The voice of my grandmother

[wandering]

This thread is in connection to the thread, What does Jackie's parents need from me, if anything?

In that thread, trojan asked several hard questions. I dismissed them and went about my day, coming back to the responses to periodically review. I don't know trojan, and he asked the questions he did for a reason, and I have to suspect he means well otherwise why respond to all these questions at all? For him he needed answers to something i couldn't give or i thought i had answers to. Sleeping on the whole thing, and feeling remorse over being blocked, i slept hard with ghostly dreams about being close to people and being shoved away, about being a detective trying to find out why, and my grandmother on her deathbed looking all silvery colored and whispering from the darkness of her mouth. It reminded me of the black hole in the middle of the galaxy, sucking in all light and spewing back intense truth. She ask me, What good sense is there in following Jackie?

Yi offered me Hexagram 53.1.5.6>36

Line one says that I am not ready, but others are talking about us/me. Line 5 looks very promising. Also, line six looks like it can be "love until death do us part?"

 

[Trojina]

I, Trojan, am a Lady. I wish to change my name to Trojina at some point.

You say your deceased grandmother asked you

She ask me, What good sense is there in following Jackie?

Listen to your grandmother. If you want to find a real connection then only connecting to someone on Twitter, in a land you will never visit, whose email you don't even have, is a harsh empty substitute for the love that you need isn't it.

Perhaps to help you find the love you need you can listen to her voice more closely when it comes as I believe she is still with you and does talk to you.

In regard to your answers in the last thread (linked below) there whilst it seemed to encourage reaching out, they had in fact blocked you and we cannot dismiss wholly reality from the equation in interpretation. However you are reaching out here and you also reached out to your grandmother who spoke to you in sleep.



This is the previous thread for reference http://www.onlineclarity.co.uk/frie...oes-Jackie-s-parents-need-from-me-if-anything where I tried to get the facts of the situation



and this is the thread before that that led me to suspect there was no solid actual relationship there http://www.onlineclarity.co.uk/friends/showthread.php?18359-Hexagram-13-Relationship

Having said that if you feel you want to pursue Jackie then you must reach out....but how one reaches out when blocked on Twitter with no email address in another continent is beyond me.

Besides you said Jackie doesn't even like you flirting with her. You need someone to talk to and eat with and touch, who is really there. Your grandmother knows that so maybe she would like you to find a woman much nearer to home ?

and my grandmother on her deathbed looking all silvery colored and whispering from the darkness of her mouth. It reminded me of the black hole in the middle of the galaxy, sucking in all light and spewing back intense truth. She ask me, What good sense is there in following Jackie?

there is comfort in knowing she accompanies you in this and you are not alone isn't there ?

 

[wandering]

I loved my grandmother, and she was family all the way. She wouldn't suggest abandonment or leaving. I see what your thinking--I think. Jackie doesn't like flirting because it turns her on. She told me to not play like this because she want's me, and it makes her cry to want me, that I am teasing her by flirting. She already suffers from wanting me, she doesn't need me to enhance it. I do tease still, but mildly.

I don't see my grandmother asking the question in a negative way-what good it this? I see her asking what good can you find in this, look for that, that's where the the truth lies. Find the good sense not the bad, not the negative. Look at her parents blocking you as protecting her, nothing against you. Look at it as a way of them saying not now. Look at it as a way of them saying come here, and be in our group. The black hole represents infinite possibilities. Blacks holes are known to lead to another world, it may be scary to inter one, but on the other side is a whole new world. Going to Indian would be like entering a black hold and emerging on the other side, in a different world, maybe one more beautiful world.

That's my take, I am sorry you didn't address the hexagram. I was hoping you would. I am not going to look for someone else. End of story. Jackie is mine, and she agrees.