Health fears

[ben_s]

I'm not sure if I've mentioned this before, but I am facing some major health issues.

I asked the oracle, what is the most important factor for me to be healthy?
24.3 turning point > 36 darkening of the light

This is scary. 24.3 says there is something that keeps derailing my progress every time I start to get somewhere. 36 says this will be very bad news if it keeps up, because someone in authority undermines my progress.

I already talked about sacrificing to try to help someone else's disastrous life. I believe this is what the oracle refers to - when I let this person become the authority over how I take care of myself.

My follow up question, what is the best I can do about my health ASAP?
46.2 pushing upward > 15 modesty

46.2 make a small positive change and it will add up
15 balance and perseverance win the day

This seems more positive. For example instead of studying every nutrition book I can find, just have a healthy next meal, then a healthy meal after that. Over time, these little things will make all the difference.

So I am worried, but hopeful.

I'd welcome comments about the oracle. I already have enough information for now about the medical side of the situation.

 

[willowfox]

I asked the oracle, what is the most important factor for me to be healthy?
24.3 turning point > 36

It would seem that you are in the habit of not following the right method for better health, it gives the impression that you are constantly looking for a better method and so this tooing and froing is in fact upsetting your progress,you need to go and follow the correct path only or the path you have been advised to follow

Hex 36 says that you are trapped by your ill health and there is little that you can actually do about it at the present time but don't give up because given time things will improve, so for the mean time just stay cool.

My follow up question, what is the best I can do about my health ASAP?
46.2 pushing upward > 15

It suggests that you look to others for help as you have a genuine need.

 

[fallada]

Hello Ben,

Concerning the final hex 36: 24.3> 36 always remained an undramatic experience for me as long as I did stay in the background and happily walked along my own path. I often found, that there is an issue of ‘giving away authority’ when this line shows up, a bit like 4.4. So I think, you are right with your interpretation. Mostly these people were quite decent and normal, not at all ‘dark’ or ‘benighted rulers’. I just shouldn’t see them as authorities and shouldn’t follow their example, but foster my own light that was inclined to dim down in their presence.

Have you seen Jesed’s comment in: http://www.onlineclarity.co.uk/friends/showthread.php?t=5179 Good stuff.
Wish you all the best !

 

[ben_s]

Thank you both so much! You're both right on target. Jesed's comment is on target too.

Willowfox, I think that maybe the to and fro is actually about the interruptions, not about the progress. I start to do the right thing about my health. Then I get distracted with a new, unusual crisis, and let me health slide in a new and different way. I return to the very same right health patterns, but then another, different crisis occurs, and I let my health go in yet another way. It is one new type of interruption after another.

I agree that the oracle shows me three ways out.
First, as hard as it can be under pressure, don't let a crisis push me to give up on what works for my health.
Second, don't let other people decide what has to be a crisis in my life!
Third, ask for help appropriately. I actually do have some more ways I can do this. In particular there is a growing network of holistic practitioners in my town. They have some good insights and skills that can help me.

Thanks again for the fast and hopeful responses.

 

[plupp]

ben, I didn't dare to give my interpretation of your question because I am not so good at it but when I read what jesed wrote I feel reinforced about my own feeling and what I wanted to communicate to you. I feel the oracle is telling you the contrary of what you told em the other day. I.e. re your actual health issue feelings and to reflect are more important than actions. You seems to be a man of action and maybe the Yi is telling you that you need to look inside more and getting in touch with your own feelings. Sometimes, the need to help others can be a way of escaping our own pain and needs. Instead of looking inside yourself to get in touch with your pain you maybe look too much into others pain and try to rescue them when the most important person to rescue first is yourself. I hope your health will improve.

 

[fallada]

Sorry for the typo in my post. It should be of course 4.3, not 4.4.

One little personal observation about hex 36 came to my mind last sleepless night. For sure not relevant, but maybe a nice detail, since the Yi can answer on so many levels.

36 is the Yi’s simple way of saying: this is ugly, a sore to the eye. Call me superficial, but hex 36 tought me, that an ugly, dark and uncreative environment drains my energy; if I have to remain repeatedly and for too long, then I start to feel it on a physical level. Beauty and health are related on a deep level and in more than one way. If you are sensitive to uglyness, watch out for undermining environments that can add to a feeling of being ‘burned out’.

 

[proserpine]

Ben, I'm sleepy, os forigive me if my typing is poor, and my words are jumbled.But just a thought came to mind that's I;ve expereinced many times.
Do you practice goodemtional and physical heath in your life, and then do somehting else every now and again?
Like you're doing allright but then you get careless as in--not taking your meds, or, doing something dangerous, or careless to your emtional or physical state?

I also want to remind you that 24 line 3 tells you that though you keep "backsliding" your general movements forward keep you from ever getting in to real danger.
You may not be where you want to be in your habits, but you're always trying.
I think the "Darkening"would only transpire if you keep sliding back more and not less.
That or there is a way that you continuously stand in your own light so to pseak.
If the Oracle was not talking about physical health but your emotional state, then I think it would *definitely* mean you want to set up a strengthening plan for your own self--a recovery if you will, for co-dependance.
It's you who doesn't want to be drawn back into allowing yourself to make someone else more important than you are to yourself.
So, honor those very feelings, and permit that to be your very definite goal.
Again, 24 line 3 would mean your'e "returning' to yourself or real self, and then slip back to taking care of someone elses feelings--but, then, you always come back to your path out of it again.
We do that, always as we're changing as you probably know already.

 

[ben_s]

You're all absolutely right.

See my hospital post today.

I know what to do, but literally can't afford to do it; all the money has gone to the more immediate health needs of the cancer patient.