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Tonight I asked the oracle "what is happening in my life"?. A vague question- I'm still contemplating on. Receiving hexagram 63 no changing lines.
In general...The last week I have been really shrugging off my studies and almost needing to re energize myself. I find when I'm alone I start to contemplate where I'm really going, am I doing the right thing etc. And its not that I get depressed but doubt comes in quite abit when I get in these moods.
Linking this up to my other hexagrams I received in the last month or 2 such as:
"what will be the effect if I follow Dr.Yan, TCM, Qigong, Acupunture, & Chinese esoterics to become a relationship/self-help coach to better myself and have potential relationships as a man" Receiving 2 unchanging.
"What is my purpose in life" 48-->43 changing lines 1 and 4
"What are my unique gifts" 55-->14 changing lines 2 and 6
Overall...I think I'm on the right path I really do, but part of me wants to run back to the old things and just do things which I know (for better or for worse). Going on abit of a confession, it almost feels like I'm isolating myself for "the great" later on, although I've said take the high road all my life...part of me knows if I just let go of everything (like expectations, morals etc.) I could get what I want immediately but not "get it" so to speak. It'd be a bandage. Feels like a real fight inside me between 2 opposing forces. (Do whatever to fit in, get instant gratification or keep your eye improving yourself & everything will work out splendid though you gotta sacrifice now)
I don't doubt the oracle, I don't doubt my teachers/masters who've help me grow tremendously in every aspect, I doubt myself if what I'm doing really will pay off in the end. (I know it sounds messed). But my view is am I just fooling myself/wasting time in the great elaborate joke or am I actually doing something which will make me happy and grow as a individual, man, human, friend, & future lover.
Its pushing it...it really is, but this struggle always comes in myself and I usually say, "no Zac...your fine, your on a good path, look @ the changes you've made, etc." as reassurance. I'm actually doing that indirectly postings here. But ya...I hate saying it I don't know, its like complete darkness. Just need a torch to say, yes or no- though I know that only comes from myself.
Any views are appreciated, and THANKS in advance if you read the whole thing..its a long winded vent partly :bows:
In general...The last week I have been really shrugging off my studies and almost needing to re energize myself. I find when I'm alone I start to contemplate where I'm really going, am I doing the right thing etc. And its not that I get depressed but doubt comes in quite abit when I get in these moods.
Linking this up to my other hexagrams I received in the last month or 2 such as:
"what will be the effect if I follow Dr.Yan, TCM, Qigong, Acupunture, & Chinese esoterics to become a relationship/self-help coach to better myself and have potential relationships as a man" Receiving 2 unchanging.
"What is my purpose in life" 48-->43 changing lines 1 and 4
"What are my unique gifts" 55-->14 changing lines 2 and 6
Overall...I think I'm on the right path I really do, but part of me wants to run back to the old things and just do things which I know (for better or for worse). Going on abit of a confession, it almost feels like I'm isolating myself for "the great" later on, although I've said take the high road all my life...part of me knows if I just let go of everything (like expectations, morals etc.) I could get what I want immediately but not "get it" so to speak. It'd be a bandage. Feels like a real fight inside me between 2 opposing forces. (Do whatever to fit in, get instant gratification or keep your eye improving yourself & everything will work out splendid though you gotta sacrifice now)
I don't doubt the oracle, I don't doubt my teachers/masters who've help me grow tremendously in every aspect, I doubt myself if what I'm doing really will pay off in the end. (I know it sounds messed). But my view is am I just fooling myself/wasting time in the great elaborate joke or am I actually doing something which will make me happy and grow as a individual, man, human, friend, & future lover.
Its pushing it...it really is, but this struggle always comes in myself and I usually say, "no Zac...your fine, your on a good path, look @ the changes you've made, etc." as reassurance. I'm actually doing that indirectly postings here. But ya...I hate saying it I don't know, its like complete darkness. Just need a torch to say, yes or no- though I know that only comes from myself.
Any views are appreciated, and THANKS in advance if you read the whole thing..its a long winded vent partly :bows:
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