what is my life...now it's the landlady harassing me 11>40

[oceangirl]

So just when I think I've got peace at least somewhere in my life something else happens. Things have been a bit erratic with my landlady but I thought we'd finally found a happy medium but it seems every time that happens she wants to cause conflict.
I pay a good amount of rent for what it is but because it's very difficult to find a place to rent of course the rental market takes advantage of it.
I'm only allowed to do one load of washing a week because she says it's wear and tear on her washing machine and other limitations although my rent easily covers her gripes.
I told her the other day about me starting trauma therapy because I wanted her to understand that I need to be left alone and don't need any pressure about anything.
This morning she pointedly find me and started harassing me for more bond. I've been living here for at least 2 months and had explained my financial situation right at the beginning but I have managed to give her $50 - not much but it's the best I can do.

How would it benefit me to start looking for an alternative rental (don't know where but that's my question because there's nowhere else affordable for me)


Hexagram 11.1.3.4>40

Sorry I have to go out right now so will give me take on it later.

 

[rosada]

Peaceful Release?
Reads to me as if you might be able to find something to help you get out of there - that or at least the very act of looking might make you feel better!

 

[oceangirl]

Peaceful Release?
Reads to me as if you might be able to find something to help you get out of there - that or at least the very act of looking might make you feel better!

Probs better to get outta here!!

 

[equinox]

"What is my life" you asked in the title of your thread. In my own recent thread I wrote, 'often life confronts one with their weaknesses when they seem especially hard to overcome, but at least if you succeed in overcoming them then, you did it quite thouroughly.'
Of course my situation is nowhere near severe compared to yours, but maybe regarded in structural terms something similar is here the case as well?
You doing a therapy, therefore you try to 'clean up', if I got you right. And now life seems to confront you with the task to learn setting boundaries in two important areas of your life, your home and an important friendship. Just as would life wants to know, if you are serious with your 'cleaning up' ambitions and wants to make sure that you to do it radically.
Corresponding, radicality means to get to the root of something, also line 11.1 is talking about roots and seems to suggest that the topics you are dealing with are connected in some way:

11.1 --> The first line, dynamic, suggests the idea of grass pulled up, and bringing with it other stalks with whose roots it is connected. Advance on the part of its subject will be fortunate. (Legge)

I can't know about the personality of your landlady, but to me it seems like she is a person who does't value your obvious peacableness, but instead she tries to take advantage of it.
Your logic is like, you tell her that you are in a trauma therapy therefore she should accept that you need no more trouble right now. Her logic seems to be like "oh, she is in a trauma therapy, that means she is very vulnerable right now and therefore possibly an easy target, so maybe I can even get a bit more out of her." Sounds cynical, but I met many people who are like that, mostly 'only' in their subconcious mind.

I agree with rosada, try getting out of there. And in the meantime show your boundaries not in a way like you ask for understanding, you can be peaceful, but show a certain firmness.
Plus you could also conclude: in order to find peace, you need to release yourself.

 

[oceangirl]

Thanks blackmilk - yes I showed my firmness yesterday in my dealings with her OMGoodness she just lost it and started going off her head but I know that legally I'm in the right so.....but the thing is I don't want to be dealing with conflict like this or anything else of course especially right now.
Yes I do understand everything that's going on is relative to all the 'cleaning up' I'm doing to move forward - not very easy when you're on your own hence why I've a lot of posts on here.

 

[equinox]

Fingers crossed that you find something nice, sooner or later. All in all your reading suggests that you are accompanied by good fortune these times, even if everything just seems to be overwhelming right now.

 

[oceangirl]

Fingers crossed that you find something nice, sooner or later. All in all your reading suggests that you are accompanied by good fortune these times, even if everything just seems to be overwhelming right now.

Well let's hope so because yesterday and today have been pretty awful days within myself. Thankyou