Staying true to self

[kdedeaux4]

Asked IC....what is my best response to X?
IC responded with 4.3 to 18......
hex 4 could be a reminder of staying young, not asking too often, maybe embracing the playful side of things and not taking anything too seriously...?
Line 3 seems to be saying stay true to myself.....GOSH....that is precisely my struggle/concern with this situation...
After 4 crazy and stressful years of being used and abused in every sense of the term by a man who "loved" me.....I'm really trying to learn to go with the flow, keep things fun, not take anything too seriously (*not* my typical response to intimate relationships), but my incessant concern is that this type of casual-ness goes against my nature, perhaps even my morals..although I do believe I'm long overdue to re-define those and clarify my moral stance better to myself in the current picture... that's sure a tough and slow process
So, this almost seems to be telling me to do what I'm (trying) doing, but definitely still worry about the very thing I'm worrying is the reason I might should not be doing this very thing in this very manner....GOSH....confusing..a little disheartening too, as I just can't seem to get any answers, direction, or positive hope, just more validation of my concerns and struggles, practically spelled out in my very own thoughts even...

What the heck??!?!! WOW....sure seems I just can't "catch a break" at all with any of this....
So frustrating

 

[my_key]

Asked IC....what is my best response to X?
IC responded with 4.3 to 18......

Hi there
It does sound as though the last 4 years has been a crazy time for you. You certainly seem to be trying to address things in you life which have haunting you. Changing things that are against you nature sure is a tough process and can seem very slow and frustrating.
This reading is for me saying that with respect to X you are in a situation where you have to work on things in your character that are not quite how they should be (Hex18). It's perhaps seeing the frustrations of everything that you are working rather than trying to see the plus side. You have made good progress and there is more good that can come out of your fresh approach. Treat everything with innocence, likeit's the first time you have had that thought, like it's just jumped out and surprised you but don't go down the oul routes that you used to travel. Be your own person, do not seek the admiration of others. All that you need,and the best way to respond to things is already within you. Realise that and your frustrations and worries will melt away.

Be Well

Mike

 

[kdedeaux4]

Wow!!

Mike,

Wow!! You actually seemed to understand my confusing post/situation..and you really put it in a far more positive perspective than I was able to see on my own..at all... THANK YOU sooo very, very much

"Treat everything with innocence, likeit's the first time you have had that thought, like it's just jumped out and surprised you but don't go down the oul routes that you used to travel. Be your own person, do not seek the admiration of others. All that you need,and the best way to respond to things is already within you. Realise that and your frustrations and worries will melt away."/HTML]

What fantastic advice!!  I really appreciate this!!!:hug:  I'm going to copy this out and look at it regularly as a reminder:):):)
Namaste
~kd

 

[my_key]

You are welcome
:bows: