why and 59.2

[alev]

Hi Everyone,
I had recently posted about a guy that i revealed my feelings to and never got a response. Well, lately there have been a few minor friendly interactions, basically just smile and hellos. I had tried to face the fact that if he never responded to me revealing my feelings it was obviously because he didnt feel the same way. But seeing him again made me feel in my gut what I have felt for awhile, that there is something there, something between and we should be giving it a try. This feeling has been with me for a long time and I don't understand how I can feel so strongly about this and he feels nothing.
In frustration with my self i asked "why do I still feel like there is something there and that we should be together doing something about it"
the answer I got was 59.2 changing to 20
I am honestly baffled and cannot even fathom what this means in reference to my question.
As a guess maybe the dissolution is me realizing he does not like me, putting myself out there and now all hopes of being together being dissolved, but I don't understand how this can explain why I still feel the way I do
Maybe I am having a hard time interpreting the reading because I feel so sad inside about the situation, any thoughts on what this may mean would be greatly appreciated

 

[peter2610]

Hi There,
Hex 59 - Dissolution - has possibly come up for two reasons:
Your internal balance is being disturbed by this situation, losing your equilibrium in this way erodes the effectiveness of your personality and dissolves your integrity. Secondly, this hexagram urges you to dissolve any negative views you might hold regarding your friend or the overall situation.
Second yang is urging you to rapidly (lower nuclear trigram-Chen) move away from any erosion or loss of belief in yourself, your friend, or the direction of your path.
Hexagram 20 - Kuan is simply urging you to examine your viewpoint, your take on the situation. Have a good internal examination to see if there are any elements of impatience, anger, unfair expectations, loss of self-regard etc.
This is a Protocol answer, the I Ching is not addressing your question directly. Rather, it is addressing the far more important issue of the loss of direction and belief that prompted your question in the first place. If you try to interpret this answer literally, using the exact terms of your question, it will not make sense. This answer neither confirms nor denies the possibility, at this stage, of any union with your friend; it simply urges you to hold to your own integrity and keep a positive outlook. Peter