Why am I still haunted? 50,6 > 32

[oponopono]

dear all,
i kindly ask for your help on this one, as it is an issue that brings me suffering. Unnecessary, i think. I was together with someone and we chose to split. Then I fought for a friendship but it was premature, too many unsolved issues and constant reactivity to minor things. Almost 2 months ago we decided to cut all contact and stay away from each others lives. It was very hard at first but meanwhile I took on with my life and felt much stronger. I also took some time-out, travelled, and while I was away i felt really great about myself and the situation. He was a past issue.

I am back home for a week now and it fell over me like in day one. All of the sudden I feel terrible again and any thought connected to him tears me apart. I cant seem to affectively push him off my mind and yet i wish to take no action. Things are fine the way they are and I do not want to resume contact.

So I asked, Why is his "presence" haunting me again? and received a very puzzling 50,6 turning to 32.

In the last two months 50 came up static a couple of times - i took it as a time for spiritual renewal, me nourishing myself and my own sources. But I make no sense of line 6 regarding this specific question, and 32 just makes me feel my "haunted" state can be here to stay...

I hope you have different outlooks on it... please do share them with me...
thanks
y*:bows:

 

[anemos]

Hi ,

I think it means "hang in there " (32). Those ups and downs are normal. (Firmness and softness) It takes some time

 

[ginnie]

"Your heart is in the right place," says Sarah Dening of 50.6 in The Everyday I Ching. I also agree with anemos, who said that these ups and downs are normal after you've been in a relationship like that.

 

[meng]

Jade rings aren't as functionally utilitarian as they are symbolic of refinement, which is the primary function of the Ding. Finding jade with no impurities is an ideal or an ideology, which (symbolically) carries the contents (essentially being you) to make available to others. I think you are haunted by the finest moments of being together.

32 symbolizes perpetual motion, which mechanically speaking, would have to be perfectly balanced, and refined.

Kind of a fancy way of saying, that ding's got class. Perhaps your self-worth has been too tied up in him for you to find your own?

 

[goddessliss]

You are in a place of transformation - from the relationship to the next phase of your life. Remembering things and the heartache or whatever you may feel, has to be felt to move on - not fun but all part of it, if not you end up with emotional issues and then unhealthy relationships or ill health become a part of your life. - Not fun! Feel, feel - Liss

 

[anemos]

Liss said, "Feel Feel", and I recall somewhere reading about this line ( have no source , sorry) that its also about thoughts and feelings been in harmony. Your rational mind says : " ..as it is an issue that brings me suffering. Unnecessary, i think " ; but your sentiment is different ( which as all said its so natural to feel that way)

 

[oponopono]

uau, im very grateful for all the different insights, so many posts, it really moves me!!! :bows: Im sorry i didnt react but i came down with a gastroenteritis, high fever, and an inflammation in the gums, all together. If I was feeling lousy the other day when I posted, I cant describe what Im feeling now... But for me it is still the same process, but seen through the lens of psyche and then of soma, and it is like godessliss says: feel, feel. The whole thing is obviously painful and I must get through it. 32 is sounding more like an advice to keep my coherency, to not back out now in the strong decision I had made to move on. I like the sentence "your heart is in the right place" but it can be a tricky one in this situation: my head as decided to move on but my heart is obviously still with him, otherwise i wouldn't be in so much pain...

Your support really made a difference and im really thankful you took the time to write. You all make sense in what you say, but I still cant figure out the relation between this specific line and my situation.

back to bed....
:bows: