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Please give me a message from D
My conclusion about it (so far) is this.
The line describes the end of the time of harvest. Something like an orchard owner, hiring a lot of seasonal staff to harvest his/her orchard. At the end of harvest time, some fruit is kept aside, so that its seeds will start off next season's planting. The orchard owner is carried away on his/her rich sedan chair. The seasonal/temporary staff destroy their temporary orchard huts/dwellings, because they're going to work elsewhere.
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But the pain stills lacerates me often. I feel I am not over mourning. I miss D. so much. I love my family, but sometimes I wish I am not here anymore. In these years I have tried therapy, alternative healing, writing, meditating -everything I could think of to learn to accept and let go.Today I felt like I could sleep forever. The pain is unbearable.I asked the Master "Please give me a message from D."I don't know if one is supposed to ask such questions. I just need to talk to him one more time. An explanation. His death was so sudden and sad, like an accident, I could not say goodbye.He was a beautiful, caring, respectful human being. One of a kind.I know I have responsabilities now and I cannot get carried away, I just wish I could let all this go.The Master said 23.6>2. 2 to me represents accepting, go with the flow, being receptive like Earth. It's transparent, and I got the same hexagram when asking "What's to do now?" , nevertheless I would like to dig deeper here, and to read other people's opinions.What about 23.6Do you think you can give me an advice for that line?I am sorry I can't offer a deeper explanation. I wish if someone could advice me what to ask in this case, that would be helpful too.Thank you with all my heart for reading me.
. It's just that being so close, emotions were and are still overwhelming. Not only sadness but also guilt. (How didn't I see it coming? Why didn't I pay enough attention? Why didn't I get home on time?).
I just don't feel I am over the pain. I know I have to move on sometime. But i won't fight it. If this is his message so I see that the ripe fruit could be our connection that is not lost. He may be in another wavelength, yes... connected to me through this part of us that cannot die and emerges in dreams and visions.
I felt devastated and cried for weeks.I didn't know how to carry on with my life so I followed my parents advice. I took a job offer, left our house and moved with a friend.It was a quick process and I felt empty, but I accepted what life brought
Coming back to Earth, our mother -from dust to dust. I don't think I am ready to let go his traces in this world though, in this the fifth year from his death I got back to our neighborhood for the first time, walking through the streets we walked so much, looking at the trees and houses we liked. I went to our old house and looked at it from the outside, I don't know who lives there now.. I sat on our favorite bench and had so many memories of him coming to me I had to write them down. I remember his disregard to material things.
..His true belief that we should take care of our Earth and try to feed ourselves without cruelty. He talking to me about unconditional love: acceptance. Being stronger together. Love for all beings. So yes.. probably through pain my heart opened :,) Maybe it's all part of the process. Maybe I needed to open this, to share it, this strange knowledge with other people. Maybe he is the chun tzu being transported to a better place and I need to stop thinking as an inferior person
I feel I am not over mourning. I miss D. so much. I love my family, but sometimes I wish I am not here anymore.
Can I ask "Why?" now?( ( I thank everyone who took the time to reply here. I'm taking the time to read carefully. Your words are much appreciated ) )
I've been reading the text of this hexagram from various sources and I understand your point. This resonates within me because I always tend to question myself. So, being a noble man would be to learn what I haven't learn from this experience yet, "illuminate" myself and let go. That's a very wise thing to do. I will try to correct my fails -be more conscious in my present life, but also I will try to honor my own path and not to add guilt or burdens to my process of grief. Thank you so much for your words.So you have to move on. Get a carriage and go somewhere else. You can t have what you long for.But don t panic. The fruit you can t reach is ripe and will soon fall o to the ground and ripen something else.As I have learnt it to be, Lucuma, you have two options here: be a small man, insisting and doing a mess, or be the noble one, get a carriage and move on
Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
Phone/ Voicemail:
+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
+1 (561) 459-4758 (US).