Repeating History 43.6 > 1

[libralee]

Hello peepz!

I hope somebody can help me with this "problem". As of right now, my life has completely turned upside down (lowest point ever in my life). And it's only recently that I am slowing getting better. To paint a picture of what has been going on, I have an incredible strong impression (since mid December) that I am repeating a 1 on 1 experience that I had before 5 years ago. Dumped by a "perfect" girlfriend where there was no reason to, work for no reason turned into turmoil, and made a drastic relocation (+ many other intricate experiences). Now, since the end of September 2012 (30th -heh, my bday -and Saturns Return). Absolutely everything has gone back to repeat (even on certain specific life changing dates from 5 years ago). And now, in such a way those experiences, coincidences, signs/omens, and events just arrive infront of my feet and I am forced to deal with it. And no matter how hard I try to change it, or avoid a repeating history, destiny forces me to stick with it. And I am humbly aware of what life lesson this represents.

A certain family member who was a huge influence (even while hiding in the background) during my personal events of 5 years ago , was somebody I was extremely angry with after realizing what I had broken and lost at that time 5 years ago after my drastic relocation (not implying the fam-member being the main source of problem, although close to 90% + 10% being my own responsibility for my actions). For many years, this member was a bad influence on me emotionally and psychologically (without realizing it!), but due to the term of events after things had relatively settled down, I felt at that time that this person was a responsibility for me to stay with.

Now, that everything has (or still is) going on "history repeat mode". And received my confirmations from these current events/coincidences/signs etc.; since mid December.
I now finally realize as to what extent of damage and influence this person had on me. And for that, I have finally cut off my relationship with this family member (also by planning another big relocation -but this time, without this fam-member). And now I hope, that this is one of the many problems that I feel free to change from the shackles of my own destiny.

Now the only problem is. Now that I have managed to change this problem with my family member. And planning to relocate (because there is absolutely no work here -physically, and my current projects have become an utter mess due to unforeseen third party interferences --which are unfortunately beyond my control, like 5 years ago). I am scared, that I am still in this "history repeat mode". I haven't relocated just yet, still have certain other unfinished personal projects that still need my attention which I feel is part of this "history repeat mode". Which also "coincidentally" matches certain specific life changing dates under the same theme from 5 years ago with perfect synchronicity -- f*n scary! Like I said, no matter how hard I try, to fight it, change it or avoid it. I am stuck with it whether I like it or not! But if I wanted to COMPLETELY change everything and break free from this "history repeat mode". The only sole option that I have, is literately living on the streets (while living in the middle of nowhere), in the freezing cold, with no money, with a horrible health condition. (with everything that has happened, I honestly have the impression that somebody is playing a game with me )

So as a IC question, I asked this:

"Am I repeating the same history"
43.6 > 1

"Am I unconsciously repeating the same history"
57.2.3 > 20

"Am I forced to repeat the same history"
3.2 > 60

"with the current choices I have made, am I breaking out of my "history repeat mode"?"
47.1 > 58

What the hell does this mean????

If you have any questions about this concised version of the whole story, please, feel free to ask!

Thank you...

 

[goddessliss]

Hey Libralee, Saturn returns every 28-30 years and you are asking yes/no questions, these are a bit difficult to interpret. Possibly could ask 'Show me a picture of me repeating the same scenarios I've made in the past'- Liss

 

[yxeli]

Hey dude, man, **** story. but pisces has been in mercury retrograde ( afaik) for the last while, apparently the last 40 days has brought up alot of our mistakes and trying to work out of any really deep emotional **** we need to expunge, so yeahh. I hears ya.

first of all, youve asked several very similar questions here.

I CHING NO-NO!

( but i do it all the time, so not lecturing ya, jut got to keep to the script here (4)

So imma just going to give you my idea of what 43.6>1 might mean.

Are you not telling people how you really feel?

I think this readings really interesting actualy, cos the fan yao 1.6 is when the very basic yin/yang energies come into conflict. Seems to be that you might be letting your ego control your ability to express yourself clearly.(43.6)

To answer your q, I'd say that yes, history does repeat itself ( and our behaviours) until we get the message. Theres some part of you thats quelling a whole other part of you here, i think. And its to do with how your communicating with those close to you. Try to give all sides of your inner debate an equal hearing.

Bests,

Yx

edit: Thought this from Anthony might help here too :

''Anthony: We need not harbor anger or hold onto bad memories to remind ourself that the situation is unresolved… We must leave correction or punishment of the evil inferiors to the Sage as this is not our
province of action… ''

 

[libralee]

Hey dude, man, **** story. but pisces has been in mercury retrograde ( afaik) for the last while, apparently the last 40 days has brought up alot of our mistakes and trying to work out of any really deep emotional **** we need to expunge, so yeahh. I hears ya.

Yep, very much aware of mercury retrograding. Criss cross communication, misunderstandings, not just with me, but also for other people!

first of all, youve asked several very similar questions here.

I CHING NO-NO!

I suppose if I understood this correct (while mercury is retrograding) that this implies for all 4 IC questions?

So imma just going to give you my idea of what 43.6>1 might mean.
Are you not telling people how you really feel?

Yep, even been talking to a psychologist (since the beginning of this year), but nobody seems to understand what I am going through. Neither having the chance to talk to anybody because they are all away for the winter. Since December I have only had 1 person who actually understood what I was going through and helped me. (even before mercury retro)

I think this readings really interesting actualy, cos the fan yao 1.6 is when the very basic yin/yang energies come into conflict. Seems to be that you might be letting your ego control your ability to express yourself clearly.(43.6)

I think I could concur to this to a certain degree, but if I would explain the whole situation in accurate detail, I would be writing a book.

To answer your q, I'd say that yes, history does repeat itself ( and our behaviours) until we get the message. Theres some part of you thats quelling a whole other part of you here, i think. And its to do with how your communicating with those close to you. Try to give all sides of your inner debate an equal hearing.

I understand what you mean, and I also concur to what you are explaining to me. But for me, the 'history repeat mode' is more intricate that what I have explained before. To give you an example. I will tell you a small part of the grand story.

Hey Libralee, Saturn returns every 28-30 years and you are asking yes/no questions, these are a bit difficult to interpret. Possibly could ask 'Show me a picture of me repeating the same scenarios I've made in the past'- Liss

Late April 2008.
I leave Holland to goto Paris for the holiday to clear my mind after the disappointing breakup with my ex (called Merel = Blackbird in dutch). I leave the trainstation in Paris no more than 10 min, and as a physical coincidence (of the many weird coincidences), I bump into a huge travel bus (from holland) with her name in giant letters with a logo/picture of a black bird across the whole bus. As you can imagine, I was --what are the chances to ever see a thing like that.

Late December 2012.
I leave from a town called Rennes (where I stayed with my last ex called Cécile). And I goto Paris again to see friends for New Years Eve. I leave the train station. No more than 10 min in Paris, I turn a corner. What do I see? I shop with huge letter across the shop window with the name Cécile, with a logo/picture of a bird.

Both of these ex's, while being with them were the only most inspirational 'perfect' women in my life. Close to the expression of 'soul mates'. Honestly, I have had other ex's before, but never like this with these 2. It's only these 2 that strange things happen after breakup, and these were the only 2 women in my life that I loved the most.

And this little example, is just many many many many many physical, weird, coincidences that arrive infront of my feet. Even for in the theme of work, my finances, health and social life. Like I said, everything is on repeat.

Plus, complimentary to this. (As an example for the dates)
I met Merel on the 16th of December 2007
I left Cécile on the 16th of December 2012

Again, one of many date coincidences. And trust me, I don't go looking for these coincidences, they arrive and make me go

Yeah, even I wonder if I am over analyzing the whole situation. But honestly, I don't go looking for these things, they just arrive. And trust me, I even have a witness (my brother) who is just as shocked and amazed as I am that I am going through this weird physical repeat because he was 100% aware of what happened in 2008 and now. So as you can imagine, I am trying to break free from this "repeat". 1 one the things that I have successfully broken ( i hope ), is that negative relationship I had with that specific family member.

 

[yxeli]

first of all, youve asked several very similar questions here.

I CHING NO-NO!

( but i do it all the time, so not lecturing ya, jut got to keep to the script here (4)

I suppose if I understood this correct (while mercury is retrograding) that this implies for all 4 IC questions?

nah it has nothing to do with astrology. Take a look again at the commentary of hexagram 4 and you'll get the gist.

hm.

I'm not sure what else to tell you as far as your reading goes, only, i experience synchronicity quite a bit, as im sure most people do. I wouldn't say that its particularly special, just that your awake to them. I personally believe every moment can have a synchronistic tendency to it, just depends how open you are to it.

this is all i can think of, maybe your not telling either your therapist or your family member your real issues here, as a rsult your feeling left out and lonely, possibly repeating a fundamental error in how your explaining yourself to your therapist/other, and so it cant be resolved. this reading feels stifling to a certain degree, it feels like 'somethings really go to give'.

What is it that your not sharing?

sorry i dont have more, but this site might help

http://www.jamesdekorne.com/GBCh/hex43.htm

Yx

 

[libralee]

nah it has nothing to do with astrology. Take a look again at the commentary of hexagram 4 and you'll get the gist.

Yeah, it's loud and clear, just contemplating as to what it could relate to more deeply.

I'm not sure what else to tell you as far as your reading goes, only, i experience synchronicity quite a bit, as im sure most people do. I wouldn't say that its particularly special, just that your awake to them. I personally believe every moment can have a synchronistic tendency to it, just depends how open you are to it.

I agree, and am aware that everybody goes through the same thing. But second time experiencing the same theme like 5 years ago. And particularly when I want to move on with my life but the past haunts me with synchronicity... it makes it hard and hurtful when deep down I have the answers, but unfortunately not the tools or the opportunity to fix it. Except time

this is all i can think of, maybe your not telling either your therapist or your family member your real issues here, as a rsult your feeling left out and lonely, possibly repeating a fundamental error in how your explaining yourself to your therapist/other, and so it cant be resolved. this reading feels stifling to a certain degree, it feels like 'somethings really go to give'.

From the hours of conversations with my therapist, deep meditation, introspection. And viewing all the problems like a spiders-web, it all pointed towards that specific family member. I just wish the synchronicity would stop.

What is it that your not sharing?

If there was anything else, I would express it, or dig deeper in the subconscious

sorry i dont have more, but this site might help

Thnx Yx, you have already been of great help :bows:

 

[bradford]

What the hell does this mean????

Thank you...

It means you should have asked only one question