letting go?

[hebe]

Hi, just a bit of fine-tuning going on here as I still suffer from cold feet at decisions and struggle with differentiating between genuine intuition and fear taking charge but not sure which is which. Does that make sense?

I am suffering huge cold feet at the prospect of a plan beginning very soon . I feel almost sick with dread as it has involved money and will also involve alot of time and energy so I asked for some insight into my path with this plan and got 3;3/5 and I also asked what would be the result of letting go of this plan completely and got 40:2,3 and 6.

This is not an easy plan to let go of as a) it involves money b) is a plan that is set into motion, but I've been to-ing and fro-ing about it for some time and only a few weeks ago found, yes, a better plan - which really got my juices going but thought i should still go ahead with this one as well. Now I I feel quite sick with the thought that it is all too much and I want to pull out. Both the 3 and the 40 answer my question quite directly - new beginnings and also liberation. Unfortunately I have got myself tied into knots with this and can't really see the wood from the trees in terms of what is best for me to do now (very 3;3) but i still don't really know what to do for the best. Karcher describes it very well when he says: you don't know what you are doing, you may lose your way even with this warning. if you go on (but does that mean with my plan or with my cold feet?) you will only see shame and confusion. Stop now. Listen to this advice.

I asked the second question because i really didnt know if it were referring to pulling out or just biting the bullet. There would be alot of shame and confusion in pulling out as I have got organised for it but I kept having nagging doubts about it inspite of an initial good reading a while ago about this plan. (for reference : 37;1,5,6). On the whole things are going well and paul is returning on monday, but this is such a hiccup and could be a typical pattern of behaviour, or could be real gut insight.

does anyone have any thoughts on this? this is such a confused question that I can understand if no one wants to reply to it, but maybe someone might see a way of looking at it that i can interpret some real meaning. Thanks Hebe

 

[diamanda]

Your readings sound to me to agree completely with your cold-feet intuition.

Insight about your current plan, 3:3,5 > 36
It's a trap, desist, you can't see clearly and don't realise the truth about it.
Small expression only, small things, not many 'juices' here, as you put it.
And leading to 36, hurt.

Letting go of this plan completely, 40:2,3,6 > 56
Well it sounds like there's a lot of dodgy people involved in this plan. And
they are not meaning well (and if you pretend you're "ok" while carrying a
burden, they'll rob you). So no need for shame and confusion, as you're
dealing with really iffy characters here. And not only iffy, but downright
vile, if we judge from 40 line 6... vultures. Which you need to hit, and
go away (56).

Your initial reading about this iffy project, 37:1,5,6 > 15
Does this plan involve family? If yes, it should have been fortunate. This
reading was pointing you to focus on family, and be modest, keep a low
profile with modest means. However it doesn't sound to me like it's a
modest family business. I wonder how you had phrased that initial question.

Anyway, these are just my thoughts on your readings, wishing you clarity
with it all.

 

[hebe]

thanks diamanda, its strange as it has such a good reputation, but my feelings this morning are so nervous, that I am going to see what I can do to change all this. The plan does involve family to an extent - as its a warm family group. I wonder if the Yi is addressing my own fears here - as I always seem to get cold feet when I begin something. Well, not always, no that's not strictly true. Thanks for your insight and I will see what I can do. Only a few weeks ago I thought I would just check in here with the forum and say how well I'm doing and that things are all falling into place. Well, I guess some of it still is, just this hiccup. I have been going through the threads as well and as you say, it doesn't look good. thanks for your insights and time, hebe