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[deusa]

In a love situation i asked what i should do for my happiness.
I interpreted this as: be careful not to nourish him losing yourself. But give what is acceptable and then turn and go back on your path.

And so I sent a supporting mail.
Afterwards he sent me a mail thanking me and saying he was on a process that needed distance and time.
So we should stop contact.
I actually agree with him.

So, with a very heavy heart, I'm turning back on my path...

 

[deusa]

This was yesterday.
Today, in pain, i asked: love life in 3 months?
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To me it describes how i feel. Isolated, yes, but i was on a state that was becoming overwhelming and threatened to break the foundations of what was there and ruin it.
Lise's comment on line 3 is really funny... because i do fear i'm "too old"...

 

[deusa]

Read a lot and thought a lot about this. My situation is of overload. My roof was breaking. We stopped contact when i was at the end of my rope, so to say. Maybe we should have stopped a bit earlier...
but i read a thead where this line meant, looking at it after sometime, to don't be too rigid. More flexible things break less.
As a friend said to me, don't think now "what shall i do if...", just let life unfold and see how you feel.
So, don't overload myself.