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this whole experience made me think of 14 more as "in possession of the great". because... i felt kinda possessed? but in the best possible way. i guess i was being fully myself, but at the same time i completely forgot about myself.
Maybe 14uc was saying ‘this gig is worth a lot of money’!I cast 14uc last year when approached by a potential client who wanted to hire me for a freelance gig. I asked if I should work with her (can't remember my precise question which may alter the interpretation).
Turned out to be a nightmare. She wanted to help with a short philanthropic movie and wanted my VFX skills, offering a pittance in exchange- $200 for a gig that I later realized would likely cost $5000+ and require multiple VFX artists. She saw my website and overestimated my capacity to do it (not entirely her fault knowing nothing about my industry). I was quite pressed for cash, and even though I didn't need to take the job I eventually did thinking I need to do anything to make money. I was in school at the time taking freelance gigs and I figured since its philanthropic it would be okay to take the pay cut.
I grossly overestimated my ability to do the job. It took me about 40 or so hours of work and it ended up being all wrong when I submitted. She didn't even compensate me for the time I spent, since it didn't look great (of course it didn't the needs for the job were completely out of my wheelhouse). Ultimately it was a harsh lesson about valuing my own time and worth accordingly while understanding what I can and can't do- especially being able to say no. I initially had told her that the work was out of my capacity and she insisted optimistically that I would be capable of it since my portfolio website looked so good. I didn't really have the wherewithal or understanding that I could step away since I saw any income as good. Coincidentally I experienced this lesson in work multiple times that year.
Still never understood why I received 14uc. Though in the context of what others posted it sounds like it meant I had everything I needed already. I really didn't need the $200 for the gig (which would amount to about $5.00 an hour for something an artist would do for around $40 an hour). I vastly overestimated the need to do the job as I already had steady income from adjuncting while at school. Though not much it was enough.
I think subconsciously I was operating with the belief that I was lucky to get even a pittance. I think 14uc may have been responding to that.
I think it's the latter lol. Like I mentioned it was only $200 offered for something that would likely have cost $5000+ for a professional team to do it. Often times people think VFX art is a click of a button and easy to do so she may not have realized the cost of what she was looking for.Maybe 14uc was saying ‘this gig is worth a lot of money’!
or ‘this gig will turn out to be a valuable lesson!’
I mean maybe it was saying the job is worth a lot ($5000) - ie much more than was being offered ($200)!I think it's the latter lol. Like I mentioned it was only $200 offered for something that would likely have cost $5000+ for a professional team to do it. Often times people think VFX art is a click of a button and easy to do so she may not have realized the cost of what she was looking for.
Certainly was a lesson.
Yes, basically you under quoted yourself, I have done it many times when I started and was pushed for cash. If you had 50k cash in your bank account no way would you have considered that offer. She got what she paid for.I cast 14uc last year when approached by a potential client who wanted to hire me for a freelance gig. I asked if I should work with her (can't remember my precise question which may alter the interpretation).
Turned out to be a nightmare. She wanted to help with a short philanthropic movie and wanted my VFX skills, offering a pittance in exchange- $200 for a gig that I later realized would likely cost $5000+ and require multiple VFX artists. She saw my website and overestimated my capacity to do it (not entirely her fault knowing nothing about my industry). I was quite pressed for cash, and even though I didn't need to take the job I eventually did thinking I need to do anything to make money. I was in school at the time taking freelance gigs and I figured since its philanthropic it would be okay to take the pay cut.
I grossly overestimated my ability to do the job. It took me about 40 or so hours of work and it ended up being all wrong when I submitted. She didn't even compensate me for the time I spent, since it didn't look great (of course it didn't the needs for the job were completely out of my wheelhouse). Ultimately it was a harsh lesson about valuing my own time and worth accordingly while understanding what I can and can't do- especially being able to say no. I initially had told her that the work was out of my capacity and she insisted optimistically that I would be capable of it since my portfolio website looked so good. I didn't really have the wherewithal or understanding that I could step away since I saw any income as good. Coincidentally I experienced this lesson in work multiple times that year.
Still never understood why I received 14uc. Though in the context of what others posted it sounds like it meant I had everything I needed already. I really didn't need the $200 for the gig (which would amount to about $5.00 an hour for something an artist would do for around $40 an hour). I vastly overestimated the need to do the job as I already had steady income from adjuncting while at school. Though not much it was enough.
I think subconsciously I was operating with the belief that I was lucky to get even a pittance. I think 14uc may have been responding to that.
Thanks for this, I can really relate, every Sunday I stress to a degree about what needs to be done with up and coming week. However, every Monday I wonder why I was in this frame of mind. When I am doing my work its like I am on auto-pilot (in the zone) thats when people are at there best I feel. I believe years of that sort of thing have led me to my recent 14 reading. If you notice there are not to many posts here. Meaning, I do not think people cast 14 often expecially unchanging.i had a great experience with 14 uc recently, before 2nd interview for a job i eventually got.
i asked: anything i need to know about for the interview tomorrow? it confused me at first but then also gave enough confidence to believe "i already got it" so i didn't prepare anymore and let myself sleep well - though i didn't. so i was still quite stressed out on the day itself and nothing seemed to be going right. but then the moment i walked into the building something really weird happened. as if my attention completely shifted. i was totally present the whole time. this feeling was gone as soon as it was over and once i left i immediately became my old irritable self. it was pretty strange and though i obviously had to talk about my best achievements (in hindsight - something i could have prepared myself more on), this whole experience made me think of 14 more as "in possession of the great". because... i felt kinda possessed? but in the best possible way. i guess i was being fully myself, but at the same time i completely forgot about myself.
i've been pondering on hex 3 a lot lately and feudal lords kept crossing my mind. so to me 14 felt like becoming the feudal lord for the time of the interview, as if i was being in service of something bigger than me (i'm not religious in any way - spiritual, maybe, yes - but all this made me think 14 is about "the will of heaven" at its very core and only the afterthought led me to discover 43's nuclear is indeed 1)... so the word dominion really fits here, while, back to more evident interpretation, we also discussed the responsibilities and scope of the work i'm to do. overall, difficult to describe how 14 feels (other than great? ) but i feel lucky to have experienced it this way.
Meng that reminds of the scene in madmen where dons friend draws the world tarot card for him in a reading and says how it means that we are all part earth , fire, water and wind and then she says something like " I think it means that the only thing that keeps you separate is the belief that you are alone"
And somehow that makes me think of the well and how it is sad when we don't draw water from it, or lose the ability to. We, ourselves and our relatedness to this world and all within it is a big asset. Just some food for thought, doesn't exactly help bridge 13 and 14. What 13 always reminds me is no man is an island.
I also breathe a sigh of relief when I see 14, reminds me that I am enough. I heard these lyrics in a song on the radio today " you have everything you need, look around you, it won't get any better." everything of value is already in front of you, for you to have. The other day I harvested sea weed at the beach to eat for dinner, I get figs, blackberries and fennel from a gully nearby, herbs from the garden etc. these are the community's greatest assets.
Added: oh and I haven't read the thread on 13 but thought I'd add that even if you were stranded at sea, all alone then died you would still be apart of the fellowship of mankind, being under the same sky and all, just more physical distance than usual, a hint of the wide open fields of line 6. And you still 'have' even when stranded alone, like in the life of pi.
Or like Mary Oliver's well known poem http://www.bemindful.org/poems.htm#Anchor-1177
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