Well, Im back

[twilightshadow]

I do need help with a reading, but thought I would reintroduce myself and share a bit of irony first. Feel free to skip this part, especially if you never knew me before. The part below that I need help with is longer than I expected. Ok, I was here several years ago as Seeker. Yeah, those who knew me just ran away screaming, lol. But Im much better now. It was why I left. I realized I was not in a good place, and I was becoming almost addicted to the I Ching. I needed to get myself and my life in order, and so I did. I got divorced, moved to a new place with my parents help, became a teacher, found a gift and a purpose, moved from Florida to Tennessee, and oh, of course, in the midst of all that moved on from my Thomas obsession. And we're caught up, but here's the irony. I moved Oct before last, but come back to Fla for most of the summer. My daughter has court ordered visitation with her father for 8 weeks during the summer, and if I stay in town, I get to see her once a week during that time, sort of a reverse visitation. Last summer my parents were still in Fl, packing to move (they built a house 45 minutes from us in Tn), so I was staying with them. I spent a lot of time hanging out at the bookstore in the evening. One night as I was leaving I heard a familiar voice, but one I couldnt place. I turned and found Thomas approaching me. Yi is always right, we did meet again I was actually shocked he approached me. Lets face it, he would have been justified in taking out a restraining order. He asked if we could get together for fun (totally ok with that, my life is different now), we texted a few times, but then he stopped with no explanation. I was a bit confused, but what could I do. And it was just a hookup, so no big. I figured it had offered some closure as I confirmed for myself that I had moved on, and maybe that was why the universe had given me that moment. Awww, but the universe was apparently not done, because a few weeks after I went back to Tn I received a text stating he had dropped his phone in the pool and only recently got it fixed. He did not have my number outside the phone. He knew I was gone, but wanted to apologize anyway so as not to leave it on a bad note. I accepted and let him know I would be back this summer. He said if I was still interested to text him when I came back. I returned a couple of weeks ago, but had not made a decision about seeing him. Once again, the universe gave a push, and I received a text from him that he thought he had seen me at the bookstore (recurring theme apparently) and was I back in town. We did get together and had a great night. We were going to get together again, but then he met someone he wanted to explore a relationship with, and I wished him well. The odd thing is that I dont think we're done yet. I was curled up with him and my hand was over his heart, and in the middle of the night I woke with the oddest impression that his heart was broken. As I lay there words came into my head that he will meet someone young and beautiful, and he will be her world, but he must open his heart first. I also had the thought that he is not fulfilling his potential, he could be so much more. This is not a unique occurence in my life now. It will probably sound crazy, but I swear, people come into my life and the universe speaks to me either in dream or like this one, and then there is something I have to help them with. Sometimes it is a short lived acquintance, and sometimes the person stays in my life. After he texted about meeting someone, I consulted Yi and got the following:
Why am I back in Thomas life? 47 unchanging he is oppressed I think
What do I still have left to do for Thomas? 39.4.6 I believe this echos my impression
What does the summer hold for us? 46 unchanging. hmmm
Feel free to comment on these, especially if Im misreading it, but I can wait to see how it plays out, will be a learning experience if nothing else.

Finally, what I actually need help with:
This is actually a problem for me. I have been teaching 9th grade English at a school in Tenn. Its a school that most people do not want to teach at, but I chose it because I wanted to be where I was most needed. As they do have difficulty getting teachers, I thought I could really make a difference there. The year started with an obstacle as I had applied to have my FL license transferred to Tn, and it was still pending when I got hired. When the county tried to rush it, they informed me I was missing two tests as they dont accept the ones taken for the FL license. However, they granted an interim license which allowed me to teach for the year while I met the requirements for the full license. I passed both my tests just before my final evaluation with my principal. At that evaluation he informed me that I would get a letter stating my job had to be posted because I had the interim license, but not to worry, that he fully intended to rehire me, and he could recommend it based on the fact that I should have my full license by then. I spoke to him a couple of times after that and he never indicated anything different. Less than a week before school ended, he finally scheduled my summative, a meeting with him and the vice principal who had also evaluated me. At that meeting, he gave me an eval sheet that scored me below proficiency on everything, despite the fact that my students had the lowest failure rate on the state exam, and then denied he ever told me he would rehire me. The summative eval was also completely inconsistent with previous evals. I went into absolute shock. At that point, most other teaching positions had been filled. I was suddenly left coming to Fl for the summer with no prospect for a job when I got back. My other option was to not come and hope something else came open. Note that my daughter would have been devastated as she is only 11 and would not want to go 8 weeks without seeing me, plus I would have to come up with money to fly her down. I talked to some of my colleagues, and they all said they would write recommendations, but then one pulled me aside and said I needed to contact the teachers assoc. Tn state law says teachers must receive a nonhire letter by April 15 if they are not being rehired. I received no such letter; even the interim letter was not received until May 1. TEA said they believed I had a case, though the law was somewhat ambiguous on interim teachers, but it does not specifically exclude them. Oh, I had never received a copy of the principals eval, so I asked. It is pretty useless as he only listed the codes, but I looked them up and again inconsistent, but he wrote rehire at the top. Dont know if that helps, but at least it shows I did not hallucinate. Oh, there are rumours that he drinks. Lovely. In the meantime, all of my colleagues recommended that I continue with my plans, as there was not much I could do until the end of the summer when last minute positions would be posted. It isnt costing me much to be here because my parents house is still for sale, so Im staying in it for free. I did consult Yi about what to do and got 7 unchanging, so that seemed like TEA was the way to go. I asked about staying and looking for a different job and got 39.1. Obviously, though I am here in Fl with my friends, who have given unending support, Im still rather nervous about it. There has been no progress because the TEA legal handling it went on vacation and just got back. I realized today I had never asked about the situation, only what to do. I asked why did I lose the job? 24.4.6 I then asked what do I need to do about the job now? 61 unchanging. Now Im confused. Is it saying Im supposed to return to something else? Who is the friend in line 4? Maybe the teacher who helped me, or is it someone outside of this. I have a strong spiritual connection to a friend in Fl. Please tell me this is not saying Im supposed to return to Fl. If the universe wanted me in FL, it should have given me the means to stay there, I only moved because of my parents and the economy got so bad. Line 6 is really confusing, what did I miss? This hex is one I dread because it still gives me fits. I felt better after reading Rosado's memorizing thread on this tho, cause they had difficulty with it too. The 61 I could see two ways. It could be about continuing with TEA so that the truth is seen. It occurred to me when it first happened that the universe might be using me as an implement of change as others in the county have had problems due to ambiguous law on interims. Im just the first one to stand up and fight it. Again, wouldnt be the first time. However, I have also had it come up when I was in denial and needed to tell myself the truth about something. I couldnt find this one on the memorizing thread. It didnt come up in the search, and Hillary's list for that thread ends at 53. I didnt go too far into it because I had already spent several hours researching the first one. I had been thinking about coming back anyway, especially with the ironic Thomas thing. I figured maybe this was telling me it was time to return. Doh!!! Talk about irony. Thanks in advance for any of you brave enough to try and help me again. (Leaves muttering to self, "I will not make these people crazy again; I will not make these people crazy again")

 

[willowfox]

Are you the person who was going through a custody battle last year and your ex was trying to prevent you leaving Florida by causing all kinds of problems in the court. You wanted to leave the state with your daughter due to financial issues but were being prevented at the time by legal issues? You were so depressed back then.
I think you said that your ex had some kind of mental problem or drink problem, can't remember exactly.
If that is you, then I knew you would best him in the end.

 

[twilightshadow]

Hmmm, Id forgotten I posted then, but yes that would have been me, though would have been year before last. Cant remember if I identified myself, possibly not. I wasnt ready to return at that time, but I really needed help in figuring out what to do.

 

[Grandma]

Hi seeker,
I remember you and often thought about how you were doing.
Can't believe Thomas popped up like that.
Very interesting about the psychic impressions you are getting.
Hope you find someone for yourself though, when you are ready. Maybe you just need some alone time.
I hate 24.6 also.
Jesed said that for unchanging hexes look at the image. Here is the image for 61 ala Wilhelm

THE IMAGE

Wind over lake: the image of INNER TRUTH.
Thus the superior man discusses criminal cases
In order to delay executions.

Wind stirs water by penetrating it. Thus the superior man, when obliged to
judge the mistakes of men, tries to penetrate their minds with understanding,
in order to gain a sympathetic appreciation of the circumstances. In ancient
China, the entire administration of justice was guided by this principle. A
deep understanding that knows how to pardon was considered the highest
form of justice. This system was not without success, for its aim was to make
so strong a moral impression that there was no reason to fear abuse of such
mildness. For it sprang not from weakness but from a superior clarity.

The image for 7 from Wilhelm:
THE IMAGE

In the middle of the earth is water:
The image of THE ARMY.
Thus the superior man increases his masses
By generosity toward the people.

Ground water is invisibly present within the earth. In the same way the
military power of a people is invisibly present in the masses. When danger
threatens, every peasant becomes present in the masses. When danger
threatens, every peasant becomes a soldier; when the war ends, he goes back
to his plow. He who is generous toward the people wins their love, and a
people living under a mild rule becomes strong and powerful. Only a people
economically strong can be important in military power. Such power must
therefore be cultivated by improving the economic condition of the people
and by humane government. Only when there is this invisible bond between
government and people, so that the people are sheltered by their
government as ground water is sheltered by the earth, is it possible to wage a
victorious war.

A random thought: why don't you apply for unemployment in the meantime?

 

[twilightshadow]

Oh, I was looking more at the judgement, which seemed like support for what I was doing, but some of it, like the part about getting into the other person's psyche, was a bit confusing. Reading the image, then its pretty much the action Im taking. There is another teacher who they fired while on workers comp (you so cant do that), but she bypassed TEA and went to a lawyer. She is out for blood and is taking a very confrontational stance, wanting everything she can possibly get. I chose to go through TEA and I have told them that I am not looking to create enemies. I dont want any money (Im still getting paid through the end of the contract, so feel they dont owe me anything) and I dont want to cause problems. I dont want a huge suit with lots of publicity. I just want them to honor the law and let me keep my job. And I want a more definitive procedure for those on interim licenses, so that others like me do not have to go through this. I am more than aware that I may still be looking for a job next year, as I expect the principal to harbour some resentment. However, that would give me time to get my ducks in a row and make some new connections to secure a position for the following year. Then again, rumour has it the county may be getting rid of our principal, so it might be someone else making the decision next year. I have my fingers crossed.

The image for seven is interesting. I almost always read seven to mean amass an army and prepare for battle, as that is generally what it has meant for my experiences. Yet parts of the image, in particular the lines that speak of peasants becoming soldiers and improving the economics of the masses, could support my theory that Im in this position to change things for the better as a whole. I could be the soldier, and if I win my case, perhaps it will spark a change in how the county deals with interim licenses. It really isnt fair, because they treat interims like alternatives, but they are not the same. Alternatives are for people who have never had a teaching license anywhere, but are very close to completing their licensure requirements. They may lack one class or a couple of exams, etc, but the key is they are new teachers with little to no experience. Interims are for people who had a license in another state, and their application to transfer to a Tn license is pending for state exams or sometimes further verification. Having held licenses in other states, most of them have at least some experience, though how much could vary. But the way the procedures currently read, an interim teacher with 10 years experience could lose the job to someone who only has four years but is tenured in Tn. The whole system is flawed. Of course, Im actually not a big believer in tenure. Im glad that it helps protect good teachers from losing their jobs based on politics, and in some ways it does force schools to hire the more experienced teacher, but more often than not, I think it protects ineffective or inadequate teachers. And no, I dont speak that opinion too loudly to any of my colleagues. I might get lynched, lol. Anyway, thanks for the help. i feel a bit better now. I still dont understand the 24, but looking at the other readings, i can relax and study it further. Hmmm, I wonder if 24.6 means there were signs I would lose the job and thats what I missed. Maybe it means there was a chance to turn it around, return to a more stable state??? and I wasnt paying attention. Though honestly, if my experience can improve things for others like me, i will gladly go through it. I get a bit crazy sometimes, but deep down, I do trust the universe to take care of me and get me where I need to be. thanks again.