Finding a new job to replace my present one 39.5 >15, 12.3.6 > 31, 46.1.4 > 34

[Flowing like water]

Hi everybody,

I would like some of your precious help to interpret my casts.
Here the background.

I moved to a new city almost 3 years ago to find more stability. As an artist, I've been experimenting with arts most of my life, till I decided to find a place where to stay and find a more stable career other than the art scene.

During the last few years I did my best to work in the audiovisual sector (commercial, film and tv industry) by using my skills in video production acquired as a video artist.

During this time here, I have worked as a freelance video maker, but my incomes and contacts were not enough to survive, that's why I decided to take a side job as a baby sitter to have a small and stable income beside my freelancing incomes as a video maker.

I did a lot of small but good steps and investments towards my goal and a lot of sacrifices.
I took this job as a part-time baby sitter one year ago (taking care of a kid 3 hours per day). It was good for many reasons but with the lockdown my financial situation got worse and the kid was not so easy to handle with. I started to feel more and more I wanted to leave this job. I did (and I do) this side job with all love I can, I try not to complain, but I feel it's time to move on.

At the moment, I cannot quit this job yet, not until I can find a new one in my field to fully support myself. I recently had some new contacts for a couple of working opportunities, especially one of them could slowly take me to a good position.

I'm looking forward to finding a new job in my field to replace the baby sitter one and be able to work with my technical skills and previous experiences in the audiovisual sector to support myself.

My questions:

1 - Potential for finding a job to replace my present job as a baby sitter by the end of the year: 39.5 to 15
2 - Will I quit my job as a baby sitter by the end of the year? 12.3.6 to 31
3 - Potential for working for X company (the one I had a interview for collaboration in TV industry) by the end of the year: 46.1.4 to 34

I try my interpretation...
1 - 39 is the obstruction I'm facing now, since the lockdown started and even before somehow. Might someone help me to find a job? The interview I had last week for a possible collaboration starting from September was a contact I had from a friend. I think I enjoy them, they know I don't have some specific background in TV but they appreciated my whole profile and what I could offer. I proposed them to spend some time there for free to watch the way they work. The guy looked interested and enjoyed my previous works (both artistic and commercial).
But what does it mean 15 in this context?

2 - Interpreting this is tricky to me...
Blocked reflects my situation: at the moment I'm not in a position to quit my job as a baby sitter.
Line 3
'Embracing shame.'
What does it mean? The line changes to Retreat, might it mean because I quit I might have discussions with them about it?
I might be totally wrong in my interpretation.
Line 6
'Overturning the block.
Before, blocked. Afterwards, rejoicing.'
Here I'm very confuse. There is rejoicing. So I don't know how to interpret this line in relation to my question of quitting this job.
The resulting hexagram is 31, Influence, a nice hexagram. But in the context of my answer I cannot say if I will be able to quit this job by the end of the year (as I wish) or not...

3 - This cast looks very auspicious. They will offer me an opportunity to advance (work for them) and it will give me power.

I wish you could be so nice to give me some feedbacks.
If so, many thanks!!!

 

[Flowing like water]

Hey is there someone there who might give me some help in my castings?
I still have the same issues in my mind.
I know I Ching cannot really predicts the future, but I would really appreciate some more insight into my job as a baby sitter (first two questions). May you read in I ching's answers to my questions something about this job I cannot see?

If someone could help, I would be very grateful.
Have a nice day )

 

[Trojina]

Well as no one else has come near.....

1 - Potential for finding a job to replace my present job as a baby sitter by the end of the year: 39.5 to 15

I'd say 39.5 would indicate you find help when really in need as you said. 15 here ? Line 5 is the 15ness of 39. A balance is found. There's an extremity of hardship, a need is seen, balance is found through accepting help.

- Will I quit my job as a baby sitter by the end of the year? 12.3.6 to 31

It looks like you will be able to especially if you begin to express more about this. I wonder what the shame is in line 3 ? Do you feel some kind of shame at your situation or is there someone else behaving shamefully to you. I'd guess a sense of shame at your situation may be hampering you in the sense that you sometimes aren't being very open to others enquiries about you ? There's a need for communication to flow, maybe you have been holding stuff back too much. I notice the yang change pattern here is 52 and the yin pattern 58, I think more sharing is the way to go. Then there's the 31 a chance to influence or be influenced by others. In line 6 restrictions are all undone and you can move forward. Try to express your hardships more though when people ask, perhaps make your needs known a little more ? It's possible you have been putting on a bit of a brave face ?

3 - Potential for working for X company (the one I had a interview for collaboration in TV industry) by the end of the year: 46.1.4 to 34

It looks a great cast doesn't it. Rather than power for 34 I'd say your qualities hold up to be seen, therefore they view you favourably in line 1 and in line 4 the work takes you beyond what you may at first envisage.



Whilst this is a great cast for this company bear in mind Yi's idea of good fortune isn't always the same as ours - in other words don't place absolute faith you will get this simply because well you know it's best not to celebrate before it arrives.

 

[Flowing like water]

Dear Trojina,
I'm very grateful for your insight.
Your words made me think about.

As for the second answer, there is shame and I suppose the shame is about the little girl I'm taking care of and her parents too, somehow. Despite they are nice people, they relegate too much to my role. She never was an easy girl, because of her strong character and constant need of attention (because since she was born the baby sitters took care of her and she could see her parents not before 8 o'clock in the night). The little girl - 6 years old - is quite manipulative with me and her parents. She forces me to do whatever she wants, I try to not but she is very demanding. Since they feel guilty for their absence, they don't help so much in that way.

During the lockdown the girl spent all time with her parents in smart working and she was playing by herself and mainly watching the ipad and tv. And that's what is still happening till 4.30 pm when I go to her place and she would like me to play with her as if I were a kid. Despite it's summer, she refuses to go out to the park and I negotiate with her every day to convince her to go out. I spoke to her parents about this issue but, despite they recognize the girl is a difficult one, they expect me to be hard with her and able to handle with her at home or outside. In the beginning they tried to help me, and it worked. But they stopped soon to help because they are too much focused on their jobs and for them it's easier to let me deal with her (or to let her do what she wants), than taking actions.

I feel in a trap and I cannot find other solutions than doing my best while there and hoping I can soon quit the job. I told the girl about my difficulties too, she knows very well but she only wants me to do what she wants. I don't think it would help to talk to the parents again. They can see I'm not really happy and how hard it is, but as I said they don't have energy to focus on the issue. I'm there to solve their problems and not to give problems. They pay me for that, and that's mainly what they told me.

That's why it was so important for me to know if I'll have a chance to quit this job as soon as possible or, at least, before the end of the year.

As to the third answer: I agree it's best not to celebrate before this opportunity comes. I hope it will or another one.

Thank you for your help, I will keep you updated once I could quit the job or if something really changes for the better.

 

[Trojina]

Sounds like this is far more than a job it's also an emotional trap. There does sound shame around the girl, their shame also some of yours as it sounds like you have taken on some anxiety about her that is actually theirs. It does sound an odd situation.

I told the girl about my difficulties too, she knows very well but she only wants me to do what she wants.

Well she's only 6 so appealing to her can't help. The parents sound selfish and thoughtless as they hardly seem to be paying attention to her and her needs. I mean she needs other children to play with, interesting games and interaction. Expecting her to get all she needs from watching TV and then playing with you is hardly considering her as a child, more like a pet dog. That is shameful.

Hopefully you will find some liberation soon although if it becomes unbearable perhaps you will walk out ? I know you can't because of the money but sometimes even money isn't enough to put up with things like that. I mean it sounds like emotional torture, it's not just a job you don't like much but a job where you can't provide what's expected and you're oppressed by the parent's needs as well as the child's so you have taken on the whole family dysfunction.

More and more I see 12.3 as saying there are others to blame here, they are wrong. I've found that a few times at least and the I Ching doesn't have many ways to say 'hey it's not you it's them who act shamefully' but I think this may be one of them. What's happening is wrong isn't it ? You are being asked to participate in a situation where a child is being bought up badly and regardless of the pay you won't be able to do that without feeling shame and discomfort yourself. No wonder she is difficult, they pay her no attention.

 

[Trojina]

I also wonder if the 12.3.6>31 shows an improvement in their situation too, that things change which has an impact on your also.

 

[Flowing like water]

You are totally right Trojina and I'm very aware of all you say and I agree with you.
I told the parents she needs other children to play with, interesting games and interaction as you said.
Since the lockdown stopped (beginning of May), the only nice time she had was at July because her grand parents took her to the beach every day till the time I use to go to her.
In fact July was the "best" time for me because the girl was not so much demanding with me.

This week everything is back as before July.
The good news is that I'm on holiday from Monday till the end of August and the girl will go on holidays with her parents too. I'll have some release.

Anyway, you are right. I have to leave this job as soon as possible. The end of the year is my deadline but I think I will probably quit before then (or not later anyway) and if by that time no other opportunity in my field comes to me, I will look for another side job to replace this one.

I cross my finger! Thank you again.

 

[Flowing like water]

I also wonder if the 12.3.6>31 shows an improvement in their situation too, that things change which has an impact on your also.

The situation in September might improve because she will go back to school.
But I feel so sick of this situation that even if tit could improve, for me it's already too much. I cannot stand it anymore since a long time... maybe too long. I need a radical change. Hope it will come soon.