Life and Death question for me

[cutiecat]

Hey all! And thank you for reading this post. I also want to thank everyone who answered my posts before. What an amazing website! Here is my dillema, it's been there all my life since I was 16. I did not go to a med school when I wanted. I had no real support, moral or financial at the time. Instead I've choosen an easier path which led me nowhere. I've chosen it hoping I can make a quick buck, which I did, but then I started to hate my job and thinking about something more fulfillng. And I came back to my initial ideas of med school. The bottom line the question about preparing for a med school produced 42.1.3.5 to 52. It would be a really long road for anyone, especially for someone like myself starting the school not in her 20's. This is a very important question for me. 42 sounds very positive to me, but 52 is a stop? It scares the *** out of me. Time, money, amount of study, sleepless nights during residency, what am I thinking? And yet I can not get it out of my head. I think when I'm 60 I'll regret not doing it. I have no idea where the money will come from? Naively I think it will magically appear once I put myself on the road to med school.

Thanks a lot!

-CC

 

[arabella]

If this were my reading I would think back to the time when I first wanted to be a medical practitioner and what inspired that, because this is what appears in the first hexagram, the abilities and interests that pointed you in that direction. You have talent, poise, intelligence and, most importantly, you are a person who wants to do something for other people. Those attributes are still there with you, despite the viccisitudes of life that prevented you taking the dream path and becoming a doctor.

The Yi has acknowledged all those strengths and feelings that created this dream way back when; and has also acknowledged those background questions you have now about taking up that dream again and making it a reality (ie) -- Am I too old? Is it too difficult? and "Is the road too long to actually get there?" These are the things that have prevented you, really, and will continue to stand in the way now -- if you have doubts.

So up comes Hexagram 52, advising you to get calm, serious, still, meditative, prayerful, whatever works best for you. Consider if this is the road for you, can you overcome your fears -- or not. Consider also if this is the only satisfying route or, knowing lots more than you did at sixteen, do you see other possibilities for a fulfilling career or calling that you can more readily aspire to? If you are sure and medicine is the one, then go for it. If you aren't completely sure and there are other options, there may be a more accessible choice that will make you equally happy.

 

[cutiecat]

I do not know how you do it guys, but Arabella you are just dead on. I'm contemplating other choices, less time consuming for me, like studing Chinese medicine instead. But the more I think about it, the more I realize that mainstream medicine is something I need to study first. Though the enormity of the task frightened me when I was 16 and even more so now. I just think that it would not be nursing or any other modality of the sort, like physiotherapy or something, if I go this route it's only for MD title. In many ways i think it has to do with me not wanting to be a businesswoman more than a doctor ( and with TCM it's more of a business than anything else). I do not want to spend my energy to attract the clients, or keep them as a serious doctor has no time for that. Plus I do not know chinese to go and study in China as I really do not trust Chinese schools in my area. I need to be a mainstream doc who may be later on will incorporate alternative modalities in her work. I'm not sure I'm dying to help people, I just think I'll be a good doctor, as I'm attentive, have a good intuition in general, and well.....not too dumb. But it seems like an Everest for me and I'm not sure that all my efforts will be worth it. God how can I decide once and for all - yes or no? Flip the coin? And more importantly who will sponsor me doing it?

 

[arabella]

It would be interesting to know what you decide to pursue. In any case: Good Luck!

 

[willowfox]

The bottom line the question about preparing for a med school produced 42.1.3.5 to 52.

Now line 42.1 says that you still have it in you to make significant achievements before you die.

Line 42.3 suggests through some "unfortunate" happening, you could get the opportunity to do something else.

Line 42.5 suggests you are a born nurse if you only let it come out.

Hex 52 suggests that you think about this carefully, as your age probably disqualifies you from many med. opportunities and from med. school as your qualifications are probably lacking. But as you know their are still other opportunities in the med. related world, like "alternative" med. and all that it entails. Of course the next problem will be a financial one.

 

[cutiecat]

WF thanks a lot! Nurse? I'm not really interested in that, never was. Only MD. Yep not every school will take me, but I presume somewhere in the Caribbean they will. May be in the US too. But this is so big, I can't imagine how I can accomplish that.

 

[gato]

the thousand mile journey begins with a step , but line 3 suggest that you need a strong feet.

 

[willowfox]

the thousand mile journey begins with a step , but line 3 suggest that you need a strong feet.

Or big feet.

 

[willowfox]

WF thanks a lot! Nurse? I'm not really interested in that, never was. Only MD.

With age comes the need to compromise.

 

[cutiecat]

I do not see any need to compromise. My friend husband entered med school when he was 37. Not a biggie, in fact quite doable. Money is more of an issue for me. Being a nurse is not a compromise, just a different work, which also requires 4 year degree. If I'm going back to school - it would be for an MD only.

 

[willowfox]

I do not see any need to compromise. My friend husband entered med school when he was 37. Not a biggie, in fact quite doable. Money is more of an issue for me. Being a nurse is not a compromise, just a different work, which also requires 4 year degree. If I'm going back to school - it would be for an MD only.

I think I mentioned already the financial side will be a problem and that's why I said that you will need to compromise as when you get older the state will not finance you.

 

[cutiecat]

May be I'll win the lottery I have this deep belief that if I'm meant to get an MD the Universe will find the way to help me once I start with it. Do not you think so? Money, rich boyfriend, angel investor, whatever. I believe the help will appear, If not, well that means I'm not meant to be a doctor, and then I'll pursue my business ideas. At least this will generate money, hopefully, as opposed to get indebted while in med school.
Also apart from the financial aspect, there is heavy study involved even for an exam - physics, chemistry yand biology - subjects I did not spend much time on back in high school, so lots of learning for me even just for an exam. It's a very expensive dream I tell you. Is there a way to encourage the Universe to help out an inspiring doctor?
-CC

 

[heylise]

Hex.52 has a lot to do with individuality. It just means that it is not for humanity or society, but for you personally. This is your personal dream, your own road. And YOU will have to do it, all power to achieve comes from your own heart.

 

[gato]

May be I'll win the lottery I have this deep belief

i think everyone of us have this deep belief. but the real lottery in life is 99% transpiration 1% inspiration and 50% Yi

 

[cutiecat]

Ah I did not know that about 52. Thanks a lot! It's interesting that WF pointed out that I'm a born nurse, it's true. I once had an involuntary kinda nursing experience in my life when I was 12 or so and yes I did really well. I was also proud of my behavior in this situation. In fact, it was a doctor who made me a nurse essentially for another patient, and surprisingly for a 12 tear old I did really well

Thank you guys for all your support and emcourangement, it means the world to me.

-CC

 

[arabella]

I think the probable equation is 20% inspiration and 80% perspiration -- at least that's my own experience!

 

[emiliana2010]

Hi cutiecat,
I have learned that the Yi answers to the question we ask; it's very specific. The wording of your question is not clear to me so it's difficult to receive the answer. I imagine your question was something like: "What would be timely, appropriate and beneficial regarding my desire to attend med school?"
To me the answer seems to say that although your intention is sincere, give it some more time. New events in your life will very likely change your orientation. Sometimes we have to act, some other time we have to wait. This is your time to wait.

All the best – Emiliana

 

[Liselle]

Could hex 52 in the relating position be affirming your preference for a mainstream MD degree? If any hexagram says "traditional" wouldn't it be hex 52? Could hex 52 also be a reference to a mature individual, which you are, in relation to the typical medical student?

I'm unsure what the reading's actual advice is, although it does seem a favorable reading. Along with emiliana2010 I'm wondering what your exact question was.

Hex 52 could also simply be echoing the "Mount Everest" nature of this endeavor. "Great Increase" through climbing this mountain?

42.3 ("One is enriched through unfortunate events, No blame if you are sincere, And walk in the middle, and report with a seal to the prince" [size=-1](Wilhelm-Baynes)[/size]) could be indicating that you will benefit from someone else's misfortune, and in this case that's okay.

The "seal" referred to in 42.3 could mean (though I don't know this for sure) an assignment, a mandate, something that is yours to do. LiSe explains this in her page on hex 57, here. (Different hexagram, same "seal?")

This meaning of "seal" became clear to me in reference to an outside cat I was to catch: doing so was my duty to him. However, that was a much smaller undertaking that took hours, not years...

 

[themis]

'When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it'
Excerpt: The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

 

[cutiecat]

Thanks a lot guys for posting your thoughts! The question I asked was very simple - what do you think about me starting to prepare for a med school.

 

[pocossin]

I believe the help will appear. . .

http://www.usnews.com/education/pay.../02/how-to-go-to-medical-school-for-free.html

 

[cutiecat]

Here we go! It is a matter of belief! Thank you for remembering about me Pocossin and sharing this article with me. unfortunately I will never be a surgeon...makes you think, doesn't it