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I’m not far away enough from it to see things clear yet. It’s only been a week.
Or it means it's only been a week, and of course 24 mentions the turnaround time as 7 days. I don't even count a week as a proper break up.
I think the porn is one thing, not such a massive deal if he looks at porn sometimes is it however how he got his STD is a very very big deal indeed.
It's his job to be fully transparent about that. I wondered how you found out he had it ? Did he tell you voluntarily or did you find out some other way ?
You had a break up before didn't you ?
Oh BTW you said you prayed about this so what answers came to you from that ? It certainly can be a more direct route to guidance sometimes than a 3000 year old Oracle
Yet he won't be clear how he got it.
It's very painful and I find myself in bed a lot because the grief overpowers me. All I do is cry.
18 is not so negative - does not mean he is corrupt to me. To me, it indicates that you can help him to mend his ways. Sometimes we idolize other human beings, but this is often a sign of our weakness - to expect that Mr. (or Ms) Right will get everything right for us. Maybe when we look deeper into ourselves we understand better our own faults (you mentioned yourself your patterns); in turn, this increases our understanding for others and gives us the strength to forgive (not to forget!) ourselves and others and move on. Sometimes a relationship is strengthened by going through such a crisis. As for porn, how may people have never dubbed in it? I would try to be more gentle first toward yourself and then to the others. God helps those who help themselves. I wish you the best of luck for your future and the peace of mind to go through this difficult stage in a fruitful way.
People often lie because they want to have the cake and eat it. In my experience, those who lie are often unaware that lying can mean for the Others involved a painful breach of trust. I agree that the main problem is lying and not watching porn per se, but hexagram 18 does suggest nevertheless that he can make amendments with your help and realize that he acted wrongly. It is not easy to regain trust after one has been deceived, but if one realizes that lying is often due to immaturity and not wickedness one can be more forgiving. However, it is important that the issue be clarified in full and that he sincerely understands his mistakes and repents. But as I said hexagram 18 suggests that one can work on that and may be it is even an encouragement to you to help him to move past his mistakes to a more mature attitude toward life.
The hardest part is the abrupt ending. Not hearing from him again at all is hurtful. I'm not sure I knew who this man really was. He just dropped me. I'm working on believing I deserve better than this but it's hard to make sense of it all. He told me I was his heart. His love. Now nothing. I should stop before I spiral further into sorrow. Thanks again. I'll return to God
18 is not so negative - does not mean he is corrupt to me. To me, it indicates that you can help him to mend his ways.
Hex 24 Unchanging - describes the Holidays. Start planning your Merry Christmas. The most wonderful time of the year! No more work on this matter - it can wait. He is like a really toxic work environment full of difficult nasty people who present only problems and leave you holding the bag.I’m enduring the breakup of my relationship with my fiancé. The only man I've ever been engaged to or wanted to marry. The short version is I repeated some old patterns of mine (being negative, needing validation, being controlling, etc) which I am currently in therapy to heal. I discovered he'd been lying to me about his use of porn over our entire relationship. To make matters worse, he contracted an STD and fed me some story about how he got it, that he did not cheat on me . The breakup has been excruciating and shattering. I really adored this man. Yet he would not take or see his responsibility in all this. Somehow it all became about my behaviors. He was what I wanted until things slowly came to light of who he really is. It’s all so shocking. I’ve been so confused. I’ve cried, I’ve screamed. I feel like I'm going mental. Aside from therapy, I talk with a couple close people. I’m on an anti-depressant. But it’s so very hard. I can only keep myself busy so much. There’s all this lag time where my mind starts whirling and I get so upset again and again. Not to mention always seeing reminders of him. We had plans for our life together. I thought he was the one. He said he lied because he did not want to lose me. But he lost me anyway in the end. I’m not far away enough from it to see things clear yet. It’s only been a week. This is the longest we’ve ever gone without speaking to one another. It makes me question everything. Did he really love me? Why did he do this? Is there really any other way he could have contracted this illness? Etc etc etc. My heart hurts and I’m tired.
I consulted the iching many times about our relationship and finally asked today “Father God what is the best way that I need to handle this?”
I flipped the coins on my own and got hexagram 24.
‘Returning, creating success.
Going out, coming in, without haste.
A partner comes, not a mistake.
Turning around and returning on your path.
The seventh day comes, you return.
Harvest in having a direction to go.’
I guess this means returning to my path, returning to myself. It’s such drudgery to do this.
I wish it were more comforting than that.
Anyone else have thoughts on this? The pain is often unbearable.
I don't want ruin your holiday, but I just want point out to you, this thread is two and a half years old. Hopefully their spirit has been revived at least a few times since then.Hex 24 Unchanging - describes the Holidays.
Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
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+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
+1 (561) 459-4758 (US).