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I've always had problems from a very young age with self worth, feeling inadequate, fears, social anxiety and self consciousnesses, some confident people intimidate me. I also have a very bad memory, go through periods of being able to cope, to crashing in hopelessness and becoming quite paranoid and depressed. I've tried getting help but so far has been unsuccessful and for the past few days I've hid alone in my room, not wanting any form of contact with friends or family. Feel like I'm cracking up with all these negative thought about self. I'm failing my career, today I text my clients saying I was sick - what a let down and I'm angry at myself for being this way but I don't want them to see me when I'm a downer and anxious. Life confuses me, being single sucks but I can't seem to keep a relationship, men always end up ignoring me and I know it's probably because they can see right through to my insecurity - it makes me feel like an empty person who isn't at all interesting :-/ sometimes my mind goes blank and I can't think of anything to say.. Maybe this is anxiety related. I don't know what the answer is anymore, feeling stuck in a limited life. There is so much I want to do in life, I'm very ambitious and mean well to others, but feel I will always be stuck in this horrible mind frame and this will always be how i relate to the world and people :-S. Have taken quite a lot of drugs and alcohol over the years since i was 13 till now but now only on weekends - this is my way of getting a small time of relief from my unhelpful thoughts. I push my few friends away because I feel uncomfortable around them. I've tried therapy and hasn't helped so far. I was abused when very young father an alcoholic mother has been through her fair share of psychopath boyfriends who I grew up around after she left my dad. I'm 22 now. (I understand that being a Gemini ruled by mercury is all about communication and those born under mercury aren't always necessarily great communicators, but instead may have challenges to overcome in relation to communication. This isn't backed up with great evidence but I find it quite interesting.) Any way, can anyone help me interpret this answer based on my description? Thank you x
 
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Apech7

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Hello

It's very difficult if not impossible to give proper advice over the internet so I would encourage you to keep on with therapy and avoid drugs and alcohol as much as possible. The I Ching is suggesting that you are suffering from a very restricted mental state and persisting in it is a problem. You yourself are sincere and you need to find a way to discover your inner worth. This is not something you have to create ... it is already there it's just that experience has convinced you otherwise. I feel you should try to open up your life a little ... do different things and give yourself little rewards, something you enjoy. Don't push too hard as that will put too much energy in the restricted state ... or reinforce your habitual thoughts if you like.

best wishes to you.
 

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This is not related to I Ching but have you ever heard of Aura Soma Equilibrium bottles? That's what helps me. http://www.aura-soma-world.com/shop/contents/en-us/d1_aura-soma-equilibrium-oils-display-view.html (This site has a full description to each bottle when you click on 'more details'.)
You look through all 112 bottles and select in order 4 bottles that are most attractive to you. A professional helps you with your reading and chooses one bottle that you start with. Usually it's the second bottle, also called The Challenge bottle (I myself have been using a bottle that's very cleansing in nature so I couldn't agree more with that name). You can google for more information if interested.
 

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We still don't know if you asked for direction or potential outcome or clarity about the problem??? Did you have a particular question in mind when you consulted Yi?
 
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We still don't know if you asked for direction or potential outcome or clarity about the problem??? Did you have a particular question in mind when you consulted Yi?

Hi i asked what is wrong with me mentally?;

i also asked why do i get social anxiety? And got 27.3 > 22.

i seem to have a brain block when it comes to finding words to say i feel like i need to be brainwashed because everything is so sluggish seriously makes me hate myself because i cant function or act normal or be relaxed around anyone other than my mum. I just want my brain to think and come up with words but it just gets worse aaahh... feel like im going crazy. Have always been this way, amphetamines helped but the anxiety was terrible, i stopped those years back now. Doctors have been useless...
 

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60.6 changing to 61 suggests you put limits on yourself or try to conform to limits that do not suit you but that eventually your own inner truth will be able to come out. So it reads to me like you are overly conscious of what you think you ought to be doing rather than being able to just follow your own inner feeling.

I suggest you spend some time with your Mom whom you say you do feel comfortable around and really notice how you are when you're feeling good, relaxed, with her and maybe try doing some things together, go out for a meal, shop, visit with her friends, so that your body gets comfortable with feeling comfortable. As you are more conscious of this state you can then more easily maintain it.

Another way of building yourself confidence is to find something you enjoy doing and do it. I really enjoy walking. Other people comment from time to time that I walk too much, that I should get a car, that I should call them and ask for a ride etc. My lack of interest in burning gas and oil really disturbs them! I like walking though, so their concern doesn't bother me. When you are having a good time you will be less anxious to conform.

Also if there is something you can contribute to the group this can help you feel more at ease, like you belong. So carry a pack of gum to share or learn a new joke so you can have something interesting to say.

And of course try to look good. My Mom used to say, "Let your clothes do the heavy lifting."

Are you a member of a gym? Feeling good about your body and feeling strong make a big difference. Also if you join an exercise class you get the sense of group belonging without having to meet anyone else's standards.

Finally the best, fastest way forward is to find someone else you can help. I really thrived during the time I was a volunteer aide in a second grade classroom. I just listened to kids read for an hour in the mornings. They made great progress, I felt appreciated and of course it was cool to be able to say "tutoring disadvantaged children" was my thing when some polished collage graduate asked me what I did for a living.

Best wishes,
Rosada
 

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I can relate to your post as I have suffered from many of the same problems you spoke of. Have you ever looked into Asperger's Syndrome? I had heard of Aspergers, but had not known the specific traits until I saw the movie Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close (a wonderful movie) which has a boy that has Asperger's. I realized that he behaved just like my supervisor and I began to read about Asperger's. I didn't think I had it because I didn't exhibit all of the traits, but I knew I that I was different from "normal" people. Then I found this site http://www.aspiestrategy.com/2012/05/hidden-autistics-aspergers-in-adults.html and I had a Eureka moment. That was me! I can hide my social anxiety, and I have learned to watch and copy behaviors well enough that co-workers wouldn't believe that I am stressed and anxious every moment. I can only somewhat relax when I am alone. My mind is constantly going over what I have done wrong, or what is wrong with me, or what people are thinking about me.

Your social anxiety, difficulty in communicating, being confused by people, all sound like it could be Asperger's Syndrome. This could relate to the 60.6 to 61. People with Asperger's don't conform to what is considered "normal" social behavior. It isn't a mental illness, just different wiring of the brain. So maybe 61 is about accepting that difference as just who you are.

I don't know if this helps, or even applies to you. I just wanted to offer this as a possible answer to look into.

Peace,
Missann
 

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60 line 6, you are feeling constricted by narrow minded view of things, changing to inner sincerity(self esteem), 61

By the way, you don't have mental problems, a lot of people feel the way you feel right now at one time or another, we just hide it ;)

line 6 talks about restraining the spirit as little as possible.

"Allotted size, space or time are not really important, but light and dark should be without limits."
I think this means you need to take time to yourself to work on your self, specifically self worth, balancing this with the effort you put into others.

I had a girlfriend once who had a similar upbringing, similar issues and in the end things didn't work out because she literally never could believe that I loved her and that I could be trusted. I may be a lot of things and have my own weaknesses, but I'm a man of my word. She moved on to people who "fit" her self image and calls me once in a while bc at the end of the day I treated her good. But I eventually started ignoring her bc it was pointless, I cannot fix her self worth. I mention this because it may or may not have to do with what you said about men eventually ignoring you.

Do this: every day, look into the mirror and look into your own eyes and say aloud, "I love you. I really love you." do this for a month and I guarantee that your view of yourself will change, and it's easy.

also, a few minutes of meditation every day. I recommend taoist meditation, anything involving microcosmic orbit or visualizing energy circulation.
 

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it makes me feel like an empty person who isn't at all interesting :-/

And, by the way, you are very interesting. When I hear from people who appear happy all the time, I wonder what the eff is wrong with them and I wanna vomit. And all the best stories and music and poetries are written by people who feel things very deeply...
 

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