a queue, so I don't know when it will move forward). I continue to feel conflicted.

I am looking for work outside of my office. If I do decide to leave, the greivance will not terminate, but a part of me just wants to let go of the toxicity of the whole thing.

Asking for "guidance regarding my greivance", I received 18.1.3.4.6>43. I take this to mean that (1) I should not take it personally, but take care of business as I feel appropriate, (3) show my accomplishments so that people sit up and take notice (4) follow the proscribed rules in this process (as I perhaps didn't previously by not highlighting my contributions).

But then I get a bit lost on line 6, because it seems to indicate deprioritizing worldly matters (which I do all too well in my idealism).

In any case, I thought thathex 43 seemed to validate my need to speak out...

Then I read Rose's thread on applying for med school (life path) and saw some very different takes on the same lines of hex 18. If I understand this in my situation, I have taken all of the wrongs steps. Being out of step, stepping on toes, at the beginning of woes, and being better off setting my sights elsewhere.

But then what of 43?

Glargh. I don't know if I'll ever be any good at reading for myself.

Any additional insights are appreciated if there is anyone who has thoughts to add to the pot.
 
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Yeah, sometimes it's helpful to look at other readings and sometimes it's crazy making. I pretty much go along with your interpretation of the lines here. That 18.6 is a stickler though isn't it?! As the sixth line represents the experience once we are out of the main meaning of the hexagram, I look at 18.6 as encouraging you to look beyond the conflict. Let your thoughts consider what life will be like once you are no longer caught up in this hassle. Knowing that there will be life beyond this job may help you keep it all in perspective. Or maybe this is suggesting you may very well leave the company, or that you should at least consider that you might and let this thought inspire you to not pull any punches in your complaint - you don't have to make nice to preserve any "friendships". Or consider that what you are doing may have meaning beyond just your own case, perhaps your speaking up will be making the path easier for those who come after you?
Whatever, I do think the two hexagrams alone are encouraging you to pursue your case, Working on What Has Been Spoiled will create a Breakthrough!
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amelie

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Thanks Rosada. I like your take that I can both focus on the merits of what I am doing in representing myself in the office, yet also look beyond it so that it does not consume me.

I know that I am in this to learn "something". I'll probably understand it all after the fact, but as Carrie Fisher once said, "Immediate gratification takes too long!"

Thanks as well for reminding me that the lines don't necessarily conform to a "one size fits all" sort of paradigm.
 

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You need to carry this through, otherwise you will look foolish if you withdraw your complaint, this is now about taking the problem to the top where you should finally get a hearing.

Hex 43 is advising you to continue to fight against injustice.
 

amelie

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Thanks Willowfox.

It strengthens me to hear you say that it's too late to back down. It's odd how scared I am around this, it's like I'm looking for a reason to back down.

On the other hand, I've grown in perspective as a result of asking other people (from other offices that work with me on projects) to provide written feedback on my work in order to document my performance. These comments have surprised and impressed me; my reaction tells me that my self esteem needs some real work.

Writing this through, I wonder if the true rot as depicted in hex 18 is the extent to which my own sense of limitation has colored the perception of others around me. Perhaps this is what is meant in part by the breakthrough?

Ugh. I mean, er, yipee!
 

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