What is the right thing to do here? >>URGENT<<

[meganj]

Through my own faults and a bit of bad luck as well, I didn't finish a paper that was due today that I needed for a presentation this morning as well.
I have been under enormous stress, I hate public speaking - I have a bit of social phobia, and i've been worrying about this presentation for over a month.
This past week (subconsciously) I really procrastinated with getting this paper done, well it is due in two hours. I'm not done!
I am very very stressed out over this and to the point of tears, I know I caused this myself... and I'm not sure what to do. I am not supposed to miss any classes but now I feel so stupid like I cannot show my face in the classroom among my peers and have to explain to my instructor and apologize for the inconvenience. I really self-sabotaged this. I am getting funded, and I have certain standards to maintain but I feel like I am not keeping my word. I am failing one other class, and really haven't been trying 100% in the other ones but am passing above 75%, I feel like maybe I should just drop the whole program, like I don't want to but... I have presented myself badly, and image is very important. I am going to school to be a social worker, so yah this is not good.
Plus maybe my heart is just not in it to begin with?

What is the right thing to do here????
For this reading I recieved 63.1.2>48

I don't think I could even make it to my class this morning if I wanted to, I would like to finish this paper, but I have two classes today, if I were to I wouldn't make it to either one of them. I have no clue what to do at this point, I really messed up bad.:bag::bag::bag:

 

[weaver]

63.1.2 seems to suggest that you are going through a slow/discouraging period or setback after a high (perhaps the high of receiving funding in a competitive situation). You now feel under pressure to prove yourself again.

Your school must have a counsellor you could see? Make an appointment with that person. Email your instructor and tell him/her you have been feeling stressed out and are seeing the counsellor. Apologise for missing class and say you would like to see him/her to find out the best way of catching up. Ask the counsellor also to write to your instructor.

Make a task list for what you need to do for each class. Be pragmatic - don't try to do everything. Pick the essentials and feel confident in them. Allow for exercise and time off.

Maybe the overall lesson is that everything is cyclic. You got to the peak of one cycle - achieving the funding. Now you are at the bottom again, a learner, inexperienced. Totally normal - and even exciting, if you change your thinking.

By the way, I have taught in universities, and the kind of crisis you are having is totally normal. Most classes have at least one student who goes through this per semester. And often by the end of the semester they are among those who do best. So don't worry. Just be calm, breathe, and go through things one step at a time.

 

[weaver]

ps 63.2 suggests your instructor may not appear very sympathetic at first (Wilhelm's commentary: 'it may happen that those who have come to power grow arrogant and conceited and no longer trouble themselves about fostering new talent') but again, this will not be a lasting reaction: 'Do not run after it;/ On the seventh day you will get it.'

 

[trustcanon]

Dear Meganj;

Please let me know where I can find your 16.3.5 > 31 thread to which I was going to reply but later lost.

King Wen talks about 既濟 Already Across such that you have already been able to pull through your program. Flourishing is Small, (and therefore) Beneficial and Studied-In, ( or meaning You might as well study hard and long for the better,) Fortunate at the present time and on for a while, At last difficult. Confucius comments (the same way) Small thing flourishes, Beneficial, Studied-In, because the Strongs and the Weaks are right in place. Initial Fortune comes from the Tender taking up the Middle Position, (on the 2nd line,) Coming to the end, Difficult, because the Way arrives in a dilemma. Confucius recommends you to think over misfortune (in advance) and prevent it from happening.

You are positioned on the third line, backed by the best. The King Wen tells you the history where a Chinese King attacked ancient Korea for three years to defeat and therefore you had better not be small mind person. Confucius comments the damage accumulated at the expense of three years. Your Program takes the 4th line where the King Wen tells you that wearing good silk suits, damp at the bottom of 坎 Gua, concerned all day long, (while paper unfinished.) Confucius comments it is due to your doubt. Your program accomplishment occupies the 5th, the 2nd & the changed 1st lines. If your term defined at this Oracle casting targets the whole program term, (or is limited to the paper and today's class,) the 1st gets wet with wheel(tire) off the carriage, the 2nd turns your paper good in 7 days if you don't mind having the carriage cover ruined for married women (who might as well be pregnant with your paper preparation, idea,) and/or the 5th brings practical blessing with your sincere and cordial study rather than Eastern King's Great Ritual, fiesta. The 6th line warns you against danger with the carriage front wet, towards the end of the program. Gua 48 井 Well coincides with denominator water, while you need to keep away from it.

Wishing your stress to tears calming down and your program working out good!

 

[meganj]

http://www.onlineClarity.co.uk/friends/showthread.php?t=15882
theres the link

thanks for replying,
ive really been trying n0t to think of sch00l, I knew if I didnt do the presentation than that would be it for that class. I think my funding may get pulled :/ i plan to go see a counsellor though on monday becuz of my s.a.d. issues.. i think im going to have to start over!
basically with my social work program i may need sowk 1020 and sowk 1023 to move on to my next courses soo yah. this effects my finances, and stuff and itll put me back another year etc.

and by " the right thing to do" I mean with the whole program, Im not doin too great and im getting funded. faith was put into me n im not following through. should i just withdraw? :/