Is it a good idea to quit work? 46.6>18

[little venus]

Dear all,

I'm wondering if you could help me with a work related issue. To get to the point... a good while ago I got very ill. On some level... actually on conscious level... I had prayed for something dreadful to happen to me because I really needed some time and space to figure out what to do with my life (it's shocking to read what I just wrote, but yes, I did pray for it...). I was in a soul destroying job, with good pay and great benefits... lovely people on the team, nice office... and a feeling of a total heartbreak over wasting my life being there - every second of every day.

Two years into that job I got very, very ill and was put on a sick leave. After a year long investigation my name went on a waiting list for a major surgery. I felt exhausted all of the time, couldn't do much, even thinking was exhausting for me. All I was able for was feeling myself and making myself comfortable. I've done a lot of "figuring out" during that time, really used that time well. I gained clarity on who I was and what I wanted to do with my life. The happier I was, the better I felt physically... to the point I don't even need that surgery I've been on a waiting list for.

Over the last few months I've been working on turning my dreams into reality. I'm in the process of setting up a business. Things seem to be going well, but i'm only beginning so it's hard to say how things will progress. It's a very vulnerable time for me and my business.

I have been declared fit to go back to work now and have to decide by tomorrow whether to get back to work on Monday or quit. If I get back to work, my employer may refuse to give me permission to continue working on developing my business, but i won't know this unless I get back and apply for permission first. Thinking of going back there makes me feel weak, sad, shriveled, nauseated...

I just asked "What's likely to happen if I quit work tomorrow? Is it a good idea?" and I got 46.6>18. The reading seems to say that I will be fine, doesn't it? But more importantly... have any of you ever made a decision of this magnitude based on an I Ching reading?

Thank you for reading. I'd be very grateful for any words of wisdom that will help me make that final decision.

 

[Trojina]

I see 46.6 as encouragement to keep on going even when you can't see what's ahead. One pushes upwards in darkness, like a seedling underground.


So if the advice is to keep on going even though you can't see quite where you are going what would you then do ?

It's up to you how to apply that image....this answer is about growth and having faith in growth. For you does that mean going back to your old job or putting everything into your new business ?

If your job ruined your health then really I think no job is worth that. Thats not Yi advice it's just getting priorities right IMO. However if your boss allows you to continue your business maybe that's helpful ? getting your business off the ground whilst still getting a regular paycheck ?


....although what does doing what you want to do in life have to do with your boss's permission ?


But anyway looking at the language you use this sounds very like 46.6

Over the last few months I've been working on turning my dreams into reality. I'm in the process of setting up a business. Things seem to be going well, but i'm only beginning so it's hard to say how things will progress. It's a very vulnerable time for me and my business.

Just like a seedling is vulnerable under the earth...it just has to keep on pushing upwards so my feeling is your answer applies to this business...just keep going.

I have been declared fit to go back to work now and have to decide by tomorrow whether to get back to work on Monday or quit. If I get back to work, my employer may refuse to give me permission to continue working on developing my business, but i won't know this unless I get back and apply for permission first. Thinking of going back there makes me feel weak, sad, shriveled, nauseated...

Hmmm and there we have a weak sad shrivelled nauseated seedling without the sap or will to push anywhere.

My sense is the answer addresses your need for faith in your new venture. That doesn't mean I'm sure or right it's just my impression. But haven't you made good progress these last 2 years with your life ? You've grown haven't you. So you need faith now that you are still growing it's just gotten a little murky and uncertain and Yi's answer advises to push on through that IMO no need to fall back on nauseous worn out pathways when you are growing something new

You asked if we had asked Yi about matters of such magnitude....yes of course. I myself have asked questions like yours. But in the end you know the truth of your own feelings and at times like these I think we tend to find we either can or can't go on with a job so it's not all down to Yi. ETA and if we really fight repugnance for doing a job we hate we often find our bodies doing the talking and taking us out anyway.....so ?

 

[themis]

Hello,

Toss again this a.m. - I suggest. "La nuit porte conseil" you've slept over it and may gain more clarity. Do take into consideration that even if your plan re. development isn't immediately approved, it might be taken into serious consideration and partially or fully approved in say three months, six months, ...

Hex. 46 - Ascending

Line 6

Dim ascending
Harvesting, to tending towards not pausing belongs Trial.

Comments: Dim ascending located above.
Dissolving not affluence indeed.

Time to pause, perhaps. The fact that you've been given sufficient leeway to enable you present a business plan is positive, just wait for the right time, that's my opinion - you're the best judge.

 

[little venus]

Thank you both so much for taking the time to reply. I especially thank you for going beyond the interpretation of the readings and offering some personal wisdom.

@trojan I interpreted the reading exactly as you did - as an encouragement to keep growing my company. Every now and then I ask Yi about the business and I always, always get such positive, powerful, clear, readings. Recently when I felt stuck, I asked what's the next step I got hex.50 unchanging. I feel secure in the knowing that I'm creating something valuable.

If your job ruined your health then really I think no job is worth that. Thats not Yi advice it's just getting priorities right IMO. However if your boss allows you to continue your business maybe that's helpful ? getting your business off the ground whilst still getting a regular paycheck ?

....although what does doing what you want to do in life have to do with your boss's permission ?

This is exactly what I was thinking, having that regular paycheck would make me feel so much more secure. On the other hand, if I go back and they make things difficult for me (it's in my contract that I may not involve myself in any commercial activity outside of my employment unless I have a written permission)... if I end up getting up, every day, to go to a job that I can't bear and at the same time I have to give up working on my business... oh that feels so wrong and hopeless... my body just can't deal with this idea...

My sense is the answer addresses your need for faith in your new venture. That doesn't mean I'm sure or right it's just my impression. But haven't you made good progress these last 2 years with your life ? You've grown haven't you. So you need faith now that you are still growing it's just gotten a little murky and uncertain and Yi's answer advises to push on through that IMO no need to fall back on nauseous worn out pathways when you are growing something new

This feels so true and right. Your words brought tears to my eyes. Thank you so much.


@themis Great suggestion, thank you! Wouldn't have thought of that for fear of asking too much and ending up confusing myself.

I asked two questions this morning. First "i can't deal with this... it hurts either way... i'm so scared... please give me a clear answer on what to do with my job..." I got 41.3.5>9. Decrease combined with sincerity... success... Yes, I will have less for a while but I will be true to my heart, to myself.
The change to 9 feels very similar to me as the 18 I got yesterday. It's very personal stuff and has to do with sorting out certain views and attitudes i "inherited" from my ancestors... these readings make a lot of sense to me. I discovered this ancestral energy holding me back a few days before I got that reading and started working on sorting it all inside me.

The second question I asked was "if i'm indeed destined to create a beautiful, strong, successful business... how do i keep myself feeling safe (sane!) in the process of building it? I don't want to feel stressed. How do I keep myself focused and feeling safe?" and I got 62.1>55. The first changing line gives me a sense of great peace and clarity. If I quit my job in about an hour eek this is going to give me a sense of urgency, a sense of panic - "I have to make myself very successful, very quickly or my bills will go unpaid." The truth is though, I'm not ready to fly, I'm still figuring things out, I'm only a small bird. I know this and it feels good to me to see things this way. At the same time I already started making money... not much, but it should be enough to cover all the bills. Do I need more? No, I can wait for that.

Right... I so want to quit... my body wants me to quit... I'll give myself another hour or so to feel about it... Thank you both again for your presence and knowledge and your wisdom!

 

[Trojina]

You only have an hour so immediate quick impression is 41.3.5>9 is a very beautiful answer for giving something up isn't it. How literal is 41.3 here....one thing has to go, and 41.5 great benefit in reducing.

Of course its possible to see this as you may want to make a sacrifice in keeping your job ? I tend to see it more literally as leaving the job and doing steady paced work in your own business.

62.1 is a warning not to over reach yourself, not to try to do too much too quick, feeling rushed and panicky and attempting alot is really not a good idea here and I imagine you still have to consider your health.

I wonder is it possible to have a frank talk about the situation with your boss ? I mean does the decision have to be yes or no...couldn't you ask to talk about it and say you need a little more time ? Presumably not.


Hating the work you do can not be good on any level and it sounds like your heart very much wants to leave there. Well 41.3.5>9 is a good answer for leaving but I don't think this means you can go hell for leather in your business. Take it steady and do immediate acheivable things to progress. This is what both hex 9 and 62.1 speak of

You had 50 uc and 46.6 again I think referring to steady progress step by step, allowing things to cook (hex 50) no panic......definately no panic

 

[Trojina]

62.1 might just be a warning about over excitement stressing you out.....take it steady

 

[little venus]

Gosh, trojan you seem to be so beautifully tuned into my situation, so thanks a mill for taking your time to share your insights.

I called the HR manager but he was out of the office for a few hours, so waiting now for him to ring me back. Taking more time is not an option - it's either going back on Monday or leaving, I have this in writing. Before I made that call I decided to have an honest chat with him. Like a human being to a human being. The problem is, I tried this before, on many occasions but he just never connects with me on that level. He listens to what I say and then responds in a very formal, rigid way. I will have another attempt at an honest conversation but I don't have high hopes.

I'm going to tell him that I'd like to come back on a part time basis and continue to work on my business. So I want to go back on Monday, apply for permission to run the business and if I don't get it, I will leave soon after. If I do get it and the business takes off, I will also be leaving in the near future. I need him to know that me coming back to work is a temporary solution. I want to tell him all this when he calls. If he doesn't like what I say, I will resign. I don't know if this kind of transparency is a good idea but the thought of being completely honest calms me down so I have to go with it.

62.1 is a warning not to over reach yourself, not to try to do too much too quick, feeling rushed and panicky and attempting alot is really not a good idea here and I imagine you still have to consider your health.

Thank you for saying this. I realise that feeling rushed and panicky will do me no good. I keep forgetting that I need to consider my health, because I feel so well, but you are completely right. My friends keep reminding me of this as well.

As to the over excitement stressing me out - you are again spot on! I'll try to calm down Thank you!

(Oh, come on, ring already, I have stuff to do! )

 

[little venus]

All done. I was completely honest with him and for the first time ever he spoke to me like a lovely human being! I actually enjoyed talking to him He even said he understood how difficult all this was for me (and I think he meant it).

So, I'm going back on Monday and will be allowed to work part time for the first 6 weeks, after that we will review the situation. We agreed that I'm going to apply for permission to run a business straight away. If I don't get permission, I will resign and focus solely on the business.

Having this financial security feels good. The fact that I will only work part time makes it all ok. The sense of panic is gone.

Thank you so much for holding my hand through all this, I can't tell you how much this meant to me :bows:

 

[Trojina]

What a great outcome, sounds like the best of both worlds !

 

[little venus]

It is, isn't it? I was just reading what you wrote there:

41.5 great benefit in reducing

It's like Yi knew!

 

[themis]

Do take into consideration that on some continents, in some regions/countries, just as a dress code exists there's also a code of conduct - even if it's unofficial and subtle. Gllad things have worked out so favourably and so quickly.