Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
Phone/ Voicemail:
+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
+1 (561) 459-4758 (US).
My baby daddy barely talks nor has seen our baby boy (well almost 3yo) in almost 2 yrs. We were together for 12+ yrs but our son wasn't born until the very end of our marriage. Anyhooo, I basically don't even know him anymore like I thought I did and started asking myself what that relationship was all about. How did I lose my best friend to barely talking?? We split bc I didn't want to raise our son while his alcoholism in full effect and I was drowning in misery. I asked Yi too and gave me:
17.5>51 Following shock Changing only this line creates Hexagram 51 - Chen / The Arousing (Shock, Thunder). Following a leader who inspires and lives up to expectations creates good fortune for both the follower and the leader being followed. Legge says "... the ruler sincere in fostering all that is excellent" Good call, YEEZ! - I get it - I know how this movie ends! I followed (17) this boy to another city/state and committed, leaped without looking (Line 5), because we were so blindly in love. It was a sure thing. Undeniable. Lots of belssings came out of it like my son and my career. But not without a lot of pain and loss at the end (51).
Fast forward to me tryna date again - and breaking up twice with a "not a robber" Hex 22.4 guy, I discovered with the help of Yi that I have a fear of abandonment making me unavailable to commit. Or just be vulnerable without being cold, aloof, defensive, or oppositional H38.6. It's been kinda painful to lose this connection even though it was me who broke things off and I asked how/why did this relationship with Nx change me?
17.5>51 Following shock I can't put my finger on this answer even though I understood it in the other toss about my exH. I put up with so much more bullsheeet and longer than I did in my relationship with Hex 22.4 (Nx). Why following shock? Or was I chasing disaster in this relationship? This is where I'm requesting your thoughts on what this line means. It says auspicious, and I guess so, but it's still not clear to me. Or is the Yi telling me I'm seeking out the same kind of relationships still? The more things change the more things stay the same? I'd be grateful for your time and efforts to help me understand.
17 zhi Hexagram 51, Shock. A way of managing the experience of repeated storms and quakes with a single intention, single chalice to hold to
Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
Phone/ Voicemail:
+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
+1 (561) 459-4758 (US).