What is the lesson to learn? 36.1.2.3.4.5.6 (!) > 6

[elizabeth]

I just had a very strange, shocking, unexpected, unexplicable and confusing experience with a certain man. I could summarize here but it is rather long. I am trying to understand what the main lesson is, what am I not seeing, and I got this result:

36.1.2.3.4.5.6 > 6

because every.single.line. is changing, i presume I should just focus on the 6 as the main message? the part of Hex 36 that makes sense in the context of this incident is the following:

‘Brightness Wounded’. Since others do not share your standards or insight, it would be dangerous to let the light of your character shine out freely. Perhaps you have been injured; perhaps you fear injury. Yet you cannot, or will not, leave the situation in search of a stronger position. Instead, you stay true to the light and keep it burning in these hard times by hiding it away.

I hid part of myself from this person, but I was prepared to open up given the chance. I do not think they share my insights to life since their life has been rather surface/silver spoon on a platter and mine has been the opposite. However I am not sure that I have kept any light burning inside me, it seems all of it has died...

And the part of 6 that makes sense is:

You argue for what you need – for sustenance, or to be believed, or simply for justice – for you know in your bones that things are not as they should be. Yet no matter how deep and true your convictions, you find yourself frustrated, and your sense of being in resonance and connected with the world is choked off. It’s important, now, to centre yourself in vigilance – in a heart open and alert to all the potentials for change, so you stay poised and capable of responsive movement in any direction. To freeze into a combative, defiant posture, holding onto your sense of wrongness to the bitter end, would not resolve conflict but only establish it in perpetuity. When frustrated and blocked, you need to see great people – those whose higher perspective enables them to see beyond the argument to a larger truth. Perhaps you can find that shift in perspective within yourself; perhaps you need to consult with someone wiser, who is outside the conflict. Meanwhile, it’s fruitless to commit yourself further to your position out of sheer defiance.

The situation that occurred is highly unjust to me (but then life isn't fair). I have spent 4 days trying to think of a compromise but the only way i can compromise is to compromise my principles (and yet i'm so tired of this type of thing, i'm tempted to do just that...)
Anyway What confuses me is that "holding onto your sense of wrongness would only establish conflict in perpetuity". But if i let go of wrongness then the next step is accepting the wrongness?? ie in this case if i accept it, i have to participate in it, and then my standards become lowered and tainted and that's not OK, that's not what i want...
How do you center yourself in vigilance "in a heart open and alert to all the potentials for change"?

 

[goddessliss]

Oh Elizabeth why do you keep doing this to yourself in regards to relationships?

The lesson to be learned is what I call - learn to Stand In Your Own Sunshine. It's about self esteem, do work with the Solar Plexus Chakra. See if you can get hold of a book called Chakra Healing by Liz Simpson.
- Liss

 

[elizabeth]

Keep doing what?

 

[goddessliss]

Go back and read some of the threads of yours - same story different man.

 

[elizabeth]

I tend to disagree as this is not the same story. And where I am located I cannot get a copy of that book in the near term future.

Maybe someone can comment on the hexagrams?

 

[goddessliss]

Oh well my interpretation of the hexes is that you have self esteem issues you need to get over - take it or leave it, it's not going to change my life either way but it could change yours. All the best

 

[blue_angel]

It seems if there is a lesson... The lesson would be to learn how to be cautious with those that would be conflicting or diminishing to your own inner light.

 

[NemeanMagik]

The lower trigram is all about FIRE and part of the meaning of that is 'clinging'. Fire sort of 'clings'. FIRE also is Light, Bright. I think you must most of all Cling to the Light, Your Light, your principles. No don't compromise, in the sense that you should not make the other person's offense into an 'okay' thing; it is not. But the point is, don't get entangled in it, don't cling to the darkness of that, but stand separate and stay with your own light/principles. But try not to judge either in the sense of 'condemn'. Practically I'd say it is best to withdraw at the moment from this man, emotionally or actually-- at the same time as viewing the situation as inconclusive. (hex 2) I would read every line of 36, reflect on it, and see the context as 6 (conflict). Maybe you could put together in terms of an internal dispute - in your own psyche - there's a battle going on about personal validation/identity. It might be a really important relationship to analyse, make sense of. Maybe this man's represents your father/parents? Could be rich pickings?