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For years now, I've been unable to live in my own home because I'm extremely sensitive to mold, and my neighbor put the waste material from her mold remediation in her yard. The last time I was there was a year ago, and within two minutes of arriving, I was crippled and was barely able to get out. A lot has happened in the last year -- two neurosurgeries, in particular. We've been delaying going home a bit because I'm still healing from the last neurosurgery, and the more healed I am, the more likely it is that I'll be OK at home again. But it's getting more urgent to make a decision about what to do, because the house is currently empty: should we move home, rent it again, sell it? I'm really trying to feel what the best mode and timing are.

I first asked overall what the right approach to the house is right now, and I got 1.2.4.5 to 22. I'm fairly puzzled by that reading -- I'm not sure who the 'great person' could be, for one thing, and I'm not sure what the relevance of surface beauty is here. What does make sense to me is that there's a tremendous creative energy bound up with my house and land, so the right mode to be in is one that honors and dances with that energy.

Then I asked about timing. The most reasonable times for me to go back are next week or the following, though if I had a strong sense that it was right to wait longer, I suppose that's possible.

Next week: 20.3 to 53. Sounds like that will give me some perspective on things, and that it will bring a path to slowly build a sense of home (whether in my house or elsewhere).

The following week: 64.1.2.4 to 27. The odd thing is that this reading has more cautions about not going too fast -- though waiting an extra week is going slower.

Waiting still longer: 6.5 to 64. This puts me in a good relationship with the "argument" -- the back and forth on whether it's safe for me to be there or not. The repetition of 64 is interesting here.

Any thoughts would be most appreciated.
 

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Hi Julie!

Neurosurgeries?? Related to the mold problem? (In a weird way I hope so, if the alternative is that you have more/other serious issues... 😟 )

I think the readings are quite in favor of you going to your house, trying it, and seeing what happens.

1 to 22 - creative activity meets making the essence visible, let your house express itself to you (so to speak).
Line 2 - the dragon (house / mold problem, maybe) is visible (vs. hidden in line 1) - echo of 22.
Line 4 - 'dancing in the abyss' is about taking flight without knowing how the flight will go, which seems to match well.
Line 5 - guessing that the great person is yourself, though who knows, maybe there will be sage advice from someone else. Go when you think it's wise to go. And/or, you'll know what the house decision is when you know. (Implication: you will be able to tell.)

20.3 to 53 - "seeing," again. Go and see. Advancing and possibly withdrawing if need be. Test the waters. I once cast this line in the middle of making increasingly frustrating phone calls trying to get information, and was considering stopping. I kept going, and by the end I had the information I needed (cobbled together in bits and pieces from all the calls).

I think those two readings go together and say go when you're able and it's possible, but I don't think they mean there's anything to be gained by deliberately waiting longer than that.

Not sure what to make of 53. It can describe things that take a long, long time, but it's the relating hexagram, which isn't the advice per se. Maybe something like let this take the time it takes, no slower and no faster? I often like the waterwheel metaphor for 53 - a waterwheel doesn't control its own speed, its speed is dictated by the water, its state of repair, etc.

64 to 27 - my impression is Yi's gone off-script here, referring you back to the first two.
64.1 - you're soaking your tail in readings?
64.2 - drag yourself back to the other readings
64.4 - you've gotten caught in the "demons of before" (as ever, thank you to Knotxx for that).

6.5 to 64 - continuing to contend with "before" stuff, and this is "good fortune." If this is about the trip, maybe preparing for it will tell you if you're up to going?

If it's about making some final, permanent decision about the house, getting 64 in two of your readings sounds like there's preliminary stuff to do before that's possible. It can't be settled yet.


Or something like that... your saga with illness + house + readings has never been much for tidy resolution...
 

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Gallò Julie,

I well remember this problem you had.

first of all, have you settled the matter with the neighbor? Did you tell them not to do that again because of your condition?

second, you talk of when getting in, but are you sure it is safe now?

I guess you have addressed that question in the first cast about the house in general.
 

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Well Super Fast Liselle has already said everything so there’s little for me to add 🙂
 
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Yes, well, Liselle is already second-guessing herself. :spinning:

I think those two readings go together and say go when you're able and it's possible, but I don't think they mean there's anything to be gained by deliberately waiting longer than that.
Your whole point was to find out when you're able and it's possible. You did say, "the more healed I am, the more likely it is that I'll be OK at home again" - what are you basing that on?

Trying to work through it a little more...
1.2 is not 1.1. Had you gotten 1.1, it would be fairly clear that things - the trip and/or the house decision - should not be undertaken now: submerged, do not act or employ, let the dragon sleep.

1.2 - dragon is awake and visible in the fields. I still think that might mean waiting longer won't help. Dragon's as un-submerged as she needs to be to start out. Then line 4 says take the leap even if you're not sure you're ready and don't know what's out there. (Very apt...)

Part of my confusion is between hexagram 1 and hexagram 64. Basic 1 stuff says start now and keep moving. Basic 64 stuff says you need more preparation. But if the last two aren't direct answers, as I suspected, that could explain it.

Also, 1 and 64 are each other's shadows. (Shadow hexagrams are found by moving backwards from the other end of the sequence, so 1's shadow is 64, 2's shadow is 63, etc. Subtract from 65.) Shadows are easy to confuse with each other, but they're really the exact wrong way to think about it.

Here's what Hilary says in WikiWing about 64 as 1's shadow:
1's Shadow is Hexagram 64. In a time of Creative Force, worrying whether external conditions are right before you start is exactly how not to think.
Sounds like 1.4, doesn't it?

So maybe the 64s are Yi's way of saying you got caught up not only with demons-of-before, but in shadows.
 

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Yes, the neurosurgeries are indeed because of the mold. Turns out that mold exposure causes the release of inflammatory molecules that can damage connective tissue. In my case, I had lots of inflammation right around my brainstem, which resulted in the ligaments in that area getting damaged, and that resulted in my skull crushing my brainstem. I was getting paralyzed, unable to speak and barely able to breathe many times a day, including any time I tilted my head back even slightly. It's been quite a year.

Nothing is settled with the neighbor. The last interaction she and I had, she tried to run me over in the road to avoid talking to me. Nor do I know whether it's safe for me there -- the question is when to go there in order to find out.

Your thoughts are super helpful, Liselle. The contrast between 1 and 64 is indeed odd, but your thoughts on that are helpful, and overall, it's making me think that I should just go ahead and go next week.

I'll let you know what happens!
 

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Are you serious?!
trying to run someone over is a crime. So you’re going to live close to a person who tried to kill you?:eek:
Be careful!!
 

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I believe this neighbour should be taken to court. The matter could be settled easily by changing all the land around your two houses. It shouldn’t cost a fortune, being just earth to remove. And you have the right to live in a safe place.

Mold is bad for everyone!

Although most people wouldn’t suffer from it the way you do, it doesn’t mean they wouldn’t be damaged by it. Some people have died because they had mold in the house. It gets in your lungs without you noticing it and then bye bye.

So I would sue this neighbour for poisoning the land and for her lack of cooperation in solving the matter, despite her knowing the injury she is causing to you.
 

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