What if I go today? 57.3 to 59

[emilia_ro]

I was invited to a get together tonight.. at my previous employer's office. I loved working there and it was really hard for me when I was let go. 3 people that I consider my friends are quitting this month and today they are organizing an office party / networking event. I was surprised to be invited.

I would love to see my friends, especially one of them who is pregnant and moving to another city, so there won't be more chances to meet in some time. However, I also feel nervous given the circumstances. The reading doesn't look very encouraging:
Line 3: "Repeated penetration. Humiliation" (Wilhem)

Perhaps this encounter is "too forced"? What do you all think?

 

[breakmov]

Ola emilia_ro

Reading only shows your indecision in accepting the invitation... If other people had the pleasure of inviting you, even though you no longer work there, why so many doubts?

breakmov

 

[Sarah_]

Perhaps by going you will subtly penetrate (57), more deeply understand the reasons why you were let go, and why the others are leaving / dispersing (59) from the office?

 

[Sarah_]

Ola emilia_ro

Reading only shows your indecision in accepting the invitation... If other people had the pleasure of inviting you, even though you no longer work there, why so many doubts?

breakmov

I think it’s understandable to feel hesitant about joining ex work colleagues at their work evening after having been let go from a job? Perhaps the 57 to 59 also reflect this anxiety..? Penetrating deeply the dispersion..?

 

[emilia_ro]

Ola emilia_ro

Reading only shows your indecision in accepting the invitation... If other people had the pleasure of inviting you, even though you no longer work there, why so many doubts?

breakmov

Hi breakmov, thanks for your perspective! Being fired from this job was worse than a break up for me, and I guess I'm afraid of it being too awkward, or that it will set me back, or maybe just give me an anxiety attack. Since I asked "what if I go" and the response was so negative, I was thinking of it as a warning against going.

 

[breakmov]

The description you gave of your previous work in terms of relationships with the people who invited you seemed quite positive. I was left with the idea that "the way you left the company", something that belongs to the past, is "shadowing your decision-making capacity".
Why not disperse "all that extra" and focus on what is simpler and more essential, linked to what is really happening?

-You were invited to a farewell party for people you had a friendship with.
-You would like to see these friends again.
-You are undecided because "your personal vision of how you were removed from your previous work" has grown to the point of conditioning this invitation.

The answer is not negative, it just reflects your state of uncertainty regarding the invitation...a decision you have to make and not "this reading 57.3--59" for you.

breakmov

 

[emilia_ro]

Forgot to update this!

I was prepared to go, encouraged by the responses on this thread. I texted my friend to let her know I was coming, she replied saying that everyone I knew was not coming because they were all sick and that she was going to bed very early (pregnancy tiredness). So I ended up not going.