Ok, what the HECK?!?

[kdedeaux4]

Okay, at the risk of appearing an absolute lunatic, I am compelled to post this for insight!!

I had a very vivid dream last night that D (my not-so-ex-"ex") and I were in travelling in a car - everything very average and normal as when any two people are riding in a car - talking, laughing, etc... When sometime in the dream, I realize there is an infant in the back seat!!!!!!!! In my dream, this wasn't unexpected or surprising. The tiny baby was our child and everything was "normal", if that makes any sense...
In some way, this seems typical because throughout our relationship, having a child together was always the mutual choice we had agreed upon. That was long ago though, before a great many unfortunate changes occurred and given the situation and circumstances, I'm wondering how in the heck did THAT dream come about
Consulting the IC for insight, I received Hex 37 unchanging.

I say to the IC, Okay IC, I am absolutely perplexed. What is the next step in my relationship with D? IC responds with Hexagram 31, lines 4 and 6, changing to 53. Okay, what the heck is THAT?
I am perpetually torn between feeling compelled (literally) that this relationship in itself is a beautifully painful and necessary progression toward each of us eventually (heaven knows when though!!) overcoming all of the muck and mire that is us (now) and others and everything in between leading us back to the place of harmony and joy from which we started, only stronger because we have grown and learned so much together and separately through this experience. My other feeling at times is that this is just bad karma with no one really at fault, intended to teach us a painful, but necessary lesson: Go through it, suffer as necessary, learn grow, and move on...peacefully apart...perhaps like everlasting soul-twins, always united on some level through our love and friendship. Cheesy cliche, yes, but oftentimes nothing else makes sense to me for the confounding endurance of this connection we both have.
What the heck is this blasted relationship about anyway???? What is the IC telling me? Please offer some insights, thoughts, and wisdom here?

Thank you all for your patience with me through this:bows:

 

[bamboo]

Hi K,
Your post seems to imply that the relationship is really kaput on the material level, and since I dont know the circumstances of your untogetherness, I can't comment about that........

but the dream by itself is, imo, clearly showing that you two have created something
beautiful together. The baby being in the back seat is significant no doubt....maybe the beauty you have created is not apparent to you both right away, but you only need to turn around, perhaps turn back, to see this. It isnt unexpected...it is something you know on a certain level.

Is it a possibility that you two will reconcile? YOur readings seem to indicate that as well...........BUt if it seems completely unlikely that a reconciliation is possible, then I have two thoughts:

Call your ex and express your love. you may have nothing to lose and everything to gain.
OR
the dream is an expression of what you know you have created on a level other than the physical, and it is something that has a life of its own, is new and fresh and the right culmination of what youtwo had together. I dont know whythe readings would seem so positive for couplehood in that sense, but I guess you will have to decipher that...if reconciliation is not something you can conceive of happening...HEY, I just made a pun! Can you CONCEIVE of it happening?

 

[kdedeaux4]

Bamboo

I think you have touched on something here! Yes, the baby makes sense literally in a "past" thinking way, but also figuratively as you describe, more of a symbol for what we created together, which in itself is something fresh and beautifully innocent. This creation could possibly be made stronger by the trials we have been through, but after this long with the enduring damage, it seems unlikely. Although yes, I can conceive rofl of that, as in it could in all reason be reconciled, as anything has the potential/possbility to overcome and flourish if given the care and attention it requires, but at the very same time it often seems inconceivable as well. The outside influences are just too strong and have added such a huge degree of mistrust and damage that it seems nothing could be strong enough to grow while in that dark environment, but instead die a million deaths in our inability to fully let go of the possibility...each death slowly tearing at the overall possibilty, until it has become basically very unlikely... I do not know or understand this kind of situation, which is what brought me to the IC for help in understanding in the first place. I think we both have to somehow release it long enough to allow it to die or to allow it the space and peace to flourish at a later time, whatever is intended. I'm learning that that in itself might be the biggest challenge and lesson for us both in this! And the only one we have refused to embrace... Ahhh, if only one could know these things for certain and somehow understand what we do not understand!!
Thank you so much for your perspective on this! It helps very much to think of it like that and makes more sense of why I would have that dream from either perspective you've offered. Actually, they both make perfect sense! Thank you so much for your patience and compassion in responding:bows: