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Hi all, At Hans_/Trojina's suggestion I am starting this in a fresh thread.
By way of backstory -- I have a high stress job with a somewhat challenging boss. After having COVID in August 2022 (becoming long covid) and being treated poorly - I began to think about finding another job. My casting for my current job indicated it would be lonely and hard, although rewarding - which remains true.
Fast forward - end of 2023 - I remain in my same job – mostly as no other replacement job has presented itself despite looking. The market in my specialty field is quite slim. The year has been tough and lonely as previously suggested by Yi --> more as the year progressed. My boss remains unkind, and mostly criticizes me severely – despite my work quality being good as judged on several unbiased metrics (he also says very unkind things about many other people -- not just me, but behind their backs in small social groups). I uncovered that my boss has also been taking higher paying work away from me and diverting it to my male colleagues in my division, which I have quietly documented but have not brought up in discussions with him directly. I have continued to work to be the best version of myself and my skills at work continue to improve.
I spent a lot of this year on introspection – there were indeed many 29s in my year – and my lack of ability to perform good boundary setting at work and lower self-confidence led to a repeating cycle of verbal disparagement from my boss, who has internal issues. I have spoken with professors outside of my division who know the treatment is bad – but worry about retribution if I file complaint. Externally – my boss puts on a very nice face and is well respected by many which makes it difficult. I can’t afford to lose this job – especially as the job market is so poor right now and I have elderly parents (I am only child).
I have continued to work with a coach to let my boss’s insults go and to just go on with my job and trust my outcomes as my proof of quality. It has been challenging, as I have had to work on many prior life traumas that make this hard to change. I am a bit overwhelmed and exhausted from too many hours of work and barely any days off.
I asked for 2024:
What to expect this year? 31.1.4 --> 46
How my career looks in 2024? 42.5 --> 27
Can you show me what it looks like where I am working? 6.1.2.3.5 --> 30
Can you show my relationship with XXX (boss) in 2024? 59 Uc
My thoughts on this --
31.1.4 --> 46
I interpret this to mean that if I am not impulsive, and remain consistent and steady in my pursuits (both at work and in self-development) I will have some progress this year.
42.5 --> 27
I interpret this to mean again if I keep on my steadfast course at work, despite all my boss has done to me, and I only seek the good of my patients and those I work with, this will be met with favor and ultimately I will feel nourished and supported – this may not be from my boss (and most likely not!), but that I reach the point where I feel nourished and supported by my own inner confidence.
6.1.2.3.5 --> 30
I asked if Yi could show where I am working this year, to see if perhaps any change of scenery was afoot – or what the workplace environment would look like. I interpret this result with a laugh to mean I will remain at my same job – and that my boss will not change or improve. The arguing or stress of 6.1/2/3 remind me to stay humble and simply focus on my work. If I do this with good sincerity, I take it I will reach 6.5 and my dedication will be recognized, and I will at least have a position at work that will be clarified. Perhaps it means I will be canned? But I see at least a sense of resolution.
59 Uc
I don’t know how to interpret this in regard to my boss. Does this mean the relationship will gradually improve?
I would be deeply grateful as always for any insight from those here – over the year, your readings and insights have been very helpful in guiding me. Wishing you all a happy new year in 2024.
By way of backstory -- I have a high stress job with a somewhat challenging boss. After having COVID in August 2022 (becoming long covid) and being treated poorly - I began to think about finding another job. My casting for my current job indicated it would be lonely and hard, although rewarding - which remains true.
Fast forward - end of 2023 - I remain in my same job – mostly as no other replacement job has presented itself despite looking. The market in my specialty field is quite slim. The year has been tough and lonely as previously suggested by Yi --> more as the year progressed. My boss remains unkind, and mostly criticizes me severely – despite my work quality being good as judged on several unbiased metrics (he also says very unkind things about many other people -- not just me, but behind their backs in small social groups). I uncovered that my boss has also been taking higher paying work away from me and diverting it to my male colleagues in my division, which I have quietly documented but have not brought up in discussions with him directly. I have continued to work to be the best version of myself and my skills at work continue to improve.
I spent a lot of this year on introspection – there were indeed many 29s in my year – and my lack of ability to perform good boundary setting at work and lower self-confidence led to a repeating cycle of verbal disparagement from my boss, who has internal issues. I have spoken with professors outside of my division who know the treatment is bad – but worry about retribution if I file complaint. Externally – my boss puts on a very nice face and is well respected by many which makes it difficult. I can’t afford to lose this job – especially as the job market is so poor right now and I have elderly parents (I am only child).
I have continued to work with a coach to let my boss’s insults go and to just go on with my job and trust my outcomes as my proof of quality. It has been challenging, as I have had to work on many prior life traumas that make this hard to change. I am a bit overwhelmed and exhausted from too many hours of work and barely any days off.
I asked for 2024:
What to expect this year? 31.1.4 --> 46
How my career looks in 2024? 42.5 --> 27
Can you show me what it looks like where I am working? 6.1.2.3.5 --> 30
Can you show my relationship with XXX (boss) in 2024? 59 Uc
My thoughts on this --
31.1.4 --> 46
I interpret this to mean that if I am not impulsive, and remain consistent and steady in my pursuits (both at work and in self-development) I will have some progress this year.
42.5 --> 27
I interpret this to mean again if I keep on my steadfast course at work, despite all my boss has done to me, and I only seek the good of my patients and those I work with, this will be met with favor and ultimately I will feel nourished and supported – this may not be from my boss (and most likely not!), but that I reach the point where I feel nourished and supported by my own inner confidence.
6.1.2.3.5 --> 30
I asked if Yi could show where I am working this year, to see if perhaps any change of scenery was afoot – or what the workplace environment would look like. I interpret this result with a laugh to mean I will remain at my same job – and that my boss will not change or improve. The arguing or stress of 6.1/2/3 remind me to stay humble and simply focus on my work. If I do this with good sincerity, I take it I will reach 6.5 and my dedication will be recognized, and I will at least have a position at work that will be clarified. Perhaps it means I will be canned? But I see at least a sense of resolution.
59 Uc
I don’t know how to interpret this in regard to my boss. Does this mean the relationship will gradually improve?
I would be deeply grateful as always for any insight from those here – over the year, your readings and insights have been very helpful in guiding me. Wishing you all a happy new year in 2024.