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I asked if should go after her/insist with her give me an UNDENIABLE signal. she texted me today. that was fast.
Well I asked implictly for a sign and I said one undenieable one
I had implictly said if I shouldnt dont send me a signal else send me an undeniable one.Notice that two units of the universe(people) are denying it in this thread. Notice her words are denying you, that's three denials.
You like math, right?
3/infinity units are saying one thing,
1/infinity units (you) is not in accordance.
You listen to your thoughts too much,
and thereby deny the rest of the universe.
This is to deny reality.
I can stop caring about her I had stopped feeling anything about her during 3weeks I had taken a job, she was self-indulgentIf you ask a thousand questions on the same topic do you think you still get answers you can meaningfully understand ?
You have asked a thousand questions (in many previous threads under several names) regarding the minutiae of this woman's blocking and unblocking of you. I think she has made it clear she wants you to leave her alone. That is your sign. There is no 'sign from the universe' nor any I Ching reading that can override what she herself has told you. The more you drift from that reality the more you hurt yourself in the long run.
In fairness to you I think from what I recall she has given you very mixed messages because as you have said she is highly mentally unstable. You appear unfortunately to be addicted to this cycle she perpetuates of rejection and then a little bit of acceptance. So I would suggest what you are really dealing with here is your own addictive pattern. Many people do experience this kind of thing to some degree, you aren't alone in this. I think many of us get, or have gotten, hooked on elusive mind benders who reject us then just as soon as we give them up they offer another tidbit of acceptance to reawaken our addiction. Addictions enslave, they are never good and always end in a lot of pain and always take a lot of hard work to get free from.
You did start to get free from this addiction, I recall a thread where you said you had moved on. But now you have gotten ensnared again and sadly you've sort of harnessed the LOA thing, which is I think quite demonic in many respects. I'd say it was undercover demonic having exactly the same creed as Satanism as in 'do as thou wilt' 'you can have anything you want' that kind of thing where the self is elevated to supreme power. There's elements of truth in it but beware of it, read it critically. You can never have a relationship through the I Ching, if someone says they don't want to know you you must accept that.
Problem is if you take any further steps with this not only do you hurt yourself immensely you may start to be in danger of being accused of stalking or other criminal behaviours.
I wasn't trying to continue. literally there is no way to continue with this, well there is but logically there isn't a single way to continue... at the moment I am busy learning some Js and web dev stuff I dont do often.Topher, we are trying to save you from a fate worse than death. We honor you by trying to warn you. Why don't you get on board by honoring yourself?
You mentioned you play FPS's.
Let me say something you may not have thought about. FPS's engage the fight or flight responses in us, predator and prey feelings. This girl is activating those centers. Which should be a sign to recognize what is really going on.
If one feels inflammed/angry/frustrated or worried/afraid.....
That's not love, friend.
That's denying your own feelings and intuition.
I can stop caring about her I had stopped feeling anything about her during 3weeks I had taken a job, she was self-indulgent(as I know she always is), for example she once told me was going to take a job where she (SHE DOESNT HAVE WORKING EXPERIENCE) was hired for something which payment rate was too high, at the end she told me he proposed her to giver her money for sex.I think she accepted.then months after that she told me that he abused her...(totally different story that told me then)
She was hurtful btecause the only single time I went her home (though I didnt do anything wrong, I only didnt want to give her money for something she didnt tell me before)to ask for forgiveness she accusssed me of harrassing her with her mother(she didnt want her to know about me because once we were talking in a videocall to "fix" some problem the laptop I gifted her had, I asked her if I could tell her I love her, she said not in front of her mother), when it was a lie I had only gone to her home once and I hadnt contacted her the entire week since she got angry. also I had told her mother everything I had gifted to her and the times we went to eat, I should have told her the times she told me wanted me, not sure if I was unconciously guiding myself for recovering the things I gave her or wanted to give proof her mother that she indeed felt something because let's be honest You dont accept an ENGAGEMENT RING from a friendI even made sure to ask her " D , we arent friend, what are we? " she replied :"We are dating".(she said that once to me I assume she said to everyone else)
so she changed her mind 1-2 week and I know that going her home was probably a move to avoid her taking advantage of me any further but I also went there to ask for forgiveness. I had taken a 4-5hour trip with a chocolate, a chocolate desssert and a rose,to a state I dont know, I hadnt eaten then, and I wasnt expecting this could happen but she wasnt expecting I would be able to tell her mother and her family things she was hiding from them.
what's funny is that when she contacted me to give me the things back, basically she told me I had gifted her the laptop, yes I did but only because I knew she was feeling something for me, before she told me she wouldn't accept it because we weren't anything. I repeated her words.at the time we met she even was willing to take my engagement proposal (she was expecting me to put her a ring in her hand when I simply asked for her hand to feel my heart beating for her, I had told her before we met up, I would propose to her when I would give her the laptop) and she replied "why would you want to marry me?" you weren't supposed to sell me an engagement ring,you would would sell me a laptop .Again I never talked about selling a ring. and she made clear she wouldnt want a laptop that didnt have a video card... then she wants to buy it now? then the day we met I asked if I could make fall inlove with me and she was hesistating but she never rejected me on the date. in fact it was quite the opposite to that.
side note Iching told me 4.3 you dont have any advantage in marrying this woman because when she sees a wealthy man she doesnt behave like her self. she once proposed me to date and share as if we were poor to not spend money in her, and once I talked about buying a phone she asked me to buy her one phone. the same phone she was insisting to make me buy her on december as an excuse (would you mind looking for a cheaper phone where you buy? I saw it was more expensive in the US so I told her that also made an excuse) anyway she ended getting the phone(she put 50% ) and I the other 50%... anyway once she received the money ofr the phone she didnt behave lovingly and she didnt want to keep dating
she tried to get someone(she even told me ) that met in this dating app to buy her a phone because hers wasnt working(she had problems with charging the battery) and then this person sent her $50... and guess what? she asked him for the same phone model...also funny note she mentioned as her sister had asked her if she had shown her breast to this man...
I only did the LOA videos because I only searched for what is telepathy (thing we experienced) i was curious to learn about it and one of the search results was this channel which has pretty useful videos. I never looked for the law of attraction... I just found it. and mine is not a selfish desire because if it's based on the feeling of wanting her the best I am sure I am not selfish, I know i love her. but I dont desire her.
funny thing that once I mentioned that people used of her(I know she does this for money so she feel is not like this it's more a money source) she said people doesnt use her,but she had previously something entirely different... not sure if previous times she was acting or what..
this was after we met whenever I thought about the first time we met she ended texting me exactly at the time I was thinking about it, whenever I said her name twice, she texted me, I even found once writing to her at the same time she was sending me a message, I did a LOA thing where you said something and when I did it she was videocalling me to take off her brasier, but I didnt elt her instead I told her she wa smanipulating me(she was asking me to be quiet, as her mother was around) she ended the call
TDLR, indeed there was telepathy.but sometimes she wasn't the same kind of person(ality) I expect. as I found something meaningful something beyond the material world and she was only guided by lust and low emotions
anyway I asked iching what does she think about me 12.1.3
in 12.1 i always thought I would get an impacting event, I might who knows but interpretation means changing the outlook yes she doesnt like the idea of 'soulmates' I only find it the only explanation for telepathy, we are in a karmic relationship I know I have found her telling me things I had told my parent when I was a teenager things weren't nice, she repeated them to meshe even has the same personality traits I have, I told her some of them and she even acknlowged them as true, she like a mirror, I know i met her to learn about myself. it's karma I know.Not sure if I am her karma, but she disliked the anxious behavior she saw reflected from her mother on me(or so she had told me)
12.3 is me not acting correctly because I took things I had gifted her.
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anyway last night I told her I would give her the site I was writing(a store) also told her emotions wise how important was to me. I waited some minutes and I asked the iching what does she feel for me ? 42.1.5, now this si probaly the iching talking bout the email itself. and if it was tellling me she feels I have a kind heart that would surprise me
Replying to you summary, Past weeks I havent thought about her as much as I used to as I have been busy.You quoted me then wrote a lot of stuff that shows you didn't hear me in any respect.
Anyway readings aside, and as far as I'm concerned I won't be looking at any of your readings as you've done 100s and it's not helping you it's just become another addiction. Asking then posting here has become another addiction.
One thing I notice is I find it really hard to read your posts. They're jumbled up, long, hard to see what the main points are, huge amounts of detail about what she said/did in response to what you said/did. I think one thing that might help more than readings at this time is getting some clarity and order in your mind. That can help with the turmoil and confusion you seem to be experiencing. One thing that might help, and also might help if you want people to actually look at the readings at some point, is if you tried to get an over view of the situation and sum it up, condense it all into a paragraph or 2.
Over time these are main points I have, and I don't read every word ..but you can correct them if wrong
Summary
You are obsessed with/highly attracted to a girl who is about 17 years old and is mentally quite unwell. The reason you say she is so disturbed is that she has been abused at home. You want to save her from all this. The two of you are communicating on social media a lot as well as some face to face contact. You bring her gifts, you travel a fair distance to see her sometimes and lately you proposed to her. However she responds in a highly unpredictable manner to your wooing. She has 'blocked' you on social media/phone/whatever at least 50 or 60 times, times too numerous to count. She then unblocks you just as often. You just don't know how to handle all of this so consult Yi for every blocking and unblocking and every change of heart she has. Sometimes you even think time of time of day you contact her is relevant and ask about that as if you think if you can just play it right it will be okay. You say her behaviour to you is hugely variable. One moment she will talk to you then she won't. Several time she has told you to leave her alone and has said you are harassing her. Her mother is somewhere in this mix too. You think she's a liar, you don't understand what's happening. In your mind you know you would do best to leave her alone and find another girl but you can't stop thinking about her/wanting her. This makes you look for signs from the universe and so on.
That's quite a lot even when I've tried to summarise. I've gleaned this information from many other threads of yours and also those where you had a different name.
I mean if we didn't have Yi I think it would look like this is a non starter. She's very young, highly disturbed and I doubt she could cope with a full on relationship at his point given she needs care and help more than having demands made upon her. You don't say how old you are ?
I don't understand the 'spoiler' thing. A spoiler is where one ruins a movie or book or something like that by giving away the ending or plot development too soon. You aren't giving us spoilers.
If I have the main FACTS wrong in my summary correct them. The main facts being her age, her home life, her mental state/your obsession. With those facts you can see quite clearly what you need to do. However you are doing readings as a means of avoiding reality. So more readings won't help or clarify they only help you avoid facing how things are.
If nothing else, if you decide to go on posting more threads about this, at least check out my summary and see if it accords with the basic story of it.
does it make any sense to you, that you date and accept gifts from someone you say it's harrasing you?
Are you sure it's not just in your mind?I think she might not have considered this (I dont know what to call this? friendship? relationship? manipulation?) as a serious relationship , but she accepted an engagement ring lol
Wait. how could it be in my mind? here i will make you a followup of why things were real to later change to something well hard to describeAre you sure it's not just in your mind?
As to accepting gifts, sometimes people do because they are nice and there is nothing wrong in accepting gifts. If someone keeps showing up everywhere and gives me a ring, I wouldn't throw it away. Sometimes things are such that it's embarrassing to even have to deal with them. Accepting a ring doesn't mean to be engaged.
Far from me to say that you are a stalker, but years ago I was on the verge of going to the police because a guy that I had seen twice (and only kissed once) believed there was something between us and I couldn't even make a phone call to my Mom because as soon as I switched my phone on, the phone began ringing and his name appeared on the screen. This lasted for days, he even waited for me to come home and surprised me downstairs, trying to force the door, I thought I was going crazy. I kept saying to leave me alone, he kept saying he couldn't understand and wanted explanations.
If two people are meant to be together, there isn't such drama, there is just willingness to be together and feeling at home. With a bit of physical attraction, to differentiate it from friendship.
There isn't much to ask and to understand when someone is not looking for you - or when they look for you only after 10 pm.
what about if she isn't truly honest(her best friend said he was manipulative, so i knew it from things she told me before months ago, she is also selfindulgent meaning that things she does later changes the story ENTIRELY and puts the blame on someone else like she did with her 2 bosses and the deals she had with her for sex... but that is a different story) or emotionally stable(as she had told me before months ago)? anyway from what I tell this is a karmic relationship not that sort of meant to each other you are thinking aboutIf two people are meant to be together, there isn't such drama, there is just willingness to be together and feeling at home. With a bit of physical attraction, to differentiate it from friendship.
There isn't much to ask and to understand when someone is not looking for you - or when they look for you only after 10 pm.
your summary is mostly correct I was too shocked about what she said that every time someone mentions that I need to explain how things truly happened because you expect someone you love would behave different... also I dont feel obsession the past weeks I had lost something I felt for her like the depth of the love I had but that's due to the factYou haven't made any response to my summary as to whether it's correct or not. You aren't a clear communicator, you don't tespond to whar people say and that is maybe part of the problem. Maybe you just never listen to her as you don't seem to listen to anybody else, you don't communicate.
I just showed her mother to her mother, now I believe she didnt want her mother to know about me for some reason but oddily her mother wasnt unpleased by me wanting to ask for her daughter's hand... the first time? 5 times? the second only once and she faked to be moaning (I know for certain that she really treat people who give her money as if she was offering a sexual favor or some sort..due to things she told me seemed every single interaction with the persons she disliked was due to some sexual interst in her while I hadnt expressed that to her,...)I don’t understand why you gave the ring to her mother.
Anyway things don’t stay the same. even if she told you she likes you it doesn’t mean she still does.
Especially at 17! People change boyfriend every other week.
Also you don’t seem to mention it but how many times did you kiss?
Do you kiss every time you see her? If you don’t, that’s what I meant by saying it’s in your mind.
(I know for certain that she really treat people who give her money as if she was offering a sexual favor or some sort.)
I love her
Excuse me?!I am going to be clear she at times called me just to take her bra off while I tried to carry a conversation with her via videochat
Technically i met her a a dating app when I met her she was depressed and somehow she thought (she told me when we were dating, and I asked why she would send me an delete "I love you" when we just met in this app) she told me she thought I was specialand Are you surpised by that,
knowing she is an underage pornographer?
(a cam girl/ virtual prostitute)
Is that how you met her,
by the way? (don't act offended, it's a natural question and you volunteered that info)
No, you don't.
You are obsessed with her.
Not the same at all.
And she certainly doesn't love you.
So, Yi has told you she is a gold digger.
Yi has counseled you away from her more times than I can count.
What will you do now, Topher?
She was the one who always tried to attract me to her that way, for example the most recent time was I think a time before the second date she wanted me to be quuet because her mother was around I think she didn't want to let her know about people she knew or wasn't too interested in a formal relationship or because her mother wouldn't like it(unlikely as her mother told me she was the one who had to take the decision to accept or reject the compromise)Excuse me?!
She was the one who always tried to seduce? manipulate? me that way, for example the most recent time was a time before the second date after the second date for some reason she changed her mind(she saw money and well 4.3) she only saw that since I had given her money she would take me as the other people she only exchange her nudes or even sexual services? who are only people who doesnt deserve any affection, I know it's fucked up but it's her mind which is fucked up, i only love her for who she is not what she had done in her pastExcuse me?!
This is starting to sound like you aren't respecting her boundaries. You can't control, and are not responsible, for her behavior. Only yours.I can stop caring about her I had stopped feeling anything about her during 3weeks I had taken a job, she was self-indulgent(as I know she always is), for example she once told me was going to take a job where she (SHE DOESNT HAVE WORKING EXPERIENCE) was hired for something which payment rate was too high, at the end she told me he proposed her to giver her money for sex.I think she accepted.then months after that she told me that he abused her...(totally different story that told me then)
She was hurtful btecause the only single time I went her home (though I didnt do anything wrong, I only didnt want to give her money for something she didnt tell me before)to ask for forgiveness she accusssed me of harrassing her with her mother(she didnt want her to know about me because once we were talking in a videocall to "fix" some problem the laptop I gifted her had, I asked her if I could tell her I love her, she said not in front of her mother), when it was a lie I had only gone to her home once and I hadnt contacted her the entire week since she got angry. also I had told her mother everything I had gifted to her and the times we went to eat, I should have told her the times she told me wanted me, not sure if I was unconciously guiding myself for recovering the things I gave her or wanted to give proof her mother that she indeed felt something because let's be honest You dont accept an ENGAGEMENT RING from a friendI even made sure to ask her " D , we arent friend, what are we? " she replied :"We are dating".(she said that once to me I assume she said to everyone else)
so she changed her mind 1-2 week and I know that going her home was probably a move to avoid her taking advantage of me any further but I also went there to ask for forgiveness. I had taken a 4-5hour trip with a chocolate, a chocolate desssert and a rose,to a state I dont know, I hadnt eaten then, and I wasnt expecting this could happen but she wasnt expecting I would be able to tell her mother and her family things she was hiding from them.
what's funny is that when she contacted me to give me the things back, basically she told me I had gifted her the laptop, yes I did but only because I knew she was feeling something for me, before she told me she wouldn't accept it because we weren't anything. I repeated her words.at the time we met she even was willing to take my engagement proposal (she was expecting me to put her a ring in her hand when I simply asked for her hand to feel my heart beating for her, I had told her before we met up, I would propose to her when I would give her the laptop) and she replied "why would you want to marry me?" you weren't supposed to sell me an engagement ring,you would would sell me a laptop .Again I never talked about selling a ring. and she made clear she wouldnt want a laptop that didnt have a video card... then she wants to buy it now? then the day we met I asked if I could make fall inlove with me and she was hesistating but she never rejected me on the date. in fact it was quite the opposite to that.
side note Iching told me 4.3 you dont have any advantage in marrying this woman because when she sees a wealthy man she doesnt behave like her self. she once proposed me to date and share as if we were poor to not spend money in her, and once I talked about buying a phone she asked me to buy her one phone. the same phone she was insisting to make me buy her on december as an excuse (would you mind looking for a cheaper phone where you buy? I saw it was more expensive in the US so I told her that also made an excuse) anyway she ended getting the phone(she put 50% ) and I the other 50%... anyway once she received the money ofr the phone she didnt behave lovingly and she didnt want to keep dating
she tried to get someone(she even told me ) that met in this dating app to buy her a phone because hers wasnt working(she had problems with charging the battery) and then this person sent her $50... and guess what? she asked him for the same phone model...also funny note she mentioned as her sister had asked her if she had shown her breast to this man...
I only did the LOA videos because I only searched for what is telepathy (thing we experienced) i was curious to learn about it and one of the search results was this channel which has pretty useful videos. I never looked for the law of attraction... I just found it. and mine is not a selfish desire because if it's based on the feeling of wanting her the best I am sure I am not selfish, I know i love her. but I dont desire her.
funny thing that once I mentioned that people used of her(I know she does this for money so she feel is not like this it's more a money source) she said people doesnt use her,but she had previously something entirely different... not sure if previous times she was acting or what..
this was after we met whenever I thought about the first time we met she ended texting me exactly at the time I was thinking about it, whenever I said her name twice, she texted me, I even found once writing to her at the same time she was sending me a message, I did a LOA thing where you said something and when I did it she was videocalling me to take off her brasier, but I didnt elt her instead I told her she wa smanipulating me(she was asking me to be quiet, as her mother was around) she ended the call
TDLR, indeed there was telepathy.but sometimes she wasn't the same kind of person(ality) I expect. as I found something meaningful something beyond the material world and she was only guided by lust and low emotions
anyway I asked iching what does she think about me 12.1.3
in 12.1 i always thought I would get an impacting event, I might who knows but interpretation means changing the outlook yes she doesnt like the idea of 'soulmates' I only find it the only explanation for telepathy, we are in a karmic relationship I know I have found her telling me things I had told my parent when I was a teenager things weren't nice, she repeated them to meshe even has the same personality traits I have, I told her some of them and she even acknlowged them as true, she like a mirror, I know i met her to learn about myself. it's karma I know.Not sure if I am her karma, but she disliked the anxious behavior she saw reflected from her mother on me(or so she had told me)
12.3 is me not acting correctly because I took things I had gifted her.
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anyway last night I told her I would give her the site I was writing(a store) also told her emotions wise how important was to me. I waited some minutes and I asked the iching what does she feel for me ? 42.1.5, now this si probaly the iching talking bout the email itself. and if it was tellling me she feels I have a kind heart that would surprise me
I appareciate your advice certianly I have broken boundaries but you are totally wrong about attention and certainly I have found that I wasnt the one who caused this change on her. as she changed entirely since she got the phone and stopped communication with me someone had changed her mind in those 3-4days we stopped talking. and then wanted to clean up because she was under someone else influence.This is starting to sound like you aren't respecting her boundaries. You can't control, and are not responsible, for her behavior. Only yours.
And that is important to you to blame her, and that it is important to you that we agree with you that it's right to blame her.
We can explain it to you, but we can't understand it for you.
And, therefore, because you aren't getting the answer you want, you keep asking and doing what you want anyway.
And the posting is starting to feel, to me, like attention- seeking from the forum what you cannot get from your target. There's a diagnosis for this.
Notice I said "target." She's not your friend. She's done with you. She's trying to clean up. Every sign you get that doesn't feed your need gets "talked away"as if all your words will change it.
That's a common problem with magic in general and divination in particular: never rely on magic when practical good sense will do.
Consider counseling-- it can help in the right circumstances, and a stranger on the internet isn't going to able to help you like a professional can. The pro actually knows you.
I certaintly cant express things I cant see so I seek guidance from someone wiser than me, but apparently what I get a blind judgements and vry judgamental opinions
No I dont refer to that I refer to the judgment to what I have done is wrong when certiainly there were factors that not even myself considered like someone else influencing her, due to the dumb idea of trusting her friends. guess whatYes, we that try to help you,
and we who see what you do not,
are the blind ones.
It couldn't possibly be that the marital suitor is the one blinded here.
(hasn't that been a meme for thousands of years now?)
Good luck little dude,
you are going to need it.
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