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This is a short story a friend of mine, the Canadian Tony Pale, wrote after trekking in Nepal in the Spring of 2004. I met him at the Doctors Without Borders Camp near Simikot in western Nepal. I lived through some similar experiences, but I would be never able to express them so well.


How far is it to Nuntala?

I felt sorry for myself when, imagining some non-existent reason to get back to Kathmandu, I rushed down from Bupsa and twisted my ankle.

Hobbling along, I really wanted to know just how long it would take for me to get to the warm lodge at Nuntala. I pushed through Jubing and crossed the bridge by noon, stopping to iodise my water and check the time so I would know when I could drink it. I climbed up to the small teahouses past the bridge and thought, surely it could be no more then two hours up the hill. I looked at my watch: 15 minutes till I could drink.

As I sat, a dozen soldiers appeared in the scrub at the far end of the small hamlet, with them two Nepali teenagers, a girl and a boy. They seemed to be arguing. The soldiers gestured at them with waves of their M-16s. The two were now hysterical, shouting back at the soldiers.

I looked at my watch, 13 minutes. When I looked up again, the two teenagers were running away from the soldiers, heads down and running hard towards where the plateau that the village stood on dropped to the river and the bridge. A couple of soldiers raised their weapons and almost casually fired five, six rounds. A short burst, and they both fell, one attempting to rise and failing. Two more soldiers walked over and one kicked them, hard, before bending with a pistol and making the dying youths almost sit up with the force of the coup de grace to the head.

I looked again at my watch, registering the fact that I had wet myself. Eleven minutes. The soldiers had seen me and as they prepared to leave, one of them walked over to me, hanging his head shyly like a guilty schoolboy. He stood in front of me trying to summon up some English, finally settling on ?bad people? before joining the rest of the platoon heading up to Khari Khola.

That night I asked Raju in Nuntala for a jug of chang (grain beer). But after one sip, I was retching in the street, unable to stop shaking. I went to my bed, where I could not sleep.

The next day, coffee, breakfast and the climb to Takshindo. The hills were full of army, their cordon moving across the hillside, clearing out Maoists, the occasional burst of gunfire drifting across the hillside as I plodded up. At the Everest View, buying cheese and dried apples, a deaf-mute woman in her sixties mouthed at me, miming shooting. She pulled her skirt up to show a horrific khukri slash, half healed. The lodgekeeper told me Maoists had done it.

The day and light were ending, and clouds were blowing up from the valley across the hill, parting over Trakshindo. The lodgekeeper pointed out Thamserku and Kangtega (7000m high mountains). Why had it been so important for me to know which ones they were?

The lodge in Junbesi was warm and welcoming, the dining room sunny, as the kitchenboy fried eggs. The sauni (young women, who serves in lodges) chatted to me about the Kathmandu schools her children attended. In the last 24 hours, I had turned into a complete chatterbox. Children, trekkers, shopkeepers. I seemed to need the sound of my own voice to confirm my existence.

The sauni?s husband was keen to tell me how the army was in the woods above, between me and the Lamjura, chasing Maoists. I tried to ignore him, but as he talked I had to listen. When they caught Maoists, he told me, they tell them to go, to run away, and then they shoot them down. Villagers know not to run, to stay put and they will not shoot you. Then they know you are just gathering wood. I remembered the boy and the girl. But how do they know they are Maoists, I ask. He looked at me like I was stupid. ?Because they run away.?

A day in the hills of Nepal is a life?a simple, trite, much used phrase. When you trek through these places you are lucky that from the morning peppery chia to the evening dal bhat, you are privileged to see a whole lifetime. You will become part of a landscape in motion as you move through ever-changing mountain views to the changing emotions that play across the faces of children. It will change your life as it has mine. But as I found, and continue finding, it could not be relegated to a corner of your life.

So how far is it to Nuntala? It is the time it takes for ama (a grandmother) to serve out a helping of yogurt and refuse payment. It is the time it takes Tashi in Kyangjuma to see our meal is perfect despite the huge trekking group we share her lodge with, and the fact that armed Maoists robbed her lodge last night. It is the time it takes to spend with a friend, it is the time it takes to realise the soldiers are as frightened as you are, and if you run, they will shoot. It is the time it takes to realise a remark is thoughtless and wish it unsaid. It is the time it takes to play with and talk to children rather then just photograph them and pass on. It is the time it takes to realise how short life is.

It is the time it takes to realise every moment is important and we can make a difference, both in our own lives and in the lives of those we meet along the way. Ask me anything but please not how far it is or how long it will take, because when you know that, you will also know that it will end.

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I have no words.

But want to aknowledge the story.

Clearing my eyes to type...

There are no Maoists - There are no Soldiers.

There are people.

In the story there is love and understanding and the need to be understood.

Also deeply hurtful things that people do - Because they do not know any different.

I have tears for the old lady and for the children and I have tears for the soldiers too.

Yet there is no evil here... Just mind and pain propagating mind and pain... people floundering in the dark.

I hope you are able to make a difference.

With love and blessings

--Kevin

Well I had no words when I started to type...
 

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...yes Kevin, for sure we try, at least. Inescapeably, we often fail.

But there are so many wounderful people out there... Wherever you go...

I had to think about you, when I got the story from Tony. Now I know why.

Your words are deeply touching me and see the core in this.

Those pics are for you, Hillary, too. Hope that means not too much use of bandwidth.

Namaste,

Soshin
 

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...and yes, I could add some stories of myself, too, but this will take time.

I had to quit there because it was too much for me. Normally one stays one year.

They see something near-to-gods in us Docs and Nurses, but we can hardly help everybody. It is the drop on the hot stone, as a saying in German goes.

They tell you stories, even more touching than the one of Tony. They stand through so much, good and bad. And they always smile. They sing while working hard in the fields and make the best festivals I ever have been a part of.

The western world seems very strange to me now.

Namaste,

Soshin

And the Yi helped a lot there, of course...
 

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Thanks Soshin

You know for all of the work I do (clinical/psych.) - The thing that really seems to make the difference is love and understanding.

I know you are 'medical? and that might be a lot different.

In my line I find by accepting people, openly, they seem to become less fearful and with that their distress and sometimes fear/anger for others diminishes...

Sometimes I have to rush out with food (or other need ? like safety) to people who I suddenly find have not eaten for some days... It is the being there that seems to matter more to them than the food most often.

I am often called to the Police Cells to assess folk after they have (allegedly) perpetrated dreadful acts/crimes? Mostly to find that they have a history which has left them dreadfully stunted emmotionally, deeply injured by abuse, or sometimes worse...

So

Thinking about the ?Evil? thread? yes? So often, with deep sadness I leave these immature, emotionally injured (ex abused, raped or worse) people weeping in their cell ? dismiss the psychiatrist who would be their exit route to care and a hospital bed ? and file a statement that the person was aware of their actions and is fit to stand trial.

Tell me about evil? mostly I just see severely injured minds/hearts and the darkness of ignorance.

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Crossed post - Sorry

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Much beauty in those folk - I remeber well.

Streangth to your work.

It must be both heartening and hard.


--K
 

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BTW - The young child reaching up with her head back to sip water - What a beautiful statement of life.
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Also - Wear more sunscreen!!!!

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Kevin,

May it be so.

Love and blessings from here too.

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Rinda,

it is like he said.

And Kevin,
although our approach (psychical and medical) seems different, both we get to similar experiences and answers. Why? I dare to answer we meet people on crossroads of their life, you the psychically impaired, and me - seemingly - the physically.

Working on a Cardiac Care Unit, we have to do the acute work, but when people begin to feel better physically after a heart attack or as a sudden death survivor, the soul starts to shine through.

And dont tell me about nobody dies today because of a broken heart anymore. It is one of the main causes of death, phyisically and emotionally.

However, I hear what you say very clear. And thank you for saying it.
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BTW: The guy on the pic is Doc Tony (non-pale) from Toronto, Ontario, not me. I were like the red hugger on the right. Like a crab...
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You were in Nepal?
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Namaste,

Soshin
 

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One Innkeeper north of Pokhara has a sign in front of his lodge, written partially in Devanagari (the Nepali/Indian Script), and partially in English.

I havent got a pic of it, but I swear he translated the Devanagari sentence into english with "Come back again".

But really it reads: "Dont let love ever die"
 

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Ah, Rinda - Please, let it be so.

You don't bleat as much as I and I know you too listen to the damage and do what you can... (Shy zen nod).

Soshin - My heart is with you. I cannot begin to imagine the pain and suffering you have to bear to do what you do.

Maybe swallowing that is a key to healing?

I am working on Hx.39 at the moment - will post in about a week... Seems to be a key to working with all of this.

Warmly to both

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Yes, agreed.

Living with pain/danger/damage/wrongness and finding the best way through it rather than trying to strong-arm it or to stone-wall it or escape it or kill it is a huge part of the key, IMO... Although there may be times, I'm sure, when those are or appear to be the only options.

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Yes

And sometimes they appear to be...

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I am so full of admiration for you people who put yourselves out there where you're needed and help. Someone has to do it - thank God for the people who do.

It reminds me a bit of how I felt once at the Willows day centre, the week we had a presentation from the RNLI - the lifeboat service. I spend one day a week fetching, carrying, entertaining etc... and get a warm, cosy feeling from it. (And 20 honorary grandparents!) Then we hear about people who also do 'voluntary work', it's just that theirs involves being perpetually on call to go out in small boats on rough seas. A bit different from knowing that Doris takes two sugars, and Dorothy likes her black coffee topped up with a little cold water. (Though knowing Doris and Dorothy is beyond price.)

It's late, and I'm afraid I may not be expressing this very intelligibly. The point is that you've given me a welcome dose of perspective - thank you.
 

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Gruess Dich, Hilary,

I find what you are doing is great. We, and of course the grannies need you volunteers very much. There is so much paperwork to be done, sometimes there is not the time I would like to spend with them. You help, too.

I find it wonderful that here is a place where we all, the helpers, can tell our stories. Its important, I think.

And I get a warm, cozy feeling from it. ;-)

Servus and Namaste,

Soshin
 
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Hilary, me thinks you sell yourself and service up short. You do much for the good in the work you do here, with your clients (don't tell me it's for the money, I now know better), and with the ones you care for each and every day.

I admire very much the work Soshin is called to do. But let's remember that each of us has the opportunity each and every day to touch others where they need it most, right where we live.

Soshin, you set a shining example. Thank you for that.
 

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But let's remember that each of us has the opportunity each and every day to touch others where they need it most, right where we live.

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Yeah, Candid!

"Hilary, me thinks you sell yourself and service up short.
You do much for the good in the work you do here, with your
clients (don't tell me it's for the money, I now know
better), and with the ones you care for each and every day..."

Bravo!

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Well, I don't have any objections to money at all...
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But I do my work from a safe distance, behind a computer keyboard or occasionally a telephone. I do think it makes a difference.

Anyway - truly wonderful book for helpers (for everyone) - Ram Dass, How can I help?
 

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"...the work Soshin is called to do..."

And Candid, and Rinda, and Hilary, and Kevin, and...

English is a beautiful language. to be called to do something... Really beautiful.

Who calls, if not the heart/mind?

I told this story once here in this forum, maybe you remember:

I eventually met a monk in Nepal in the nineties and we became sort of friends. We had the same path to go, so...

After a while he asked me, what my business were. I answered something like "a nurse" and had to explain the whole concept, because he never even saw a hospital.

And as he understood, his face showed genuine happyness, and he said: "Oh, you are allowed to help. This is good Karma."

This is another point of view...
 

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Ram Dass, How can I help?

Annnnnnnnd.... bought!

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Three passions have governed my life:
The longings for love, the search for knowledge,
And unbearable pity for the suffering of humanity.
Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness.
In the union of love I have seen
In a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision
Of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined.

With equal passion I have sought knowledge.
I have wished to understand the hearts of people.
I have wished to know why the stars shine.

Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens,
But always pity brought me back to earth;
Cries of pain reverberated in my heart
Of children in famine, of victims tortured
And of old people left helpless.
I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot,
And I too suffer.

This has been my life; I found it worth living.


~ Bertrand Russell
 

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Just want to voice my agreement that Clarity is a worthwhile endeavor that in it's own way does a lot of good for people.

So, thanks, Hilary. :)

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